Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

caged bird · Post by **caged bird** » Thu May 25, 2006 7:17 pm

- i hurt so much sometimes i cry myself to sleep

- i regret loosing so much of my life to depression - yet i still can't shift it

- people think i'm better

- i've never had a relationship and i'm scared i'll never have one

- i'm proud of how far i've come nad how much i've faught but i still know it follows me everywhere i go and i can't keep running

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu May 25, 2006 7:43 pm

I'd give anything in this world to have the strength to be anorexic.

black_23 · Post by **black_23** » Thu May 25, 2006 10:14 pm

Its my fauly if i never moved away i could help you and try and make you smile. Im so sorry i was selfish. I ruin everything.

Im jealous that he could find a way to make you smile I wish it was me, im so so sorry, i always fail everyone

fortune · Post by **fortune** » Thu May 25, 2006 11:28 pm

i don't think i will ever recover

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Fri May 26, 2006 1:43 am

i am a qualified, grade-a bitch and i obssess over the stupidest things.

Cellardoor · Post by **Cellardoor** » Fri May 26, 2006 2:21 am

i think im starting to get better
i dont want to tell anyone

caged bird · Post by **caged bird** » Sun May 28, 2006 2:41 pm

replies ok

-why can i never get it right with guys

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun May 28, 2006 4:47 pm

I'm so scared of screwing this up, of ruining it, of losing him that I live in a constant state of anxiety over whether I am doing things that will ruin this. I apologise to him for something I've said or done every other day, even if I haven't upset him/angered him because I'm scared that I'll ruin this by doing something that I don't realise gets to him and making him hate me for it.

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Sun May 28, 2006 10:05 pm

You keep asking me what I'll do with my degree. We both know the answer is I'm either incapable of finishing it. Or incapable of doing anything after that. Thanks for pretending I'm not as ill as I am. But you dont have to. I'd prefer it if you didnt.

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I dont even know your name. But you're amazing. And I wish you could see it.

fortune · Post by **fortune** » Mon May 29, 2006 10:54 am

you're more worried about money than me. can't you see what's happening? i want to tell you i'm suicidal but you don't speak my language. if you can't be there for me - how can i survive? mum?

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Mon May 29, 2006 11:10 am

I don't know how to talk to you anymore. I'm not sure I even can talk to you anymore because I'm afraid of offending you or saying something that makes you feel shit about yourself. So instead I'm just choosing to say nothing at all.

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I've only met one man IRL who doesn't resent me for being smart and who doesn't feel intimidated/undermined by the fact that I'm intelligent and challenging when talking about topics I have strong views on.

What makes that a bad thing is that that man isn't you, and I don't think it'll ever be you.

barnabygirl · Post by **barnabygirl** » Tue May 30, 2006 7:22 pm

Even though i am a grown woman now, i still wish i had a mothers lap to crawl into, and a mothers voice that said,, it will be ok hunny,, i love you no matter what... but i dont want it to be my actual bioligical mother,,,,

~bluehaze~ · Post by **~bluehaze~** » Tue May 30, 2006 9:35 pm

Recently I haven't been telling you how I've really been feeling because of everything that's been happening between us. My feelings don't seem valid to you and i'm scared that things might escalade out of control. You don't seem to notice what's happening. Everything isn't okay. And you don't treat me okay anymore. I'm scared you'll hurt me again.

_____iamacliche · Post by **_____iamacliche** » Tue May 30, 2006 9:59 pm

i love you so much. always.

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Wed May 31, 2006 6:03 am

I am pathetic. I am a weak, pathetic space monkey buried under all the shit of the world. I come up with nothing original, I do nothing because I want to, only because I think other people will like it.
I don’t even know what I want.
As soon as life gives me the teensiest challenge, I give up. Like I said, I am pathetic.
I’ll do anything if you tell me you love me.

~starblaze~ · Post by **~starblaze~** » Thu Jun 01, 2006 6:35 pm

I dont like it that Toi is here still, i dont like the way she eats, the way she scuffs along the floor in her slippers, i dont like the way she is rude and ungrateful and eats all our food and doesnt eat her own. I dont like the way she makes my mum and dad pick her up whenever she wants to and not when its easiest for them. I dont like it that she just answered the phone to work.

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Thu Jun 01, 2006 7:20 pm

i felt really elated that someone had noticed me.
but now i feel confused about what my feelings are. cos i did have sort of feelings, hidden by a great relationship....but if it;s true that you do coke..and haven't just done it once, i'm not comfortable with that, and that's apart from the age thing. i can't and won't change things for you. but there's still this tiny part of me that wants to.
but i love someone else so much...and so much more than you.
i'm pathetic and weak and i feel like a cheap tart even thinking this. i shouldn't have even been confused. because i really do know what i want - under a layer of confusion

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Thu Jun 01, 2006 9:33 pm

He did look like you. He acted like you. He danced like you. And yes. I wanted him to be you. That's the reason I set out to pull him. And God dont I hate myself for it now. I hate that you know. And I hate that you're joking about it.

angelwithapintglass · Post by **angelwithapintglass** » Thu Jun 01, 2006 10:26 pm

it didn't hurt.

black_23 · Post by **black_23** » Thu Jun 01, 2006 10:56 pm

It was my fault even though your not here to say/deny it was. Im so sorry, I was a child I wouldnt have know I let you down just like everyone else.

I want to escape Im fed up of keeping it all togehter and pretending. tonight i cant the cracks are forming and i dnt think you'll be there to catch me much lomger and I dont blame you....

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