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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by kermit » Thu Feb 23, 2006 5:14 pm

[si]

I cut worse than ever before last night and I'm supposed to be getting better
and tomorrow will come
When today is done...

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Post by ~bluehaze~ » Thu Feb 23, 2006 9:40 pm

I feel like you are rejecting me.

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Post by nunca_bueno_bastante » Fri Feb 24, 2006 2:35 am

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Everytime i eat i feel so icky afterward. i feel like if i could just throw up, my wieght wouldn't increase. I hate myself for eating so fucking much...

FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I'm so numb...its like i'm a fucking robot, like i'm not even real.



I'm trying to get better and i've came a long way..its just sometimes i wonder why i'm even trying. :cry:

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Post by steady hands » Fri Feb 24, 2006 4:42 am

*pm's, comments, etc. ok*

si trigs.

i want to stop, but i can't.
and i hate it.

i want to tell someone, i want to ask for help. but i'm too afraid that i won't get the help i need, so i try to battle through on my own.

and i know it's not working.


i'm such a goddamn coward.

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Post by amyfairy » Fri Feb 24, 2006 2:42 pm

i've always been defined by my peteitness. i'm not huge. but i've put on weight. if i lose my slimness, what else do i have?
yet i keep eating stupid amounts.

i worry so much over everything. i always have. when i was young, i would tell my mum my worries and she would make them go away. i can't tell anyone this as it is the most stupid and pathetic and stupid thing ever and it really will make me look like i'm not all there. it's just scaring me so much.

i was over depression but now i'm feeling so sad and down. i think i'm going backwards. even though i don't cut anymore. i feel rubbish.

please please please please please come and put my mind at rest.

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Post by Lynn » Fri Feb 24, 2006 5:01 pm

I think that I won't be a psychologist. I can't even deal with a parttime job. I can't even deal with group therapy once a week. What the hell is to become of me.

Sometimes I just want to cut and OD and starve myself for the rest of my life. But I know that won't get me anywhere.

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Post by ~starblaze~ » Fri Feb 24, 2006 6:18 pm

Ive been wanting to cut since sunday and its quite often on my mind.
It still hurts that ive been left behind and youve all moved on and done well for yourselves. There are times when im very jealous of you.
i get scared at times like this that you will turn around and say you dont want to be with me anymore. To hear those words would break my heart and every part of me.
Im really quit worried about you

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Post by angelwithapintglass » Fri Feb 24, 2006 8:51 pm

i'm worried that the career i have already begun to follow is miles away from the one i really want to get into.
and i have no hope of retracing my steps.

:star: PMs ok :star:

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Post by piglet » Sun Feb 26, 2006 12:55 am

comments in pm

i am worried about the echocardiogram. I feel frightened that my body may really be damaged in a way I didn't mean. I can't tell anyone because it would look like attention seeking. What if its not ok.
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Post by (*Haven*) » Mon Feb 27, 2006 5:39 am

PMs okay.

I am not going to call you anymore. You were so upset and so worried the last time we talked that I can't put you through that again. I'm really sorry.
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Post by Callisto » Mon Feb 27, 2006 11:58 am

I think I'm falling backwards...and yet no one has noticed

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Post by LilacChild » Thu Mar 02, 2006 2:16 am

i feel sick everytime i wear tight clothes in front of my family. i know why but i can't ever say and that is killing me.

u asked if i was ok last night but i was lying. i was drunk and took sleeping pills. she taught me a scary new way of hurting myself. im afraid il do it again tonight.
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Post by flipflopfetish » Thu Mar 02, 2006 2:17 am

my friend told me she had tried to SU last week but her gf had talked her out of it. i know i wouldn't have talked her out of it if it had been me she'd called.

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Post by Callisto » Thu Mar 02, 2006 6:28 pm

I hurt you and I can't quite believe that I managed to do the one thing I've always wanted to avoid doing.....and right now it's hurting me so much inside to know that I hurt you last night. Hurting me more than I ever imagined that it would, to the point where even though you said that we're ok now and that you're ok with things, I'm really not and I don't know how to be right now.

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Post by ~bluehaze~ » Thu Mar 02, 2006 10:01 pm

I've been waiting for something to happen to push me over the edge. It's happened. I'm falling.
Crash.

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Post by theboldeditalics » Thu Mar 02, 2006 11:54 pm

"There is really no way to reach me."

(mmhmm.)



Here's the story. I had a boyfriend. She liked me. I was confused. She had a boyfriend, too. We broke up with them for eachother. She met my best friend, and decided to fuck him.

They broke up yesterday, and now she wants me back.



"Am I already gone?"
lately i've been feeling
like i don't belong
like the ground's not mine to walk upon

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Post by Copasetic » Fri Mar 03, 2006 12:10 am

I have no one close to me anymore.

I've been eating my hair.

I've been making myself throw up.
So this is the new year - and I don't feel any different...

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Post by amyfairy » Fri Mar 03, 2006 11:13 pm

i'm not going to starve again yet but i sure as hell am going to cut my food intake.

I HATE IT

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Post by Callisto » Fri Mar 03, 2006 11:31 pm

i'm actively pushing him away now, because i'm scared of hurting him again like i did the other day or worse than i did the other way. so i figure pushing him away now means he doesn't have a chance to get in too deep and that way he can get over it.

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Post by Priceless » Sat Mar 04, 2006 4:03 am

pm/comment ok


Mom is so right when she says that i dont have a core in myself, that i dont have any personality anymore, that im just going along with everything

And its the truth, well im my parents doormat when i speak to them

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