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[longlost-hope]

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?


what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?


how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?


if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?

It will last for about 2 hours until i go to bed. THen Ill wake up, feel that sting and get my ass into gear and do my essay.

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

I could text lisa, not exaactly srure what id say though. It's a bit wrong to text saying "Hi, hows you? Im not so smiley!" and she had an essay to hand in tomoroow. TAlking to lisa would maybe make me feel better, or it would make me feel worse because she's so much better than me. IT would last about half an hour. And then ill...talk to hre again?

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?

I will feel dandy. I no longer get the guilt that goes with self harm. Basically because i cant do it properly anymore, my heart isnt in it anymore, which is why im here. If i do the other thing ill probably feel better for it, but i associate cutting as being a good thing.

what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?

I really want to finish this essay, its awful. ANd i dont understand the next bit.

[swirlish]

Hi and sorry you've had to wait so long for a reply.

How did you essay go?

Did you end up cutting or did you end up using some other coping method? If you did use another healthier coping mechanism, what? Did it work? Is it something you could use again? If you hurt yourself, how can you deal better with the urges next time? What were the feelings?

[LBC]

Hi

Was it your essay that triggered you? Or is there something else going on that you need to address?

I hope things are going okay.