last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

kcubrats · Post by **kcubrats** » Thu Jan 05, 2006 9:55 am

because the fear of being caught is bigger than the relief the SI can bring me...
and because i don't want to hide things anymore, i was so happy for not worrying about hiding marks on my body anymore....till i started over

yuxi · Post by **yuxi** » Mon Jan 09, 2006 8:51 pm

because I had people around me who hate when i do it

ebmcs · Post by **ebmcs** » Sun Jan 15, 2006 12:34 am

because it doesn't fix things; it just creates more "things"

and because I don't want scars or questions

arianwen1174 · Post by **arianwen1174** » Wed Jan 25, 2006 5:28 am

Because I didn't want to disappoint my boyfriend. I'm trying not to cut so he doesn't have to see fresh wounds or more scars than I already have.

hopefully_fighting · Post by **hopefully_fighting** » Fri Jan 27, 2006 12:03 am

...Because I have a safety contract with my therapist and I don't want to break it.
...Because I have a lot of Dr's appointments and I don't want them to see any new cuts or scars.
So...I'm writing this post and hoping the urge will pass. I'll also try listening to my favorite music and drawing and if all else fails I'll call my therapist, but I'm not going to cut myself.

Sandy

PurplePixie · Post by **PurplePixie** » Sat Jan 28, 2006 9:33 pm

latime I wanted to si and didnt was because i know i will cut deeply since that is what i feel like doing, so i wont do it, it is very strange but i dont want to si when i know i will do some bad damage

disastercake · Post by **disastercake** » Sat Jan 28, 2006 10:20 pm

I didn't because I realized it wouldn't help anything, and my friend is already going through a tough time, and if she found out I wouldn't want to hurt her anymore. Plus, after I SI, it's like I have not emotions, and nothing matters. I want to be there for my friend, emotions and all.

Catylyx · Post by **Catylyx** » Sun Jan 29, 2006 7:09 pm

i promised myself i'd make it to my 5 month mark.

and i will.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 02, 2006 1:15 am

i didnt cause i was in my councelling session and i was determined to get help instead of SI.

Chey

sisterbig · Post by **sisterbig** » Fri Feb 03, 2006 1:50 pm

I didn't buy what I needed to use to hurt myself. I just told myself that I can do it another time and that bought me time. If I keep putting it off maybe I won't do it again.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 03, 2006 8:07 pm

i dint si cause i calmed myself by meditating and using deep breathing instead!

Catylyx · Post by **Catylyx** » Sat Feb 04, 2006 5:08 pm

Two more days until my 5 month mark....*clings to it*

PurplePixie · Post by **PurplePixie** » Sun Feb 05, 2006 7:05 pm

because I wanted to do it on my wrists and I have promised myself i wont cut there again

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 05, 2006 10:05 pm

cause it didnt make me feel any better the last time and it hurt too much so i decided to yell into my pillow instead. Then i was yelling into my pillow and was amaized how much a pillow actualy does muffle sound and i forgot all about si'ing.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Feb 06, 2006 9:42 pm

I was in a public area

Kaex · Post by **Kaex** » Tue Feb 07, 2006 12:27 am

Concentrated on reading info on si.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Feb 07, 2006 4:39 am

I didnt want to. Im determined to discuss with my T about better coping stratagies.

Chey

PurplePixie · Post by **PurplePixie** » Sun Feb 19, 2006 11:11 am

IT REALLY HURT MY BOYFRIEND LAST TIME

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Mon Feb 20, 2006 3:13 am

-It was going to be one year on March 17th but now it won't be one year until January 18th and I don't want to push that date back any further.
-I'm trying to prove that I am stronger than si
-Only one person irl knows that I have messed up twice and he wasn't proud of me to say the least. I can't stand him being disappointed in me or disapproving of me
-The scars are a turn-off (for both myself and others)

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Mon Feb 20, 2006 6:36 pm

1) I didn't want to feel the shame and all again

2) I worked out. I don't know if anyone else does this when they are tempted to si but if you don't I would really reccommend it. It has worked great for me. I just do some sit-ups and push-ups until I'm not tempted anymore. Its like killing two birds with one stone- gets me over wanting to si and gets me in better shape!

bus

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