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Im sorry I can't deal with this I wish I was a better person but im scared of getting hurt again. I hate her and I never met her and that makes me feel bad, but i feel like im loosing you. dont make me feel like im in the wrong, youd feel the same. why do i feel so alone, this is the only place i feel safe now and can be me.
'Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life' Picasso
'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath
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D:
I love you more than anything. You're like a best friend and a boyfriend to me and my life will always be better for having you in it. Thank you for everything you've done (both consciously and unconsciously). I hope that our relationship doesn't have to end right now, but I know that our friendship will always continue because I will always be here for you and I will always love you and care for you, through the good times and the bad. I hope that you realise how much you mean to me and remember that I'm always here for you and that you never have to pretend to be ok around me. I still love and respect you even if you cry in front of me because I know the good person you really are.
I love you more than anything. You're like a best friend and a boyfriend to me and my life will always be better for having you in it. Thank you for everything you've done (both consciously and unconsciously). I hope that our relationship doesn't have to end right now, but I know that our friendship will always continue because I will always be here for you and I will always love you and care for you, through the good times and the bad. I hope that you realise how much you mean to me and remember that I'm always here for you and that you never have to pretend to be ok around me. I still love and respect you even if you cry in front of me because I know the good person you really are.
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why am i never good enough for you?
i try but im getting nowhere and you as sure as hell arent helping
i try but im getting nowhere and you as sure as hell arent helping
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-And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
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S: Apologising for something without owning up to what you are apologising for is bullshit. It gives you the upper hand, a head start. It's something you do to fuel the drama, and that's so not cool. I don't think for a second you were sorry. You were having far too much fun.
I'm angry with you. Not because of what you did, but because you used that to create drama in your own life and mine. You knew what was going on with me, but you were too self-obsessed and melodramatic to keep this to yourself. Funny how you picked the one person to confront who was in the situation which you would think would cause the most upset.
The level of drama you tried to stir up was way out of proportion with the actual facts. I'm sorry if you wanted drama and chaos. You're not going to get it from us.
I'm angry with you. Not because of what you did, but because you used that to create drama in your own life and mine. You knew what was going on with me, but you were too self-obsessed and melodramatic to keep this to yourself. Funny how you picked the one person to confront who was in the situation which you would think would cause the most upset.
The level of drama you tried to stir up was way out of proportion with the actual facts. I'm sorry if you wanted drama and chaos. You're not going to get it from us.
'this is what she says gets her through it,
"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
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"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world
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MOM- If you ever want me to feel for you again you better stop treating me the way you do. I want you to leave me alone.... I don't want to feel like I have to call you or talk to you. I want to get as far away from you as I can. And 700 miles isn't far enough sometimes. You make me want to scream.
If you don't have anything important to say than there is no need talking to me. DO NOT PUT ME DOWN ANYMORE. i don't want to hear one negative thing about me come out of your mouth! Kepp your opinions to yourself, this is MINDYS life not yours. I will live it however I feel is fit. I can and will do watever I chooses to do.. And I don't think that I am doing anything wrong. You could SO ahve it alot worse! GET OVER YOURSELF!
Jessie- what the f is your problem you are nothing but a selfish little bitch. I can't belive taht you would turn your back on me like I wasn't anything to you. You don't know how much damage you have caused. You are nothing but a 2 faced little prick......
If you don't have anything important to say than there is no need talking to me. DO NOT PUT ME DOWN ANYMORE. i don't want to hear one negative thing about me come out of your mouth! Kepp your opinions to yourself, this is MINDYS life not yours. I will live it however I feel is fit. I can and will do watever I chooses to do.. And I don't think that I am doing anything wrong. You could SO ahve it alot worse! GET OVER YOURSELF!
Jessie- what the f is your problem you are nothing but a selfish little bitch. I can't belive taht you would turn your back on me like I wasn't anything to you. You don't know how much damage you have caused. You are nothing but a 2 faced little prick......
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Michael... you have no idea... but hopefully you'll get the hint... thank you so much...
/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
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Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
G....I wish I could prove it to you, I hate the way you always expect me to fail..i know why I just hope I cna make you proud tomorrow.
'Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life' Picasso
'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath
My Poetry
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97459
My Place
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97307
'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath
My Poetry
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97459
My Place
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97307
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D: i love you. i don't know why we can't say it...when we believe it so much.
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everyone: i'm so scared. i want to leave, to finally live my life. but i'm so scared...because i'm not used to caring for myself, and in my heart...i know i'm not fully ready to think of myself.
help me someone...
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everyone: i'm so scared. i want to leave, to finally live my life. but i'm so scared...because i'm not used to caring for myself, and in my heart...i know i'm not fully ready to think of myself.
help me someone...
<i>I am innocent and I have been set free
I no longer have chains around my feet
And no matter where I go or what they say
I am innocent</i> --Third Day
** 1 YEAR**~~back on the wagon 6/19/06~~
I no longer have chains around my feet
And no matter where I go or what they say
I am innocent</i> --Third Day
** 1 YEAR**~~back on the wagon 6/19/06~~
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WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME MOM? CAN'T YOU SEE YOURE HURTING ME? OR MAYBE IT'S THAT YOU DO SEE AND YOU DON'T CARE, OR LIKE IT. DO YOU WANT ME TO BE DEPRESSED? IF I CUT MYSELF WOULD THAT MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER BECAUSE THEN I'D HAVE TO BE THE BAD ONE. YOURE HURING ME, YOURE HURTING ME, YOUR HURTING ME. AND YOUR MAKING ME WISH YOU WERE DEAD.
MOM I NEEDED TO BE TALKING TO GEOFF ON THE PHONE NOW, EVEN THOUGH I'M SO DEPRESSED HE MAKES ME FORGET, HE MAKES ME LAUGH AND FEEL CARE FREE, AND OF COURSE 11 PM IS TOO LATE TO BE ON THE PHONE, BUT NOT TOO LATE TO YELL UP THE STEPS AND HARASS ME, AND ASK ME ABOUT INSURANCE CARDS, AND BLAST YOUR TV SO LOUD I CAN'T SLEEP ANYWAY.
GOD I HATE YOU SO MUCH TODAY.
WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME MOM? CAN'T YOU SEE YOURE HURTING ME? OR MAYBE IT'S THAT YOU DO SEE AND YOU DON'T CARE, OR LIKE IT. DO YOU WANT ME TO BE DEPRESSED? IF I CUT MYSELF WOULD THAT MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER BECAUSE THEN I'D HAVE TO BE THE BAD ONE. YOURE HURING ME, YOURE HURTING ME, YOUR HURTING ME. AND YOUR MAKING ME WISH YOU WERE DEAD.
MOM I NEEDED TO BE TALKING TO GEOFF ON THE PHONE NOW, EVEN THOUGH I'M SO DEPRESSED HE MAKES ME FORGET, HE MAKES ME LAUGH AND FEEL CARE FREE, AND OF COURSE 11 PM IS TOO LATE TO BE ON THE PHONE, BUT NOT TOO LATE TO YELL UP THE STEPS AND HARASS ME, AND ASK ME ABOUT INSURANCE CARDS, AND BLAST YOUR TV SO LOUD I CAN'T SLEEP ANYWAY.
GOD I HATE YOU SO MUCH TODAY.
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I still love you and I wish to god that I could make this work enough so we could try this again. But shit happens I guess.
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- Kurt Cobain
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-Catcher in the Rye
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****LANG**** (just in case... i don't know how this'll turn out yet...)
you're family... i love you, but i don't fucking have to like you right now... or ever! you make my life a living hell and i hate you for that! if you only knew!
but you know i'll do anything to make sure she doesn't have to go through this, i'll protect her and there's no fucking way i'll let you mess up her life like you have mine... right now i can't help but think you are the reason i'm like this, you're the reason i'm in so much fucking pain!
if i ever find that she has become like me, like this, i kick your fucked up head in! she doesn't deserve this pain, i can take it, she shouldn't have to!
you're family... i love you, but i don't fucking have to like you right now... or ever! you make my life a living hell and i hate you for that! if you only knew!
but you know i'll do anything to make sure she doesn't have to go through this, i'll protect her and there's no fucking way i'll let you mess up her life like you have mine... right now i can't help but think you are the reason i'm like this, you're the reason i'm in so much fucking pain!
if i ever find that she has become like me, like this, i kick your fucked up head in! she doesn't deserve this pain, i can take it, she shouldn't have to!
/May
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
Never underestimate the power of silence...
micro-chipped mental cyber twins taking over NewZealand...
ever reached out for someones hand only to find it wasn't there?
My place of happy-scared-random-thoughts dealing with motherhood and anxiety, visitors welcome
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Sarah~
GO TO HELL. I DONT NEED ALL THE BULLSHIT THAT YOU GAVE ME ALL WEEKEND. I DID EVERYTHING. I SET UP THE FUCKING TENT, I COOKED, I DID THE DISHES. I DID EVERYTHING AND YOU JUST SAT THERE ON YOUR ASS AND BITCHED AT ME. DO YOU REALIZE THAT WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT MY FRIENDS AND HOW MUCH YOU HATE THEM, THAT IT MIGHT HURT ME?? HAS THAT IDEA EVER CROSSED YOUR FUCKING MIND. AND WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH BULLSHIT RELIGION IS, DO YOU EVER THINK THAT IT MIGHT HURT ME TOO?? PULL YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS AND STOP BEING SO FUCKING SELFISH. THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE IN THE WORLD AND WE MIGHT NOT BE UP TO YOUR FUCKING STANDARDS, BUT WE ARE AT LEAST TRYING TO BE UNDERSTAND. I CANT STAND YOU. JUST BE GLAD I AM PATIENT AND ACCOMIDATING!!
GO TO HELL. I DONT NEED ALL THE BULLSHIT THAT YOU GAVE ME ALL WEEKEND. I DID EVERYTHING. I SET UP THE FUCKING TENT, I COOKED, I DID THE DISHES. I DID EVERYTHING AND YOU JUST SAT THERE ON YOUR ASS AND BITCHED AT ME. DO YOU REALIZE THAT WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT MY FRIENDS AND HOW MUCH YOU HATE THEM, THAT IT MIGHT HURT ME?? HAS THAT IDEA EVER CROSSED YOUR FUCKING MIND. AND WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH BULLSHIT RELIGION IS, DO YOU EVER THINK THAT IT MIGHT HURT ME TOO?? PULL YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS AND STOP BEING SO FUCKING SELFISH. THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE IN THE WORLD AND WE MIGHT NOT BE UP TO YOUR FUCKING STANDARDS, BUT WE ARE AT LEAST TRYING TO BE UNDERSTAND. I CANT STAND YOU. JUST BE GLAD I AM PATIENT AND ACCOMIDATING!!
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
A - It wasn't a big deal for me either you know. Yes, I would have liked it to end up a relationship but I knew the score and I did exactly what I wanted to do, I'm not going to mooch about missing you and feeling hard done by so don't patronise me. You aren't as irresistable as you think you are. My only problem is that somehow it's OK for you to go through the women on the trip at an ncredible rate but I spend one night with you and I'm a slut bringing my whole nationality into disripute - how the hell does that work??
Oh, and I will succeed in our field, I'm not nearly as stupid as you think I am.
Oh, and I will succeed in our field, I'm not nearly as stupid as you think I am.
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