Before.......

[toscared]

* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
The tension would dissapate....The endorphens from the pain would relax me.

* what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? I just dont know.

* how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way? I want to be indifferent to things I can not change. Hurting myself does not change how I feel

* if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
Till I fall asleep...the urge should be over in the morning.

* what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then? I am not in a situation ,I hurt because of things outside of my influence that have nothing to do with me.llisten to music play with the cat...If I can handle it till I fall asleep I will be ok.

* how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? I will feel stupid if I hurt myself.
how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?if it works I may feel ok

* what do i really want to do right now?
sleep.
how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now? sleep.

[balletomane]

Hi toscared.

I'm glad you took the time to answer these questions. I hope it helped. Here are some thoughts I had on what you wrote.

The tension would dissapate....The endorphens from the pain would relax me.

Exercise and various other things release endorphins also. Have you found anything else that gives the same relaxing effect to some extent at least?


Till I fall asleep...the urge should be over in the morning.

If the urge is likely to pass by morning, you are definitely right in thinking that sleep is a good idea.

I hope that you are able to get some good rest and that you feel better in the morning.

[toscared]

yes I have exercise works well, but ...I swam almost a mile this morning and hiked in the hills for 45 minutes this afternoon. and now it is dark and I am alone

[balletomane]

I am sorry you are alone. Sometimes it can be really nice, but other times it can be really lonely and overwhelming. Is there anyone you can call? Even a hotline. Sometimes it can help.

[toscared]

I'm ok now. I fell asleep after reading, I just got up because my dogs were barking. back to bed now (urge has disapated)

[plantt]

glad you made it through =)