who are you right now? *lang trigs*

Never Again · Post by **Never Again** » Fri Nov 18, 2005 3:50 am

i am...
feeling filthy and used.
having flashbacks.
triggered.
urgy.
cold.

i am not...
being validated.
being protected.
safe.
warm.

i feel...
worried.
upset.
wanting to si.
overwhelmed
my mind is worn out
i need a rest

i want...
friends. i have no friends
my ttdoc and pdoc to get along.
to be normal.
for myh scars to go away.
for a better job where i won't be stressed out all day.

i need...
ativan.
beer
friends
help
sleep
my mind to rest

i have...
not cut today
a cute stuffed froggy.
a great tdco and pdoc

i love...
music
my neice and nephew

i hate...
fear
myself

Cellardoor · Post by **Cellardoor** » Fri Nov 18, 2005 9:59 pm

wow i love this sticky. i only just noticed it. cool.

i am...
pretending im ok
looking forward to SIing later
very very tired
about to cry

i am not...
telling anyone
going out tonight
in the mood to breathe
having a laugh

i feel...
so tired.
so overloaded
so shakey

i want...
to run away
to be someone else
some new paints

a hug

i need...
a slap
something to look forward to
to tell someone

i have...
good friends
good mum (now)
good sister
new converse
no self control

i love...
my friends
my good family
music
art
watermelon

i hate...
myself
the fact that the only thing i hate is myself.

onlymeallalooone333 · Post by **onlymeallalooone333** » Mon Nov 28, 2005 1:43 pm

i am... just a kid

i am not... happy

i feel... like I'm sinking

i want... Love

i need... Her

i have... material things....they matter too much

i love... Her

i hate...People who have hurt me.

collide · Post by **collide** » Tue Nov 29, 2005 7:12 pm

i am...
depressed
hopeless
wanting a way out

i am not...
able to enjoy life
able to deal with my moods
able to think rationally

i feel...
alone
torn
down in the abyss

i want...
someone to hold me
someone to save me
someone to nurture me whole

i need...
my meds to help me
my family's love and concern
my friends to care about me and be there for me

i have...
too many bad memories
too many desires of death and self destruction
too many emotional pain i can't express

i love...
Jesus Christ my Savior
my bf whose been so supportive

i hate...
being hurt by those that are supposed to care
being locked up in a Psych Ward
being me
viewtopic.php?t=88288&start=120 (my PLACE)
COLLIDE

Kalcon · Post by **Kalcon** » Sun Dec 11, 2005 10:19 pm

I am
Lost
confused
searching for a way out

I am not
going to get out
normal
happy

I feel
lost
empty
sad

I want
to be normal
to feel
some one i can feel for

I Need
a way out
my family to get it
be normal

I have
Jake my puppy
My books
cutting

I Love
Jake
reading
the feeling i get after i cut

I hate
Me
the emptyness
living
being a freak

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Mon Dec 12, 2005 1:07 am

i am...
-A real person with feelings
-Intelligent, yes, but not a genius
-Loved more by people not related to me
-so confused it's not funny
-a humorous person
-locked away inside my own mind
-complicated
-trustworthy
-loyal (if i like you..)
-who i've always been.. myself

i am not...
-A truely heartless bitch
-A genius, but im not stupid either
-completely defenceless
-worthless
-invisiable
-pathetic

i feel...
-Hated, yet loved.
-confused
-slightly lost

i want...
-to know i'm needed
-to know im loved
-someone to hold me tight
-to know i'll be alright

i need...
-to be loved
-a hug
-for someone to help me

i have...
-Godric
-The love from "Mama"
-friends
-the little me ( my conscience) that yells at me.. and makes me think about whatever it is i'm doing at that time.

i love...
-my "mama"
-my 'teddybear'
-Godric
-my "ditzy sis"
-my "papa"
-my friends.
-chocolate/coffee/tea
-All the wonderful bussers out here

i hate...
-bastard people
-'i'm the almighty" at whatever the hell it is people
-people who think they are above us all
-labels
-morons
-people that bitch about nothing
-when i hurt, but cant stand up and say "help me, please"

wow.. this has made me think... a lot.. hm..

Dani

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Wed Dec 21, 2005 12:51 pm

i am... v lonely, v unmotivated, v tired

i am not...happy

i feel...lost, scared, unloved and like i'm sliding again, no matter how hard i'm trying

i want...to be held really tight. to be told i'm loved. to have my friends and parents back around me

i need...to make it through this next week.

i have...a fucking awful essay to do. i have to force myself to eat.

i love...my parents, my boyfriend, my friends

i hate...me, not being able to lose weight, being alone, not knowing for sure, being scared. my boss

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Sat Jan 07, 2006 5:01 am

i am...
tired
an insomniac
lazy

i am not...
on medications
taking care of myself
happy
optimistic

i feel...
overwhelmed
a sense of dread
fat
lazy
hopeless
depressed
lonely/abandoned
sick

i want...
energy
motivation
focus

i need...
sleep
food
water
exercise

i have...
books
overdue work

i love...
nothing much

i hate...
myself

nirvana · Post by **nirvana** » Thu Jan 12, 2006 3:40 am

oh my goodness my thread got STICKIED!

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun Jan 29, 2006 4:58 am

i am...

fat

worthless

pathetic

stubborn

a bitch

i am not...

pretty

a nice person

worth anything

worth your time

i feel...

numb

awake

i want...

to be normal

to be with Darren

to not exist anymore

i need...

a hug

to sleep

i have...

6-7 hours before i need to get up for work

no self esteem

a big problem

an amazing bf

fantastic friends

i love...

Darren

Skyeler

Shane

Megan

All the other bussers i normally talk to

i hate...

myself

kcubrats · Post by **kcubrats** » Mon Jan 30, 2006 8:02 am

i am

giving up
pathetic
alone
cold

i'm not
who i want to be
self confident
optimistic

i feel
urgy
sad
lazy
alone
disgusted

i want
to SI
to talk to him
him to love me
to stop making mistakes
to be asleep
someone to talk to

i need
love
help
new tools
a reason

i have
things i dont deserve
a broken heart
fresh scars

i love
him
my friends online
sleeping late
being alone
U2

i hate
feeling anxious
people messing with me
i dont know whats wrong with me

sueslalues · Post by **sueslalues** » Wed Feb 01, 2006 4:42 am

i am...
loyal
trustworthy
there for my friends
imaginative
in my own world

i am not...
a bad friend
whore/slut/those kind of things
a loser
a confident person

i feel...
neglected
alone
not wanted
insane

i want...
a hug
to know some one loves me
a comfortable bed

i need...
love
friends
ideas

i have...
memories
family
my wonderful black pants with chains on them

i love...
smiles
hugs
honey mustard

i hate...
fakes/posers/wanna-be's
know-it-alls
mean people/cruel
stupid people (unless it's not their fault)

Serenity River · Post by **Serenity River** » Fri Feb 03, 2006 2:16 pm

i am...
selfish
scared
alone
abanndond

i am not...
anice person

i feel...
horrable
evil
disgusrting

i want...
to si
a hug
to cry

i need...
a hug
a drink

i have...
sore head

i love...
my friends
my family
my dog

i hate...
me
me
me
me

tweaker · Post by **tweaker** » Mon Feb 06, 2006 6:20 am

i am...
a good person
a mom
an artist
i am not...
pretty
thin
happy
i feel...
foolish
sad
confused
alone
i want...
financial stabilty
respect
love
a home of my own

i need...
affection
reassurance
confidence
i have...
a nice smile
a friendly heart
trust issues
i love...
my children
being creative
when I feel happy and secure
i hate...
liars
cheaters
hurting
my scars
I needed this.....I have a lot to sort out and this really helped me think about what was bothering me.....thanks or the post

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Wed Feb 08, 2006 3:13 am

I am trying to do this in a more positive way.

i am...
a student
worthwhile

i am not...
stupid
Claudia
lazy

i feel...
tired
scared
shy/nervous

i want...
to feel centered
to do my work in a nice way

i need...
hope
food, shelter, clothing, and exercise

i have...
family
BUS

i love...
math
reading
dance
BUS

i hate...
invalidation
at the moment--myself

angel2262 · Post by **angel2262** » Thu Feb 09, 2006 1:15 am

i am...

An EMT,
A good friend,
looking for attention,
a SI,
Caring,
Sensative
worthless
hurting,

i am not...

A ho,
A leader,
Lazy,
Stupid
Crazy,
a bitch

i feel...

Alone,
like cutting,
sad,
depressed,
like crying

i want...

A friend,
to stop SI
To have hope and faith,
to be loved
for someone to understand

i need...

A hug,
a friendly ear,
a bf,
to believe.
my phone,
my computer,
my friends

i have...

NOTHING

i love...

the computer
horses
angles
disney characters
friends
ambulances

i hate...

cutting,
hurting
being pathetic,
fish
fake people
working
being in debt

Addygrl · Post by **Addygrl** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 9:51 pm

Thought I'd give this a try too

i am...
Strong
Determined
Sad
Smart
Emotional
A Perfectionist

i am not...
Weak
a 'cutter'
a bad person
unimportant
a nuisance

i feel...
Frustrated
Sad
tired
proud
bad
alone

i want...
to tell everyone the truth
to not want to hurt myself any more
to be a strong person
to deal with my emotions
to be 'normal'
to be able to be in a relationship
to not have to lie
to be accepted

i need...
love
acceptance
hugs
friends
family
comfort
music
challenges

i have...
loving friends
a wonderful family
a great house
depression
a new cut
old scars
pain
shame
embarrassment
two versions of myself (one weak and one strong)
ambitions
goals
my marathon training

i love...
my family
my friends
books
playing piano
running
feeling strong
learning
feeling like I belong
understanding things
being accepted
making others happy
being happy

i hate...
not being able to control how I feel
not being able to reject my depressed identity
feeling trapped
feeling awkward
being judged
letting others down
making others feel badly
not being able to do what I love because I'm depressed
losing sight of my goals
being unsucessful

It's really nice to voice all this and to help sort of ground myself and reestablish my identity. Thanks for having it

Addy

delagurl925 · Post by **delagurl925** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 9:55 pm

i am...
a failure
i am not...
emo
i feel...
awful
i want...
to feel happy
i need...
someone
i have...
noone
i love...
him

i hate...
myself

ebmcs · Post by **ebmcs** » Sat Feb 25, 2006 10:42 pm

i am...

sleepy
fighting
exhausted
growing stronger

i am not...

perfect

i feel...

a little lost

i want...

peace

i need...

love

i have...

God
some friends
some family

i love...

the mountains
sunshine
music
driving
church

i hate...

anger
hatred
negativity

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Fri Mar 03, 2006 11:17 pm

i am...
proud
strong
able
determined

scared

i am not...
fat (

)
a failure
uncapable
a pushover
brave

i feel...
like i want to starve

i want...
love
contact
my mum

i need...
love
cup of tea
a good book
sleep

i have...
friends
peope that care about me
a place

i love...
my mum
my dad
lucy

i hate...
selfishness
injustive
asshole's
stress

bus

who are you right now? lang trigs

me

Who is online