Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by esaeler » Mon Nov 14, 2005 7:09 pm

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I'm scared I'll never be able to say no to him.
I'm afraid to love anyone.
I'm never afraid that I'll cut too deep, because maybe one day I'll slip and end it all.
I'm tempted to down a bottle of pills just to see what happens to me and who cares.
i live a lie, one i keep inside
forgive me for what i am about to do
i fall again with every stroke
it takes my breath as i begin to choke..

-July 12, 2006 - March 28, 2007-
SI FREE for 8 months, 16 days.
Everyone slips.
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Post by fuzzy ducky » Tue Nov 15, 2005 1:58 am

PM's fine



SU trigs.

Im sitting here with a box of sleeping pills and im wondering if it will be enough

I dont want to be me any more
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Of course I'm out of my mind, Its dark and scary in there

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Post by ComfortablyNumb » Tue Nov 15, 2005 6:23 pm

PM's alright.



I may be a lesbian, but I'll let guys flirt with me because it makes me feel good, feel wanted, pretty enough, and I like feeling like that.

Sometimes I don't want to stop.

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Post by DecemberLivy » Tue Nov 15, 2005 8:58 pm

i dont know what i'm doing
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"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
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I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
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Post by Strange_Panda » Tue Nov 15, 2005 10:09 pm

Comments OK-PM

I've been lying to everyone when I say that I'm doing okay in school.

The truth is, I'm completely screwing everything up.
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Post by esaeler » Wed Nov 16, 2005 1:59 am

PM's & Comments ok.

I fuck him just so I can pretend he loves me, if only for an hour.
I let him touch me just because it makes me think he cares.
I get jealous of certain girls, because he always seems so much happier when they're with us.

<small>I'm so numb right now, I want to end it all.</small>
i live a lie, one i keep inside
forgive me for what i am about to do
i fall again with every stroke
it takes my breath as i begin to choke..

-July 12, 2006 - March 28, 2007-
SI FREE for 8 months, 16 days.
Everyone slips.
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PM's comments ok

Post by _MessedUp_ » Wed Nov 16, 2005 11:08 am

-i want my (ex) boyfriend to want me back, now

-i felt he was the only person stopping me fromSI, no i have no *reason* not to




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-i SI'd for the first time in a year last night. my leg is a mess. but i know that there is no-one to notice anymore

-part of me realy wishes i would die. then he'd care :cry:
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Post by lostchild » Thu Nov 17, 2005 11:31 pm

diy abortion
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Post by marshmallowfluff » Fri Nov 18, 2005 12:08 am

su


i found myself writing a suicide note today.
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Love like you'll never be hurt.
Sing like there's nobody listening.
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Post by Skyeler » Fri Nov 18, 2005 6:50 am

I'd marry her tomorow if I could.


Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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Post by Angel_falls » Fri Nov 18, 2005 7:10 am

So many times i've thought of joining him

He was my only reason to live and now i feel like i'm here for nothing

I'm a Rurouni Kenshin fan and nobody knows it:P

I can't remember a single time without him where i'd really felt beautiful

I act like i'm strong and i'm beautiful and i'm perfectly fine, but on the inside i hate everything about myself and it's ripping my heart out

I've never really managed to tell any friends how much i care for them

I hate myself for staring at another man when my true love just recently died
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Post by balletomane » Fri Nov 18, 2005 7:16 am

Normally I hate being touched, but right now I just want to be held.
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Post by Forget Me » Fri Nov 18, 2005 10:25 am

im scared - really scared - that one day i'll have a drug problem, and/or and alcohol problem.

i feel so pathetic for wanting a boyfriend so much - but i do.
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Post by Cellardoor » Fri Nov 18, 2005 9:11 pm

i think im going to run away.

pms ok
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Post by what_if » Sat Nov 19, 2005 8:22 am

For the first time in a long time, i feel... happy. And this time, i swear i'm not going to let myself ruin it :)
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Post by Skyeler » Tue Nov 29, 2005 5:39 am

When she comes here for Christmas, I'm asking her to marry me.

I practise in the shower everyday


Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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Post by Blake 1 » Tue Nov 29, 2005 9:55 pm

I'm scared of the future, even the near future like tonight and I don't know why.
I'm not as
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Post by flipflopfetish » Wed Nov 30, 2005 4:57 am

*assorted trigs, etc.*
sorry if this is too long...
PMs fine

I'm good at making friends. I'm better at losing them.
All I want is to be touched
I want a bf so badly but no one notices me
I often wonder how many people would notice if I killed myself and stopped coming to school. Not too many, I think.
I'm pretty sure I'm straight but I still get crushes on girls
I really like older people and that bothers me. I want close friends that are my age. I want close friends.
I want people to notice my cuts but I hide them and am afraid of their reaction.
I'm too good at hiding my feelings. My T said I didn't have a problem, didn't need therapy and I practically TOLD her I cut!
I want to be ana SO BAD
The only person who noticed was my mom and I didn't want her to. My life is hell.
I really want to run away to Chicago. WHY CHICAGO????????
I want to die, but I can't kill myself. Must get more willpower.
I'm so scared of getting old. I want to die before I'm 40.
I'm a virgin.

don't read next one if you don't SI
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This friend opened up to me about her problems. I listened so well, but she wouldn't let me talk! I wanted to bash her face in.

PMs are fine
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Post by ghoulie13 » Wed Nov 30, 2005 9:17 am

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Post by Aly » Wed Nov 30, 2005 8:36 pm

I really need to be held, have a bf, so Im leading on guys I dont even like, just so they'll tell me that they like me.
Sometimes I get jealous of people who si still or who are anorexic.
I wish that he'd just notice me, because when he doesnt, it breaks my heart.
I still miss Will, still want to talk to him, still want to talk about him, I know I cant.
If he knew how close I was to falling for him, he's never talk to me again.
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.

If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
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