Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

gin and kerosene · Post by **gin and kerosene** » Tue Jan 17, 2006 6:45 pm

i feel guilty about wanting to die because he should have lived. Sitting there during the funeral I wanted to be a better person. I wanted to get over with whatever it is im stuck in and start living. I wanted to be just like him. The crazy thing is I hardly knew him. He died at 18 but it was 18 years of pure inspiration. I wonder if I'll ever accomplish something close to that.

i dont know how to live.

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Tue Jan 17, 2006 9:25 pm

i want to be pretty

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Wed Jan 18, 2006 6:02 pm

*I've slipped up twice, the cuts this morning were worse than ever I think but I love them. I don't know if I plan to stop. I haven't decided yet. I figure I've f@cked up twice now so might as well.
*I know what we're doing is really wrong. I know we'd both be screwed if anyone else know, especially you. But I don't plan to stop and I know you don't either. The thing that worries me the most is who else could get hurt. I've been on the other side of this. So why don't I feel worse?

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Wed Jan 18, 2006 6:56 pm

i dont have to be triggered to hurt myself

i have started abusing diet pills again

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Thu Jan 19, 2006 4:28 am

someone please kill me because i don't think i can stand this anymore. why can't i just be able to go upstairs and get those pills? or that knife? i'm so useless.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu Jan 19, 2006 6:16 am

im jealous of a girl ive never even met

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Thu Jan 19, 2006 5:34 pm

i want to die but i dont wanna kill myself.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu Jan 19, 2006 8:27 pm

im scared of losing all that i have because i cant be who everyone wants me to be

Quiet little Angel · Post by **Quiet little Angel** » Thu Jan 19, 2006 10:31 pm

- i just want him to hug me, thoug i know he never will...

- i never want to get out of bed, it just feels so safe here...

- i never eat yellow candy, ever...

PMs are fine...

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Fri Jan 20, 2006 3:14 am

I'm the most triggered when I'm happy

I force myself to SI every night. I'm a total fraud

If I hear of someone cutting very badly, I will make myself cut worse so I can be as good as them...

I'm confused.

Toxicbex · Post by **Toxicbex** » Fri Jan 20, 2006 10:03 pm

SA TRIG
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It was my fault I was sexually abused

BlackKat13 · Post by **BlackKat13** » Sat Jan 21, 2006 11:15 am

*PM comments okay, but not needed*

I think pregnant women are so beautiful! When no one is looking, I sneak off to look in the maternity section. It crushes me to admit that this is because I am 21 and infertile-I will never know that joy

I said I was sorry to you so many times. And for what? I am still waiting for my apology (and I'm still not sure what it is that *I* did wrong)

The one man every little girl is supposed to trust is her daddy...
(but I think mine is an asshole)

TRIGS.......RAPE/SA
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I honestly loved you...Honestly. But non even my rapist made me feel as used as you... (And you know what? Sometimes, I still miss loving you. Pathetic, isn't it?)

Please don't blame yourself-The only reason I can't trust you is because of what *he* did. And you remind me so much of him....

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun Jan 22, 2006 1:42 am

id give anything to be thin

im scared of being this broken when Darren comes up to see me....im scared because i think he'll leave me

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Sun Jan 22, 2006 1:59 am

no one loves me
i put so much work into my friendships with people but they don't care
i'm going to the winter dance with uncovered arms as I had no time to buy anything to cover them up which is the stupidest thing I've done as if they notice I will be in deep shit and if they don't notice i will be officially invisible.

amerylis · Post by **amerylis** » Sun Jan 22, 2006 11:55 am

I am inviable to most of my friends

palavergirl · Post by **palavergirl** » Sun Jan 22, 2006 12:15 pm

comment i dont mind-PM

-i always believe her death was my fault
-i hide behind a fake smile to avoid the true feelings i have inside
-i do not like people that remind me of me
-sometimes i just want to give up entirely

Catylyx · Post by **Catylyx** » Sun Jan 22, 2006 6:34 pm

i want them to see what i'm doing to myself....but i don't want to stop...

i want someone to hold me close and never let me go...to just let me cry and cry....and to tell me they love me and that it all will be okay...

*SA*

i still blame myself for being molested.....

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun Jan 22, 2006 7:32 pm

i blame myself for the fact that ive been raped and molested

Copasetic · Post by **Copasetic** » Mon Jan 23, 2006 8:28 am

-comments ok, (pm) but not necessary-

-I have no idea where I will end up in life
-Sometimes I think I will never be in a real relationship.. and in a way I'm scared to be because I feel as though I'll instantly become dependent
-I fail because I am lazy
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-I want to kill myself. The only thing truly holding me back are my friends... because I know if one of them killed themselves I would never forgive them - so I figure it works both ways. But then my mind starts to think that I'm not as important to them as they are to me and that I won't be missed for long.
-It's sick, but I wish I had the discipline to be anorexic. I know you shouldn't WANT to be plagued with such a problem, but I would just like to be thin. Just once.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Jan 24, 2006 12:52 am

i think everybody hates me and even when people tell me they dont, i dont believe them

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