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[Serenity River]

SI TRIGGER



am not going to do the questions am kinda just going to post
whats going on right now

av been neerly 3 weeks with out s i ing
for me getting past a week is a big thing for me as i have never before got past that an d i have been si ing since i was 13 am now 29

for that time av kept busy kept postive stayed clear from things i know will trigger me

but right now all i can think of this my skin dont seem right with out wounds or cuts on them i havnt seen blood my own blood in all that time
am keeping busy trying to do things but i cant keep my mind on what am doing all i can think of its cuts and blood

[balletomane]

Hi Ella.

Making it through the week is quite an accomplishment.

Have you found distractions helpful? It sounds as though something to take your mind off of cutting might give you some relief.

Maybe some of the emulating SI type things might help too. Like drawing on yourself, or running a red food color container over your skin. (there are some in the distractions thread in coping.) but be careful if you think they might be more triggering.

Maybe try reminding yourself of why you don't want to hurt yourself anymore. Make a list of the big reasons and the little ones. I find that it helps sometimes.

I know it's tough right now, but you've done really well. You should be proud of yourself for making it through a week SI free.

Take care of yourself.

[Serenity River]

thank you huni
i am proud of my self for noting doing it for neerly 3 weeks

i find drawing on my self triggering for some reason am not sure why that is
i will look at the coping thread and il becareful what am reading

yes distraction i find really helpful if i keep busy and not thinking about it so much but at the moment am finding it hard to keep my mind on the distractions and trying to think postively like i have in the last few week i seem to go on the negtive today

Ella x