Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by flipflopfetish » Tue Feb 07, 2006 1:01 am

My friend's friend attempted suicide yesterday and is at the hospital.

I'm mad at her because I've seen how bad my friend is feeling and I wouldn't want to wish that on anyone.

But that's not even the worst thing (because I don't truly believe anyone would care that much about me)

I'm second best now. So what if I SI? She's tried to kill herself and besides, she has more problems than me (and yes, that is how my friend would react). And anyways, if I killed myself I'd be the second person to try, not the first. It's embarassing and I don't like admitting in :oops:

And I don't even know this girl

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Post by Copasetic » Tue Feb 07, 2006 5:55 am

I feel ignored around the people I love the most.
So this is the new year - and I don't feel any different...

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Post by _MessedUp_ » Tue Feb 07, 2006 3:35 pm

Comments Ok-PM


:star:I play sad songs to make myself cry
:star:I drink to forget, but deny that
:star:I smoke, and have done since december last year (may not seem much of a secret-but i hide it from everyone including my bf and family)
:star: i'm jealous of the fact that lifewise my boyfriend has been through so many bad things, yet has come out a stronger person thatn i can ever be

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:star:I wish i'd never taken the OD, cos i can never forget the look in my mum's eyes when i told her. I hurt her so much and i could see that in her eyes. That look, that memory will haunt me forever
:star: "Life is like a beautiful melody only the lyrics are messed up" :star:
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Post by Guest » Thu Feb 09, 2006 12:27 pm

Im hurt that i havent been included. It makes me sad to know that ill be the only one that doesnt get a special big thing for them made on my birthday like everyone else has got. I try to pretend it doesnt affect me and i wont be bothered by it...but i know i will be if come my birthday no one has done anything like they have this year for people's 18ths which i know they wont :cry:

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Post by Callisto » Fri Feb 10, 2006 2:34 am

:star: I really want to see my bf but I'm scared that once he gets here and sees me I won't be good enough for him and he'll leave me
:star: I cling to my ED because I think it makes me a better person
:star: I've thought about OD'ing everyday this week and if Darren wasn't coming to see me I would have done it too

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Post by Skyeler » Fri Feb 10, 2006 5:57 am

Nobody's ever really cared if I was suicidal before

Now that someone does

I don't know how to tell her.


Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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Post by theboldeditalics » Fri Feb 10, 2006 6:23 am

I've had a good night.


But I know I'll either drink myself to forget it all

or cut until I can't think.
lately i've been feeling
like i don't belong
like the ground's not mine to walk upon

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Post by DecemberLivy » Fri Feb 10, 2006 4:38 pm

i'm jealous of her
<center>my walpole cafe

"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
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I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.

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Post by delagurl925 » Sat Feb 11, 2006 10:17 pm

comments are okay go ahead and pm me

***MAY SI/SU TRIG***






-i told my sister i stopped siing but really i went deeper

-i hate myself for being such a loser
-i feel like nobody wants me around
-i have no friends
-i want to die

-i love him but im afraid he'll never accept me for who i am


-i'm afraid that my parents will send me away if they find out i si
Gotta love guys with eyeliner!!

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Post by ioa » Sun Feb 12, 2006 3:02 am

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I've successfully decieved my therapist into thinking I'm OK - that I don't SI or even think about it anymore.

I think about killing myself at least once everyday.

I am 18 years old and have never kissed a boy. Mostly because I'm afraid to admit to myself that I'm a lesbian.

No one knows I had a lesbian relationship for 6 months with a schoolmate when I was 13, and I hate myself for ruining it.

I'm a senior in high school and I spend most of my weekends alone. Not out of choice, simply because of my lack of friends.

I honestly believe the only way I will ever get better would be to be hospitalized for an extended period of time - and that scares me to death.

I have no idea where my life is going.

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Post by mephistopheles » Sun Feb 12, 2006 4:24 pm

comments ok.


:grystar: I think the voice that screams in my head is me. But I can't remember what is was that made me scream like that.

:grystar: I think I'm anorexic. But if I tell anyone I'll have to stop.

:grystar: I wish my Mother was dead instead of Eva and Alexei.

:grystar: I don't want to know what happened to me that makes me dissociate at least once a day.
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Post by BlackKat13 » Mon Feb 13, 2006 5:47 am

PM comments fine

:heart: I have been single every valentines day my entire life. So on this day, I buy chocolates, and roses for my single friends. I even buy pink roses to give to single girls I meet that I don't know....I just want them to feel special.

But, there is no one to make me feel special.

I just wish I had someone to buy me flowers...
Wounded and empowered
I gaze to the sky
And say beneath my breath
"Never injure what cannot die."
:2_year_si_free: :180_days_si_free:

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Post by Skyeler » Mon Feb 13, 2006 6:12 am

I always told her I handrew all the valentines I gave out.

Which is true

Since she's the only one I ever gave one to.


Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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Post by Callisto » Tue Feb 14, 2006 1:06 am

:star: pm's ok :star:

i feel like an idiot for getting myself into situation where i need to get the morning after pill to reassure myself im not pregnant...in theory i shouldnt be but i don't want to risk it....the only reason im in this situation is cuz it felt so good

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Post by _MessedUp_ » Tue Feb 14, 2006 1:04 pm

PM'S ok

:star: I'm sat in a computer room surrounded by stangers. I have tears in my eyes. But i know i can't let them see me cry.











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Post by marshmallowfluff » Tue Feb 14, 2006 4:44 pm

Yes, i lied to you. But you dont know that and you never will. To be honest, i dont care, because i've lost count of the times you've lied to me.
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Post by amyfairy » Tue Feb 14, 2006 10:23 pm

i thought about od'ing again.
i haven't in so long.

i want to be happy again but i keep falling and i'm so scared and i'm so sad.

and i haven't eaten any meals in 2 days because i haven't thought about it, too much effort.

(comments are fine).

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Post by red umbrellas » Tue Feb 14, 2006 10:32 pm

i don't know if it's really what i want
and i'm fucking terrified of what the consequences might be.
and i'm just confused about everything.
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by jaded melody » Wed Feb 15, 2006 3:10 am

now that she's gone, i think im going to die.

Im so ashamed of how dependant i am on her

and if i dont take my own life, ana might.

I love it when people hold my waist or hips because they always say how thin i am.

I went a year cut-free. Now i cant sleep until I've hurt myself.

And i have no help any more. I want nothing more than to run to the clinic and cry and tell her how awful things are.

People keep saying it'll get better but it hurts all the time. I dont think i can cope or stay alive any more.

I dont think i could get help from anyone but her. I want her back so much it makes me want to cry every second of the day.

And i just want to die.

I WISH I had been completely starving myself but im not doing well enough and im no longer satisfied unless i eat nothing. Actually, nothing is still too much.

Part of me wants this to kill me.

And nobody cares any more.

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Post by silenceBROKEN » Wed Feb 15, 2006 4:02 am

PMs are fine.
:grystar: I claim to value honesty, but I continue to lie to myself.

:grystar: I wish I had the strength to end my life, for living it isn't seeming to get me anywhere.

:grystar: When I was younger, I used to flush the toiler when my dad was in the shower. I hoped that I would burn him so bad that he couldn't hurt me anymore.

:grystar: A couple of months ago, I did actually believe that the abuse wasn't my fault. Now, I'm back to blaming myself.

:grystar: I can't stand it when others judge people. I hate being judged because of my sexual orientation. And yet, I'm slightly racist.

:grystar: A part of me enjoyed the abuse.

:grystar: A classmate of mine passed away in a car crash earlier this year. I cried the entire day at school. What people don't know though is that I cried because I wasn't the one who died.
:cystar: I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd. :cystar:

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