Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Wed Aug 30, 2006 5:08 am

i cried when i found out My Chemical Romance was playing at the VMAs, but now i remember the reason i don't watch MTV

powdahchica · Post by **powdahchica** » Wed Aug 30, 2006 5:51 am

PMs appreciated...

- It took me so long to acknowledge the feelings I had for her, because I'd fought my feelings for girls for so long, that I can't bear to let those feelings go.
- I wish she cared about me at all.
- I wish I didn't care that she doesn't care about me at all, but it's tearing me up inside.
- Every time she texts me my heart goes all fluttery and happy
- I don't have the courage to flirt with other girls

Please let me know I'm being heard...

Fieryphoenix · Post by **Fieryphoenix** » Wed Aug 30, 2006 6:20 am

i miss you so much. why did you leave? i know htat you lied. but why would you lie to me? i adore you; and would do anything for you. and you know it. and it seems like you use it against me. i don't get it. i hate you.

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Wed Aug 30, 2006 1:10 pm

I think it'd be easier for me if you didn't care.

Aly · Post by **Aly** » Wed Aug 30, 2006 4:51 pm

I wish you were more physically attractive that you are...then I could be more easily attracted to you...

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu Aug 31, 2006 1:04 pm

I already know that I only love you because I have to as you're family....I swear that if I'd rather lose everything good in my life than become like you. You're all the things that I despise in people, and as soon as I'm able I'm cutting you out of my life.

mahendo'sat · Post by **mahendo'sat** » Fri Sep 01, 2006 4:17 am

Comments OK

The only one who knows I SI is my T
- - no one will ever see my scars because I can't imagine anyone would want to look at me that closely.

Tonight I drove to the bridge and looked over, but couldn't jump. I'm going to consider it a 'dry run.'
- - I won't tell anyone IRL this, not even my T, because in my state that's enough to get me committed and I'm a 'respected' professional.
- - Also, I know their computers (where our medical records are kept) aren't secure. This doesn't make me paranoid. It makes me good at my job.

- I can't even be a good BUS forum member.

- Mom thought about aborting me. I wish she had.

silenceBROKEN · Post by **silenceBROKEN** » Fri Sep 01, 2006 4:53 am

I'm not sure what the truth is anymore.

I used to feel huge, now I am huge.

I'm not going to tell anyone about those slips. And I don't feel guilty in the slightest.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Fri Sep 01, 2006 12:46 pm

I'm pretending.

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Fri Sep 01, 2006 7:20 pm

I dont like him
-- but i dont want to hurt him
-- he needs someone to look after him

PMs, please?

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Fri Sep 01, 2006 10:36 pm

i know he loves me and i know he wants to be with me... but i'm so selfish i will lead him on, just to get the nearness that i need at the moment... it will never be serious between us... he might think so... and though i love hime very much... i just know it wont...
he's in the military... planning to stay and make a careere out of it... and i can't have another guy like that in my life... my dad is enough... he wants to be stationed away from here... and i look terrible in black... it would never work... but i love him, he's such a great friend... i love the way he's always ready to jump to my rescue... when ever i need him he'll be here... i just don't call him when ever i really need him... maybe i should...

Silme Lor · Post by **Silme Lor** » Sat Sep 02, 2006 3:34 am

I wish I had something real to complain about.
I wish I could be good at something, even if it got me nowhere.
I wish my parents hated me so I could hate them back.
I wish I was dead but I'm just as afraid of dying.
I wish I never started cutting.
I wish I was pretty.
I wish I wasn't fat.
I wish I didn't feel guilty making this post.
I wish everything wasn't so pointless.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sat Sep 02, 2006 4:15 pm

I love you with all my heart baby. I'd love to be with you forever. I can see it but I'm too afraid to tell you in case it seems too full on.

lotus · Post by **lotus** » Sat Sep 02, 2006 5:49 pm

Comments okay-PM

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I hide my scars but sometimes I want to walk down the street with them in full, ghastly view just so someone will *see* the hurt.

I wanna be taken care of, want my pain to be kissed away and soothed by gentle touches.

I don't want to get better-I am afraid that underneath the depression and scars there is nothing meaningful or worthy of love.

When people tell me I seem "better" I feel my heart sink and I close up and I cave inward 'cause I think that means I have ~lost~ myself.

Sometimes I cut so I can see that the pain is still there and that I still deserve/need help and support, like it legitimizes my need for love and attention.

Bleeding makes me feel raw and beautiful and alive and makes the pain feel real and visceral and free.

I want my T to love me.

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Sun Sep 03, 2006 5:35 am

PMs OK but not requested or anything...

All around me everyone seems to be 'getting better'. And I should be happy for them. And on some level I know I am. But it seems like I'm the only one not ready to stop hurting myself. And it's kind of lonely here.

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Sun Sep 03, 2006 8:22 pm

i'm the most selfish person alive... and i don't fucking want him to go to Iraq and get himself killed... i need him too much...

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Mon Sep 04, 2006 6:20 pm

It's so fucking awesome to actually talk to you like this. I don't want to stop talking to you. I just want you not to forget it. Even though it's nothing major. Don't forget me please.

theboldeditalics · Post by **theboldeditalics** » Mon Sep 04, 2006 8:00 pm

I really wish my girlfriend would accept my religion.

Stephen · Post by **Stephen** » Mon Sep 04, 2006 9:42 pm

PM if you want

-I can't get close to anyone (even my family) because i'm afraid i'll end up hurting them.

-I hate him for what he did, but i still call him a friend

izz · Post by **izz** » Tue Sep 05, 2006 8:31 am

pm's are fine.

i have so many secrets i can't even list them all.

theres a whole lot of things i pretend to hate but in truth i am terrified of but also really really need.

i hate living without them, but i do it anyway.

my big stupid secret wish is that someone would figure out what they are, and give them to me against my will.

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