Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Thu Dec 01, 2005 8:08 am

My desire to live is seriously waning.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Dec 01, 2005 12:12 pm

I cant stop being scared you will take them away from me.

Aly · Post by **Aly** » Thu Dec 01, 2005 5:56 pm

Sometimes I get mad when I dress sluttily and no guys notice it

ComfortablyNumb · Post by **ComfortablyNumb** » Thu Dec 01, 2005 6:16 pm

Sometimes I think that I still love her.

Sometimes I just want to cut for the hell of it, for the comfort of familiarity.

I'm worried about her right now and she would hate it if she knew it.

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Fri Dec 02, 2005 4:46 am

PMs are very cool, someone talk to me

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I'm very afraid of posting here because I don't think people like me and want me.

This is the third most suicidal I've ever felt.

I hate myself for being so unselfconfidant.
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ghoulie13 · Post by **ghoulie13** » Fri Dec 02, 2005 8:51 am

i cut today.

bigger

sorry

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Dec 02, 2005 12:57 pm

I know what you said about me.

Green Beauty · Post by **Green Beauty** » Sat Dec 03, 2005 7:51 pm

I try so hard to go without eating every single day. I would never wish an ED upon anyone but at the same time crave it. I have had eating issues for a while now and since i can remember i have only eaten one meal a day most days. Yet i want to go by with less calories. I cannot help but glamourise it, i know all of the detrimental effects having an ED can do to your body, yet that is what i want.

What makes it worse is my girlfriend sufferes from anorexia nervosa and i cannot bear to watch her suffer in the way she does. She seems to be getting slightly better *touch wood and whistle*. But i want her to be able to go a day without constantly calorie counting and starving herself. If i dont wish this upon her and want her to just be happy and safe then why is it i am in a way jeolous of it? That sounds horrible. I am not jeolous of her having an ED as i don't want her to have one, i am just jeolous of ED's in general.

I want to be strong enough to starve myself. I am underweight as it is, yet i want to just be bones. I am ashamed that i look the way i do at the moment, i hate people thinking i am boney and skinny andf underweight, yet at the same time i want it more then ever.

If i eat one day i will try and go a day without food the next day yet 95% of the time i end up binging. I am a failure. I want to go back to the days about 5 months ago when i went days at a time without eating. I want to be that low again toi be able to do it.

I am disgusting, a failure and i am weak.

I want my girlfriend to be better. Yet i want to hit rock bottom.
Pm's Welcome.

Green Beauty · Post by **Green Beauty** » Sat Dec 03, 2005 9:58 pm

Put on a few extra pounds since i last weighed myself. Thats what i get for eating 3 meals a day for 5 days. Already planning on how to loose it. *Sigh*

glass angel · Post by **glass angel** » Sun Dec 04, 2005 12:15 pm

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i wish i'd carried on restricting and not been weak-willed and started binging.

if i was anorexic, someone might notice that i'm not okay.

i'd like to kill myself and start over again.... but i dont believe in reincarnation.

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pms would be nice

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Dec 05, 2005 7:24 am

I don't know what team im on. But no one can know. Things will change, I'm not strong enough for things to change.

I SI'd yesterday

I can't think. I need to not think. I'm scared shes going to die. I'm scared to be alone.

I need to cry...i feel it inside. the pain. the fear

I'm scared to be by myself

I'm so scared

I can't do this. I don't think i can do this. Please just hold my hand.

Please just hold my hand.

I'm so lost

please

Aly · Post by **Aly** » Thu Dec 08, 2005 7:39 pm

Im so angry, more than anyone will know.
I think I would kill him if I could.
Im so angry right now and I want to si. I know the anger would block out the pain and I could do so much damage.
I dont care about who I would let down. I dont care about how much Id be hurting them. Thinking about this, trying to deal with this hurts. I keep blaming myself. I hate it. If I si, I can deal with it better. I can forget, I know I can.
I could go so deep, I know I could. I so badly want to.
I wish I could express this anger, but I cant. It wouldnt be fair.

I hate that I put others before myself all the time. I wish that for once I could be selfish.

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Fri Dec 09, 2005 2:12 am

Oops, I lied to you. I am still angry. I'm angry because I'm hurt and it feels better to be mad. I want you to come back even though I know you won't. But I don't think I'll tell you that anymore.

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Fri Dec 09, 2005 2:16 am

I can't stay mad at my friends because i'm afraid they'll stop liking me

ghoulie13 · Post by **ghoulie13** » Fri Dec 09, 2005 8:05 am

i am normal.

Aly · Post by **Aly** » Sat Dec 10, 2005 7:16 pm

**PM's would be nice**

I brought new tools today
Already planning where to use them and what to do...
Im scared that someone will find out
And yet, I kinda want them to so that someone will know everything isnt fine
I dont believed anyone cares...

**PM's would be nice**

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Dec 11, 2005 1:38 pm

i hurt myself yesterday

powdahchica · Post by **powdahchica** » Mon Dec 12, 2005 7:53 am

I keep hooking up with guys, pretending I don't care, just so someone will think I'm beautiful
I am trying not to care about you, trying to pretend I don't care, but it's not working. You make me feel loved and beautiful and I wish you cared about me the way I care about you...but deep down I know you don't. And that breaks my heart.

PMs okay...

Kaelyn · Post by **Kaelyn** » Mon Dec 12, 2005 4:41 pm

I'm going downhill again but too afraid to tell anyone irl...

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Tue Dec 13, 2005 2:10 am

im really happy and giddy.. but i'm beginning to feel something slip out from underneath me and im afraid to say anything..

bus

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