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i cried when i found out My Chemical Romance was playing at the VMAs, but now i remember the reason i don't watch MTV
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- It took me so long to acknowledge the feelings I had for her, because I'd fought my feelings for girls for so long, that I can't bear to let those feelings go.
- I wish she cared about me at all.
- I wish I didn't care that she doesn't care about me at all, but it's tearing me up inside.
- Every time she texts me my heart goes all fluttery and happy
- I don't have the courage to flirt with other girls
Please let me know I'm being heard...
- It took me so long to acknowledge the feelings I had for her, because I'd fought my feelings for girls for so long, that I can't bear to let those feelings go.
- I wish she cared about me at all.
- I wish I didn't care that she doesn't care about me at all, but it's tearing me up inside.
- Every time she texts me my heart goes all fluttery and happy
- I don't have the courage to flirt with other girls
Please let me know I'm being heard...
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I wish you were more physically attractive that you are...then I could be more easily attracted to you...
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
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The only one who knows I SI is my T
- - no one will ever see my scars because I can't imagine anyone would want to look at me that closely.
Tonight I drove to the bridge and looked over, but couldn't jump. I'm going to consider it a 'dry run.'
- - I won't tell anyone IRL this, not even my T, because in my state that's enough to get me committed and I'm a 'respected' professional.
- - Also, I know their computers (where our medical records are kept) aren't secure. This doesn't make me paranoid. It makes me good at my job.
- I can't even be a good BUS forum member.
- Mom thought about aborting me. I wish she had.
The only one who knows I SI is my T
- - no one will ever see my scars because I can't imagine anyone would want to look at me that closely.
Tonight I drove to the bridge and looked over, but couldn't jump. I'm going to consider it a 'dry run.'
- - I won't tell anyone IRL this, not even my T, because in my state that's enough to get me committed and I'm a 'respected' professional.
- - Also, I know their computers (where our medical records are kept) aren't secure. This doesn't make me paranoid. It makes me good at my job.
- I can't even be a good BUS forum member.
- Mom thought about aborting me. I wish she had.
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I'm pretending.
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
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I dont like him
-- but i dont want to hurt him
-- he needs someone to look after him
PMs, please?
-- but i dont want to hurt him
-- he needs someone to look after him
PMs, please?
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"Dance like no one's watching.
Love like you'll never be hurt.
Sing like there's nobody listening.
And live like it's heaven on earth."
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i know he loves me and i know he wants to be with me... but i'm so selfish i will lead him on, just to get the nearness that i need at the moment... it will never be serious between us... he might think so... and though i love hime very much... i just know it wont...
he's in the military... planning to stay and make a careere out of it... and i can't have another guy like that in my life... my dad is enough... he wants to be stationed away from here... and i look terrible in black... it would never work... but i love him, he's such a great friend... i love the way he's always ready to jump to my rescue... when ever i need him he'll be here... i just don't call him when ever i really need him... maybe i should...
he's in the military... planning to stay and make a careere out of it... and i can't have another guy like that in my life... my dad is enough... he wants to be stationed away from here... and i look terrible in black... it would never work... but i love him, he's such a great friend... i love the way he's always ready to jump to my rescue... when ever i need him he'll be here... i just don't call him when ever i really need him... maybe i should...
/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
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Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
I wish I had something real to complain about.
I wish I could be good at something, even if it got me nowhere.
I wish my parents hated me so I could hate them back.
I wish I was dead but I'm just as afraid of dying.
I wish I never started cutting.
I wish I was pretty.
I wish I wasn't fat.
I wish I didn't feel guilty making this post.
I wish everything wasn't so pointless.
I wish I could be good at something, even if it got me nowhere.
I wish my parents hated me so I could hate them back.
I wish I was dead but I'm just as afraid of dying.
I wish I never started cutting.
I wish I was pretty.
I wish I wasn't fat.
I wish I didn't feel guilty making this post.
I wish everything wasn't so pointless.
"And then, something happened. I let go. Lost in oblivion. Dark and silent and complete. I found freedom. Losing all hope was freedom."
A bit lost...
A bit lost...
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I hide my scars but sometimes I want to walk down the street with them in full, ghastly view just so someone will *see* the hurt.
I wanna be taken care of, want my pain to be kissed away and soothed by gentle touches.
I don't want to get better-I am afraid that underneath the depression and scars there is nothing meaningful or worthy of love.
When people tell me I seem "better" I feel my heart sink and I close up and I cave inward 'cause I think that means I have ~lost~ myself.
Sometimes I cut so I can see that the pain is still there and that I still deserve/need help and support, like it legitimizes my need for love and attention.
Bleeding makes me feel raw and beautiful and alive and makes the pain feel real and visceral and free.
I want my T to love me.
*SI*
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I hide my scars but sometimes I want to walk down the street with them in full, ghastly view just so someone will *see* the hurt.
I wanna be taken care of, want my pain to be kissed away and soothed by gentle touches.
I don't want to get better-I am afraid that underneath the depression and scars there is nothing meaningful or worthy of love.
When people tell me I seem "better" I feel my heart sink and I close up and I cave inward 'cause I think that means I have ~lost~ myself.
Sometimes I cut so I can see that the pain is still there and that I still deserve/need help and support, like it legitimizes my need for love and attention.
Bleeding makes me feel raw and beautiful and alive and makes the pain feel real and visceral and free.
I want my T to love me.
"The world was made for those not cursed with self-awareness."
-Screenplay of Bull Durham, by Ron Shelton
"Pleasure for the beautiful body, but pain for the beautiful soul."
-Oscar Wilde
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All around me everyone seems to be 'getting better'. And I should be happy for them. And on some level I know I am. But it seems like I'm the only one not ready to stop hurting myself. And it's kind of lonely here.
All around me everyone seems to be 'getting better'. And I should be happy for them. And on some level I know I am. But it seems like I'm the only one not ready to stop hurting myself. And it's kind of lonely here.
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zombie emily
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i'm the most selfish person alive... and i don't fucking want him to go to Iraq and get himself killed... i need him too much...
/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
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-I can't get close to anyone (even my family) because i'm afraid i'll end up hurting them.
-I hate him for what he did, but i still call him a friend
-I can't get close to anyone (even my family) because i'm afraid i'll end up hurting them.
-I hate him for what he did, but i still call him a friend
He imagined he could see the very faces of the stars; pale, they were, and smiling gently, as if they had spent so much time above the world, watching the scrambling and the joy and the pain of the people below them, that they could not help being amused every time another little human believed itself the center of its world, as each of us does.
-"Stardust", Neil Gaiman
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pm's are fine.
i have so many secrets i can't even list them all.
theres a whole lot of things i pretend to hate but in truth i am terrified of but also really really need.
i hate living without them, but i do it anyway.
my big stupid secret wish is that someone would figure out what they are, and give them to me against my will.
i have so many secrets i can't even list them all.
theres a whole lot of things i pretend to hate but in truth i am terrified of but also really really need.
i hate living without them, but i do it anyway.
my big stupid secret wish is that someone would figure out what they are, and give them to me against my will.
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