Right now I feel...
- demidivine
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Want to die.
Want to show him how much him keeping me alive is hurting me.
Want to make him sit with me 24 hours a day if he's going to make me fucking put myself through this.
Hate myself for being a selfish whore and feeling like that...
Want to show him how much him keeping me alive is hurting me.
Want to make him sit with me 24 hours a day if he's going to make me fucking put myself through this.
Hate myself for being a selfish whore and feeling like that...
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I just want to end everything....
I feel alone. I feel totally uncared for by anyone.
I feel alone. I feel totally uncared for by anyone.
My Place Visitors are welcome. New First Post 12/16/08
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
Right now i feel like a failure. i feel VERY discouraged and scared. last year i didn't try AT ALL in skool and got all F's. This year i'm truely sincerely SINCERELY trying hard, and i have 2 F's, 1 D, and 1 A. lastnight i almosted caved and SI'd. i had everything ready, then i remembered what my sister said, she asked me if our friendship was stronger than the urge to SI. i didn't want to let her down. i sat there for a freakn hour just staring at my 'utensil', with a million things running through my head. i don't want to let her down, thats why i haven't told her about my grades. I'M TRYING!!! I PROMISE I'M TRYING!!!! i'm trying to control my mind and skool at the same time, and its just,..really difficult lately. i feel like such a baby..just a stupid little jackass!!!! F*CK!!!!!!!!!!!!! whatever.
so sorry if this was too long for this section..i'll move it if you all want, just tell me, and i'll move it.
so sorry if this was too long for this section..i'll move it if you all want, just tell me, and i'll move it.
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PANIC!!!!!!!!!!!
and it won'T go away.
and it won'T go away.
[I'm talking about my life.][I can't seem to get that through to you.]
[I'm not just talking about one person,][I'm talking about everybody.]
[I'm talking about form, I'm talking about content.][I'm talking about inter-relationships.]
[I'm talking about God, the Devil, Hell, Heaven!]
[Do you understand?]
[Finally?]
(one flew over the cuckoo's nest)
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- VowsOfSadness
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scared. I cry to eaily. Scared. weird
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
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Like holding on...
Worried about how worried my T is about me....
Wanting it to be morning so I can call her....
Worried about how worried my T is about me....
Wanting it to be morning so I can call her....
My Place Visitors are welcome. New First Post 12/16/08
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
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edgy and itchy, symptoms of withdrawl
Another lonely highway in the black of night
There's hope in the darkness, you know you're going to make it
"This must be Thursday. I could never get the hang of Thursdays." - Arthur Dent
"You're just wearing on the outside what the rest of us wear on the inside." - Sean McNamara, Nip/Tuck
There's hope in the darkness, you know you're going to make it
"This must be Thursday. I could never get the hang of Thursdays." - Arthur Dent
"You're just wearing on the outside what the rest of us wear on the inside." - Sean McNamara, Nip/Tuck
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Like I'm at war with myself....
I hate being at war with myself.
I hate being at war with myself.
My Place Visitors are welcome. New First Post 12/16/08
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
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lonely and unloved.
<center>I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me I've been alone all
along...when you cried I'd wipe away all of your
tears when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your
fears and I held your hand through all of these
years...but you still have all of me
No please
Shanon my forum, please join</center>
But though you're still with me I've been alone all
along...when you cried I'd wipe away all of your
tears when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your
fears and I held your hand through all of these
years...but you still have all of me
No please
Shanon my forum, please join</center>
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happy because i got throu a urge without doing it
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Hopeless
My Place Visitors are welcome. New First Post 12/16/08
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
Forever Satan of RW
Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
:.*.:NO HUGS:.*.:
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Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
"I do believe in fairies - I do, I do, I do" Peter Pan
"Fletcher Lynd Seagull, do you want to fly?" Jonathan Livingston Seagull, by Bach - a beautiful story, that changed the way I think. Read it.
"Fletcher Lynd Seagull, do you want to fly?" Jonathan Livingston Seagull, by Bach - a beautiful story, that changed the way I think. Read it.
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