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- barnabygirl
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i wish...
I WISH THEY WOULD UNDERSTAND!!!! AND STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO BUT ACCEPT THE CHOICES I MAKE,, AND STILL CARE
AND EVEN AGREE BETWEEN THEM!!! THAT WOULD HELP
AND EVEN AGREE BETWEEN THEM!!! THAT WOULD HELP
I wish I wasnt scared
I wish I didnt have to make the choices
I wish I didnt have to make the choices
'Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life' Picasso
'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath
My Poetry
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'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath
My Poetry
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97459
My Place
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- Licentia Poetica
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I know you. Why are you feeling so lost here? What can you do to feel more included? Start a new place? Pm some old friends? Find a niche for yourself, there's a few littler boards to choose from where your posts wont disappear so quickly.theatregeek wrote:i wish i still knew people on bus
Barnarby girl? What has happened to make you feel like this? Who is it that you wish would understand. Why can't you explain it to whoever it is? Write a letter or talk to them. Sometimes people cannot understand, but are happier if you at least try to explain situations and help them know that you are thinking about your decisions and making choices based on your own opinins & thoughts.
Black 23 - what are you afraid of? How can you either change this situation or change your thinking about this situation so you are not afraid? Can you find someone to talk to about these choices? Sometimes its good to run your thoughts through someone else's opinion & ideas - you may find something you hadnt thought of.
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
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- Cellardoor
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i wish that i hadnt lied to jess.
i wish that i could just admit to all my lies with out any consequenses.
i wish that i was thinner.
i wish that i wasnt able to be so in human sometimes.
i wish that i was sorry for hurting everyone so much.
i wish that i could think of another way out of this.
i wish i didnt enjoy being sad and getting special attention.
i wish that wishes came true.
i wish that me and jess will still be best friends when were old ladies.
i really wish i live to have kids and get married and see my friends grow up and who they marry and what jobs theyl have and what my mum will be like when shes an old lady and see my little brother have a girlfriend and grown up and.... i want to see what happens to everyone, and be there when they need me, like theyve been here for me, i want to see my world get better and...
sorry.. that turned into an anti SU prep talk for my self...
oh well il post this anyways...
el xxxxxx
i wish that i could just admit to all my lies with out any consequenses.
i wish that i was thinner.
i wish that i wasnt able to be so in human sometimes.
i wish that i was sorry for hurting everyone so much.
i wish that i could think of another way out of this.
i wish i didnt enjoy being sad and getting special attention.
i wish that wishes came true.
i wish that me and jess will still be best friends when were old ladies.
i really wish i live to have kids and get married and see my friends grow up and who they marry and what jobs theyl have and what my mum will be like when shes an old lady and see my little brother have a girlfriend and grown up and.... i want to see what happens to everyone, and be there when they need me, like theyve been here for me, i want to see my world get better and...
sorry.. that turned into an anti SU prep talk for my self...
oh well il post this anyways...
el xxxxxx
I built my house,
Where the ocean meets the land,
It's time to live again,
And pull my dreams out of the sand.
(take the pieces and build them skywards)
(expressions)
FOUR YEARS HAPPY AND FREE!
- Licentia Poetica
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Cellardoor:
I'm really glad you could use this as a way to talk yourself out of SU. You speak of lying to people. Sometimes, to be honest, some lies are kept to yourself. They say the truth will set you free, but sometimes its just too hard for people to get over it. What you have to do however, is make up for it so *you* can be at peace. Maybe try to admit your lies to yourself, and find ways of telling the truth next time, or righting your wrongs.
Why do you wish you were thinner? Do you think that will really help your situation? Do you think it'll make life easier to deal with? I struggle with ED issues too, and i *know* it's really hard but sometimes you need to step back & realise being thinner is not going to help you. However, being healthy could make a really big difference.
I thinking wishing you were sorry, means that at least some part of you is. & thats the first step to making sure you dont make the same mistakes again. Don't be so hard on yourself, it sounds like you're pretty self critical. Everyone mves mistakes, everyone hurts people sometimes.
Nobody enjoys being sad. Nobody wouldn't trade being sad for happy just for the "special attention". There's a difference between attention seeking & attention needing. Someone who's sad needs attention from time to time, just like everybody else. Furthermore, someone thinking they enjoy being sad for attention signifies that there's definately a larger need there than just getting special treatment.
You're right. Wishes don't just come true. You have to work at them. You have to be open to ideas. You have to try. Sometimes you might have to try to change what you wish for.
You say you wish to get old & have kids & be friends with people & all that. Now.. what do you have to do *now* to make your wish come true *later*?
Secret Smile:
There's nothing "wrong" with you per se. It's not something broken that anyone can "fix". It takes time. Have patience (believe me, I know how you feel and someone telling you to have patience is so.. superficial and stupid) But hang in there. You're worth it.
Wishing you weren't too scared isn't going to make you less scared. Decide how you're going to ask, decide who you're going to ask and just *do* it. Jump right in and don't think about it till later. What do you have to lose?
I'm really glad you could use this as a way to talk yourself out of SU. You speak of lying to people. Sometimes, to be honest, some lies are kept to yourself. They say the truth will set you free, but sometimes its just too hard for people to get over it. What you have to do however, is make up for it so *you* can be at peace. Maybe try to admit your lies to yourself, and find ways of telling the truth next time, or righting your wrongs.
Why do you wish you were thinner? Do you think that will really help your situation? Do you think it'll make life easier to deal with? I struggle with ED issues too, and i *know* it's really hard but sometimes you need to step back & realise being thinner is not going to help you. However, being healthy could make a really big difference.
I thinking wishing you were sorry, means that at least some part of you is. & thats the first step to making sure you dont make the same mistakes again. Don't be so hard on yourself, it sounds like you're pretty self critical. Everyone mves mistakes, everyone hurts people sometimes.
Nobody enjoys being sad. Nobody wouldn't trade being sad for happy just for the "special attention". There's a difference between attention seeking & attention needing. Someone who's sad needs attention from time to time, just like everybody else. Furthermore, someone thinking they enjoy being sad for attention signifies that there's definately a larger need there than just getting special treatment.
You're right. Wishes don't just come true. You have to work at them. You have to be open to ideas. You have to try. Sometimes you might have to try to change what you wish for.
You say you wish to get old & have kids & be friends with people & all that. Now.. what do you have to do *now* to make your wish come true *later*?
Secret Smile:
There's nothing "wrong" with you per se. It's not something broken that anyone can "fix". It takes time. Have patience (believe me, I know how you feel and someone telling you to have patience is so.. superficial and stupid) But hang in there. You're worth it.
Wishing you weren't too scared isn't going to make you less scared. Decide how you're going to ask, decide who you're going to ask and just *do* it. Jump right in and don't think about it till later. What do you have to lose?
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
John Churton Collins
*i wish my past would just leave me alone*
* i wish I could just wake up and find out all my life up until now has just been one horrible nightmare*
*I wish this overbearing pain would just go away*
*I wish i didn't have PTSD*
*I wish I was loved*
*hell, I wish I was loveable*
*I wish I was skinny*
*I wish I was pretty*
*I wish I was smarter*
*I wish I could relate to people*
*I wish I could live life not being scared*
*I wish I had someone who loved me for me, and loved me unconditionally*
* i wish I could just wake up and find out all my life up until now has just been one horrible nightmare*
*I wish this overbearing pain would just go away*
*I wish i didn't have PTSD*
*I wish I was loved*
*hell, I wish I was loveable*
*I wish I was skinny*
*I wish I was pretty*
*I wish I was smarter*
*I wish I could relate to people*
*I wish I could live life not being scared*
*I wish I had someone who loved me for me, and loved me unconditionally*
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- Scatterbrain
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- I wish that I could tell you how I really feel... I love you!
- I wish we could talk about serious stuff, not just superficial things
- I wish I could trust you enough to ask for your support in my SI
- I wish I could be myself, although with you I am the closest I can get to openness...
- I wish I could tell you that I love you, so much that it hurts
~Megan
- I wish we could talk about serious stuff, not just superficial things
- I wish I could trust you enough to ask for your support in my SI
- I wish I could be myself, although with you I am the closest I can get to openness...
- I wish I could tell you that I love you, so much that it hurts
~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- Kabluey
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I wish the world wasn't such a stuffed up place.
I wish money had never been invented, instead people actually helped eachother.
I wish instead of cars people rode horses to the supermarket where you could just take the food and leave.
I wish I didn't need food.
I wish I could teleport.
I wish I could fly.
I wish I was at least an incy bit skinnier.
I wish I can die painlessly someday
I wish happiness came just as easy as sadness
I wish money had never been invented, instead people actually helped eachother.
I wish instead of cars people rode horses to the supermarket where you could just take the food and leave.
I wish I didn't need food.
I wish I could teleport.
I wish I could fly.
I wish I was at least an incy bit skinnier.
I wish I can die painlessly someday
I wish happiness came just as easy as sadness
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- (*Haven*)
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I wish my therapist was here.....
My Place Visitors are welcome. New First Post 12/16/08
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
- Seeshellz
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I wish I slept longer than 2 hours last night
I wish I wasn't abused in any way
I wish I didn't have a mental illness
I wish I could stop taking meds.
I wish I could cope better
I wish I would never have to be admitted to a phosp ever again
I wish people would never suffer.
I wish people would never get sick.
I wish people would get along in the world.
I wish there would be no more wars.
I wish there would be no more fighting.
I wish there would be world peace.
I wish for forgiveness.
I wish for happiness.
I wish I wasn't abused in any way
I wish I didn't have a mental illness
I wish I could stop taking meds.
I wish I could cope better
I wish I would never have to be admitted to a phosp ever again
I wish people would never suffer.
I wish people would never get sick.
I wish people would get along in the world.
I wish there would be no more wars.
I wish there would be no more fighting.
I wish there would be world peace.
I wish for forgiveness.
I wish for happiness.
"If you learn from your suffering,
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
- one out of none
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Proper wishes
I wish I could magically take away everyones sadness and hurt.
I wish I could move on.
Stupid wishes, but wishes nonetheless:
That I would meet my favourite band.
That I would not be broke all the time.
That the fire alarm in my building would stop going off in the middle of the night.
That my essays would write themselves.
That I got more hugs IRL.
That people IRL would just be generally nicer to each other on a daily basis.
I wish I could magically take away everyones sadness and hurt.
I wish I could move on.
Stupid wishes, but wishes nonetheless:
That I would meet my favourite band.
That I would not be broke all the time.
That the fire alarm in my building would stop going off in the middle of the night.
That my essays would write themselves.
That I got more hugs IRL.
That people IRL would just be generally nicer to each other on a daily basis.
- (*Haven*)
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I wish that my therapist wouldn't call me back.
I wish that I didn't have to go back to therapy.
I wish that I didn't have to go back to therapy.
My Place Visitors are welcome. New First Post 12/16/08
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
- Seeshellz
- my other car is a bus
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- Location: Hiding in my shell...
I wish my best friend C who lives far away would be able to move closer nearby...and we could visit each other every weekend
"If you learn from your suffering,
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
- wilson
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i wish so much it was me that died not her
i wish i could change the past.
i wish i would never feel alone
i wish i wanted to recover
i wish i wawnted to feel good.
i wish i never felt like this.
i wish...
i wish i could change the past.
i wish i would never feel alone
i wish i wanted to recover
i wish i wawnted to feel good.
i wish i never felt like this.
i wish...
<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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R.I.P. 1953-2008
counting stars
im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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- Seeshellz
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I wish so much that my friend Donna never SUed.(I miss her terribly)
I wish I could get back to eating normally again.
I wish there was no more abuse of any kind.
I wish there was no more sickness.
I wish my friend C and I had enough money so we could go on vacation together.
I wish my friend C is safe right now.(I'm scared for her)
I wish I could get back to eating normally again.
I wish there was no more abuse of any kind.
I wish there was no more sickness.
I wish my friend C and I had enough money so we could go on vacation together.
I wish my friend C is safe right now.(I'm scared for her)
"If you learn from your suffering,
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
- Silent_Tears
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- Location: Kentucky
i wish i didn't hurt so much
i wish people didn't hurt each other
i wish children were protected from harm
i wish i lived closer to my friend
i wish i had better coping skills
i wish i didn't think about si or su
i wish i didn't have a problem with desiring alcohol
i wish my h. hadn't cheated on me
i wish i wasn't such a bad person
i wish i didn't weigh so much
i wish i had a real relationship with my parents
i wish i didn't have to take meds
i wish i was better
i wish i didn't have to go to counseling
i wish i wasn't so attention-seeking
i wish
i wish
i wish...
i wish people didn't hurt each other
i wish children were protected from harm
i wish i lived closer to my friend
i wish i had better coping skills
i wish i didn't think about si or su
i wish i didn't have a problem with desiring alcohol
i wish my h. hadn't cheated on me
i wish i wasn't such a bad person
i wish i didn't weigh so much
i wish i had a real relationship with my parents
i wish i didn't have to take meds
i wish i was better
i wish i didn't have to go to counseling
i wish i wasn't so attention-seeking
i wish
i wish
i wish...
- Scatterbrain
- bus conductor
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- Location: Washington state, USA
I wish I was "normal"
I wish I didnt have to hide my scars anymore
I wish I could finally be accepted by "society"
~Megan
I wish I didnt have to hide my scars anymore
I wish I could finally be accepted by "society"
~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- Seeshellz
- my other car is a bus
- Posts: 34295
- Joined: Tue May 18, 2004 1:51 am
- Location: Hiding in my shell...
I wish I was able to sleep
I wish I was able to express myself more easily
I wish I answered the stupid phone(I messed up!)
I wish I was able to eat
I wish I didn't talk about my ex today
I wish that my friend M2 wasn't being abused my her husband
I wish that my friend C is OK
I wish for alot of things
I wish I was able to express myself more easily
I wish I answered the stupid phone(I messed up!)
I wish I was able to eat
I wish I didn't talk about my ex today
I wish that my friend M2 wasn't being abused my her husband
I wish that my friend C is OK
I wish for alot of things
"If you learn from your suffering,
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
Anonymous
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