on SAT i was feeling really FUCKING low....mood dropped in class...(yeah had a SAT class)...kinda talked about my FUCKED UP life in my group
now scared they think i am a FREAK...went home told my bf...but still FEELING SHITTY...i drank some alcohol and took some KLONOPINS (not enuff to overdose)...then i called the CRISIS LINE...stupid lady traced my call lied....i had said i wanted to take more pills or cut....
then, before i know it the police, paramedics, firefighters were ther..thought it was my BF knocking on my door again...
they took me to COUNTY PSYCH ER...lied and said i was suicidal then not...stayed there 2 days...they would have sent me to PRIVATE PSYCH WARD....but i didn't want to go...so i lied and said i was feeling better....
now i don't know..........i lied partially because i have class TUES and WED.....i didn't get any help in a COUNTY PSYCH ER...i konw i would have gotten SOME help if i was IP....
so i don't know if i made the right decision...don't know if the next time i will be HOSPITALIZED and soon...last IP HOSPITALIZION was in SEPT...
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