Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

LN7 · Post by **LN7** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 7:53 am

*comments ok, pm*

- I have just spend two hours listening to her sleep, it's beautiful

Kaelyn · Post by **Kaelyn** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 10:56 am

sometimes I wonder what it would be like to drop everything I am doing (study, hobbies, sports),
and leave all my friends and family behind....(or somehow dissappear from their memories)
change my name and move to another part of the world, start all over again. to change everything.
would I be happy then?

but its just daydreaming. I will never even have the courage to do that.

pm's fine

everythingends666 · Post by **everythingends666** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 3:26 pm

may be SI triggery
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-i dont know how i would make it if i didnt hate myself
-i want to die but i dont want to kill myself
-sometimes i ask myself "how can anybody like me, when i dont/cant even like me?" and it makes me sad
-im falling back into depression and im hiding it from my best friends but i confide in a new close friend i have

~jessica

PLEASE COMMENT (via PM)

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 3:57 pm

PMs OK

I'm not okay. I'm not okay. I'm not okay. I don't know. I cry at everything now. Even though I am on the zoloft. I feel everyone is trying to just take that last stab at me. Every disappointment is more than a let down it is a test to see, and everyone is watching and waiting.

I wasn't okay when ryan did what he did to me. Now I'm not okay losing this Chris. Right before I met chris I started to get an affinity for Johnny Knoxville. Then I saw this hot guy and gave him my number and when we went on a date who did he look EXACTLY like? J. Knoxville. I even called him Knoxville or Mr. Knoxville. Now he is gone. After he saw me after our phone relationship he probably ran for the hills.

Now as much as I love Knoxville, the REAL knoxville, I can't watch a movie he's in w/o seeing Chris. And I'm auctually so sick of thinking this shit.

can someone erase my memory???????

daisy_chain · Post by **daisy_chain** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 7:10 pm

i have no real reason to be unhappy.Yet i still am.

theboldeditalics · Post by **theboldeditalics** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 10:33 pm

I push the people closest to me away,

because I'd rather not hear the truth.

aimee929 · Post by **aimee929** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 10:56 pm

**I have lied to every single person in my life... huge lies. But I have never lied on bus.

**No one seems to understand how depressed I am. My friends don't seem to hear me. My doctor thinks I have "so much to be happy about... so many accomplishments" when the things I have done in my life mean nothing to me. I feel closer and closer to killing myself each day.

**The fact that I have never been in a relationship-- never been with anyone-- makes me feel so lonely that it makes me feel sick. I wonder what I have done in this life to deserve to be alone all the time. I will be 28 years old this week. I have been alone for 28 years. I don't see how or why that will ever change.

PMs welcome.

love,
Aimee

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Mon Sep 26, 2005 1:03 am

-I want my brother to leave the house so I can cut, and not worry about being caught.
-I stole another blade today
-I feel worthless because of what he did to me, and I haven't told anyone about it
-I want to get out of this house, and go somewhere safe, but have nowhere to go

HiddenByLies · Post by **HiddenByLies** » Mon Sep 26, 2005 1:27 am

i am easily influenced, but i dont let people believe i truly am. so they all think i'm strong, and could give a shit less what people think about me, when really it's like the complete opposite.

HiddenByLies · Post by **HiddenByLies** » Mon Sep 26, 2005 1:28 am

i am easily influenced by others, even though i dont show it or act like it.

HiddenByLies · Post by **HiddenByLies** » Mon Sep 26, 2005 1:29 am

I am easily influenced by others, and what they say/ do/ wear/ act, but i dont let people know, because i dont show it.

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Mon Sep 26, 2005 1:54 am

*SI*

I put pictures of my arm after I cut on my xanga and then my friend ended up finding it and commenting on it on her blogg, stating "So Ijust went to my bestfriend/crush's xanga tonight." So my friend printed it out to show me how she was writing about me again. I accidently left it by the computer in the den. My mom never goes in there. But she did and she found it. So she said "I found the print up from Sarahs journal" and I immediatly thought of how she called me her crush and how we spend so much time togather so I said "That isn't my deal that's her's--it's none of my business." And then she said about how it talked about my SI.

And I had to lie even though it was so obvious and everyone knew (she already knows, but thought I have been stopping on and off stuff). I looked like an idiot, but I rather look like an idiot than a cutter to my mom.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Tue Sep 27, 2005 10:03 am

I'm starting to resign myself to the fact that I'll never be happy, and i'm fine with that. I just wish that once in a while I could feel something, anything.

(*Haven*) · Post by **(*Haven*)** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 4:03 am

*PMs are okay*

-My therapist doesn't know how much I look forward to therapy and to group each week just so I can spend time with her.

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-When I'm feeling suicidal, I want to call my therapist and quit....Because I feel that if I do it will protect her. She doesn't know this either.

-I wish I had tried harder the last time I attempted suicide.

what_if · Post by **what_if** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 6:46 am

I need BUS more than i care to admit.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 28, 2005 4:09 pm

I need a new T but am far to scared to get one.

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 1:01 pm

*pm's ok*

I got a call from the dr's office telling me to come in because my bloodwork was back.
They said I had to come right away.
I cancelled my appointment and brought my cat to the vet instead.

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 1:17 pm

-----PMs ok-----

I am absolutely terrified of crane flies. One flew in my face a few weeks ago, and ever since then... terrified.

I sometimes think I don't believe in love in any romantic sense.

(*Haven*) · Post by **(*Haven*)** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 3:37 pm

PMs Okay

I'm really scared because I don't know where my therapist is.

Her conference got canceled.

shadow of a smile · Post by **shadow of a smile** » Thu Sep 29, 2005 8:29 pm

sometimes i just want someone to sit me down, and say "look, you're a beautiful, wonderful person and you mean so much to me," blah blah blah. i want to feel validated, by someone other than myself. i guess that makes me shallow, and somewhat selfish.

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