before

[kcubrats]

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
i'll feel somehow satisfied and eased


what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
it'll take away the urge

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
farther

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
i'll feel guilty and dirty and useless and stupid and weak and grossed out

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
stay at the zoo, talk to someone, go to bed and watch tv till i fall asleep

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
if i hurt myself i'll feel disappointed and disgusted...if i don't i'll feel proud of myself but waiting for the next urge to hit

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
i want to hurt myself and not feel guilty about it, i just want to drain it and let it go


Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
because i restrained myself for so long and it's time to do it again

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
i've been here tons of times before. i was afraid of being caught

What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
i've talked to people, i've tried to get a distraction

How do I feel right now?
anxious and kinda sad

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
i'll feel a goosebump thru my spine, adrenaline thru my veins and somehow a mouthwatering sensation

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
right after i'll feel relieved and calm...tomorrow morning i'll feel like shit, guilty and grossed out

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
i can avoid it but sometimes i just dont want to, i want to let it go

Do I need to hurt myself?
not really but i cant get rid of this urge yet

[balletomane]

What function does SI serve for you? You said that it gets rid of urges, but how does it do that? Is it grounding? Does it feel like punishment?

Can you figure out specifically what purpose you have for SI and try to find other things that will fulfill that need/want?

[kcubrats]

What function does SI serve for you? You said that it gets rid of urges, but how does it do that? Is it grounding? Does it feel like punishment?

it's not punishment...it's a way to release all the anxiety i have to turn inward to avoid arguments at home...

Can you figure out specifically what purpose you have for SI and try to find other things that will fulfill that need/want?

i have gotten rid of urges by making lists of things...for example, listing fruits with each letter of the alphabet and that stuff...it distracts me from thinking ways to SI