Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

EtherealDarkness · Post by **EtherealDarkness** » Wed Feb 01, 2006 9:22 am

-sometimes I wear t-shirts hoping my friends will finally ask what the scars are and why I did it

-I promised myself I wouldn't drink energy drinks anymore but i did a couple months later.

-Sometimes Im ashamed of my dad because he acts so childishly. I dont look up to him.

-If I never saw the majority of my friends again, I wouldnt really miss them at all.

*(some sex I guess)
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-Sometimes Im glad she misscarried. Other times Im really sad.

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Thu Feb 02, 2006 3:51 am

I think it finally hit me tonight. The way I should have been feeling all along I mean. Seeing them just killed me because I don't want them to hurt like I did but I know that because of us they could. She could too. I am sorry. Are you?
You told me not to think of you as the perfect example. See thats the thing, I used to. I used to admire you so much for everything you were and everything you did but now I don't know. Everythings different and I don't think I really admire you at all like I used to. I wish I had someone to admire like that. We let me down. It wasn't your fault, it was ours.
M.S., I just wanted to tell you, I am so sorry for all I've done that hurt you or could hurt you. I'm especially sorry to S.S. and M.S.

The worst part, even after this I'm not sure if I'm going to stop.
I'm afraid you'll stop talking to me if you do and I do not want that. I want you in my life one way or another and if this is what it takes, even if its wrong, I will do it. Or at least will give it some more serious consideration.
We'll talk tomorrow.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu Feb 02, 2006 5:28 pm

i use drinking to make myself feel better because i dont have a dealer anymore so i cant use drugs

no one irl would ever guess that i used to do drugs everyday...or that id done all the drugs i have....and im too scared to tell anyone even though i know i should to keep myself safe and clean

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Thu Feb 02, 2006 9:03 pm

- feel so cold and alone, but i just can't imagine what i'd do if i wasn't...
- hate the fact that i like you so much, i just wish i didn't...
- she saw, she asked and i handled it very badly... i'm affraid she knows... i'm affraid if i tell her she won't be my friend anymore...

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Fri Feb 03, 2006 3:20 am

I enjoyed talking to you today. I feel much better now.

pandablue · Post by **pandablue** » Fri Feb 03, 2006 3:26 am

sometimes I wish I didn't know anyone

theboldeditalics · Post by **theboldeditalics** » Fri Feb 03, 2006 4:59 am

My mother got married over winter break

and didn't tell me until last week. In therapy.

For some reason--

I feel emotionless towards her. No matter how hard I try
I cannot conjure anything.
love
happiness
hate
sadness
bitterness

mostly it's just indifference

with a little teen angst mixed in for good measure.

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Fri Feb 03, 2006 2:24 pm

i've put on weight and i need to be the slimmest again because i always have been, it's how i am defined. without that, i'm nothing. and i'm going to get it back.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sat Feb 04, 2006 1:21 am

I think it's my fault because I think they finally figured out that I used to be in love with them....i think that's why they chose to run away right now. I think its that and the fact that they are scared of hurting me by being here because I'm a lot like them and they don't understand it. They don't understand that my feelings for them died long long ago....they don't understand that they've done nothing but help me and that how I feel/have been feeling has very little to do with them or their past. They don't understand that by running away like this they are hurting me more than just telling me to stop or go away ever would. They don't understand that by doing it this way they leave me with no choice but to cut them out my life forever because it's the only way I can deal with being treated like this again. They don't understand that I've lost all respect for them now, because they didnt even have the guts to tell me I was being a problem.

I am starting to hate them now, because it's the only way I can deal with how much this hurts without hurting myself and hurting the other things I have in my life. I know that pretty soon all I'll ever feel for them is hate because they broke my one golden rule and refused to be honest with me.

and still, I hate myself for hating them because i know its my fault.

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Sat Feb 04, 2006 1:41 pm

i hate you all for leaving me alone at that party... you always do and i always think that this time will be different... i'm so stupid!
(PM's are ok)

Kaelyn · Post by **Kaelyn** » Sat Feb 04, 2006 2:08 pm

I still find myself hoping that I die before I turn 30.. yet I keep going on

PMs okay

Reisu · Post by **Reisu** » Sat Feb 04, 2006 5:16 pm

i keep wanting to post things, but someone else has already posted it. i guess were just similar or whatever.. but i just dont want you to think im copying you >.<

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Sun Feb 05, 2006 1:02 am

i feel so fat... not just fat but really really fat!
skipped all meals today to make myself fell better...
it didn't work...

PMs ok

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun Feb 05, 2006 2:49 am

i erased myself again...because i thought it would make you all love me more

*pm's ok*

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Sun Feb 05, 2006 4:32 am

Reisu wrote:i keep wanting to post things, but someone else has already posted it. i guess were just similar or whatever.. but i just dont want you to think im copying you >.<

yeah...

PurplePixie · Post by **PurplePixie** » Sun Feb 05, 2006 6:52 pm

people can comment if they like.

I really want to talk to my advisor, i want to know if he can help, i want to know what he thinks, but i cant because he intimidates me

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Sun Feb 05, 2006 10:13 pm

hate myself for being such a looser... no wonder people don't like me!
i know i brought this on myself!

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Mon Feb 06, 2006 3:02 am

i feel bad for being mad at them...but they hurt me, whether it was intentional or not....and the fact that its them makes it hurt even more....so i can't not be mad at them (even if part of me wonders if i overreacted)

kermit · Post by **kermit** » Mon Feb 06, 2006 8:38 am

I dont like that he said he wont sponsor me, he knows how much this means to be and he knows how hard i'm finding it to get the money. It doesnt have to be alot...

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Mon Feb 06, 2006 2:55 pm

i'm starting to get scared and tired and frustrated with myself again....and no one can see that, and i don't want to say anything. because i'm meant to be getting better.

i'm a bad poet, but people are telling me to enter the competition. but what if they're just trying to make me feel better and i make a fool of myself.

i'm sick of being physically ill and in pain.

bus

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