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[treasure]

i'm tired but i've got things to do and its making me anxious. i think if i cut it will help me stop the anxiety and just do what i have to? i haven't cut in a little while and that's making the urges worse. i want to stay on Bus rather than go out and do shopping etc.

some rational thoughts.....
1) i can stay on Bus as long as i want to. its not urgent that i go now.
2) if i take some time to calm down before i leave i will be able to do errands with less anxiety
3) i can make an appt to see my T over the phone rather than in person
4) i could possibly leave errands for tomorrow...

images of si keep flashing through my mind. its not so much the trigger from today but more the longing from the past few days that i've tried to ignore. i need to remember there are other ways to cope. and that the anxiety is not going to become a panic cos i can breathe deeper and stop it building... i haven't had a panic attack in years, so that's probably just a fantasy anyway...

i think i can stop the urges with this. i hope...

*breathes*
*thinks calming thoughts*

[mallie]

Your rational thoughts sound like a good way to help combat your anxiety.

Do you know what your urges from the last few days were caused by? Is there any way that dealing with the original "trigger" would help you feel calmer now?

I hope things are feeling less overwhelming now.