please help - sorry

[black_23]

please help me. I already si today, and can;t seem to get the feeling out of my head. it hasnt been this bad in ages. stupidly started reading a book in which a character su's which has made it worse. all's i want is to escape again, but not su just si. so dumb.

[shadow of a smile]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Could you leave your house (or wherever you are) and get away from the book? I know when I read stuff that disturbs me, a change of scenery is sometimes helpful. If you can't leave (or just don't want to), just try to make it through it. I know there's really nothing I can do to help, but you're in my thoughts and I'm sending you good vibes. (oh, and a chicken!)

You can do this, SI is a choice that you don't have to make. You don't need to escape, sometimes you need to just feel.

-Emily

[black_23]

thank-you, just knowing someone thinking helps. i really should sleep, since have work tom, heads just too awake....oh well....just hoping no one finds out. trying not to panic over everything.

[Spidey]

It's probably a good idea that you don't read the book until you're in a better headspace. It doesn't make you bad or crazy or anything like that to stop reading the book because you can't handle it. Everyone has subject matter that at times they can't deal with.

In sourcebook there's a post on how to deal with panic and anxiety - maybe that will be a good read for you. If you have a counselor/MHT, try talking to them.