It's not easy (dealing with SI, SA (self abuse
It's not easy (dealing with SI, SA (self abuse
There are days that go by that I can literally go all day without thinking about SI. But then there are those days that that is the only thing I can think about. It is really hard on those days to get anything accomplished because I really wnt to use my old way of escape and my old way of coping with all the negative things that have been allowed to happen in my life. My mom and dad divorced when I was three, my little brother was killed when I was 5 and he was three. Most of the guys in my life only wanted one thing and when I wouldn't put out they broke up woth me for girls who would put out. I got involved sexually with a coworker when I was eighteen and got pregnant. Don't get me wrong I love my children but at eighteen I wasn't ready to be a mom and to this day I don't always handle that very well. I was married to my ex-husband for seven years when he walked out on our two boys and I and moved in with another girl that he worked with. He said he was tired of being hurt and didn't know that he wanted to be married anymore. Needless to say all of these things have left me with a very low opinion of myself and the best way I knew how to deal with it at one time was to verbally, emotionally and physically abuse myself.
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