last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
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I used a distraction and called my friend. Although she didnt know she saved me from cutting a lot that day. Then afterwards I went for a walk and had a cig, then went to sleep. When I woke up, I didnt feel like SIing
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
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This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
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That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
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because Ryan told me he didnt want me to be sad, he is proud of me for going so long and he "doesn't want [me] to be a sad girl"
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The last time i wanted to s/i, i wrote in my journal about what was bothering me, and ranted for awhile on my cell to my friend. I wuv my friends! most of em are recovering, so we help each other out.
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i haven't "SI"ed in a little over 2 months. i stopped because my closest friends told the school nurses on me.. i was FURIOUS, but eventually realized what they meant to do was help me. my boyfriend took all my razors and stuff away.. and hid them. and he won't give them back (which is in my best interest). whenever i feel like SI-ing, i tell him, or one of my best friends. they talk to me about it and cheer me up and when i don't have one of them around, i just keep my mind off of it and put it off, or do something constructive. once i drew a picture of a girl who had cut herself and she had cuts on her arms and legs.. it made me feel better and i put so much detail and work into it that it wore me out and i just fell asleep and i woke up the next day and i didn't want to SI anymore. i hope i can keep not doing it..
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I called a crisis line and talked for about an hour and the trigger or urge went away.
"If you learn from your suffering,
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
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and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."
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why i didnt cut
Last night, i felt like cutting really badly, i went into the bathroom, and i was planning to, but i thought that soon my mum will notice, soon my friend will crack and tell my mum, and that means i have to go to the counsellor that doesnt know anything. so instead i screamed into my pillow, forced some tears out, punched my pillow, and whilst trying to punch my pillow i gave myself a v big shock because my radio fell off the shelf, and that shocked me enuf to give me an adrenilin rush and so i finally got the energy to write down like 3 pages of my problems.
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...My sister was around, and just talking to her helped me greatly.
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I didn't have time to get supplies, so I guess the real reason is that I stopped carrying tools and supplies.
I'm glad I didn't.
I'm glad I didn't.
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Married to Reine, nicki, han & klove
WDS, snowangel, kicks, figment & Chey (plus kitties) belong to me!
Stef is my twin
Klove's partner....(in crime! Get your mind outta the gutter already!)
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I have a couple of reasons for not si'ing the last time I wanted to (which happens to be last night):
1) Your body is a temple (1 Corinthians 6:19-20)
2) It's been about 6 months since I last si'd. I'm proud of that and I REALLY don't want to ruin my record!
3) I know that there are numerous people in my life who are really proud of me for not doing it anymore and who would also be very disappointed if I started again. And I hate having people disappointed it me. Doesn't it suck to hear those words!
Heres how I avoid si'ing:
1) Think about the above reasons not to
2) Write
3) Crafts- painting, drawing, knitting (I'm making a scarf)
4) Calling a friend. I usually don't tell them about the temptation but it's nice to just chat and it keeps me busy.
5) Computer, TV, movies (Especially The Italian Job, Without a Paddle and Family Guy)
1) Your body is a temple (1 Corinthians 6:19-20)
2) It's been about 6 months since I last si'd. I'm proud of that and I REALLY don't want to ruin my record!
3) I know that there are numerous people in my life who are really proud of me for not doing it anymore and who would also be very disappointed if I started again. And I hate having people disappointed it me. Doesn't it suck to hear those words!
Heres how I avoid si'ing:
1) Think about the above reasons not to
2) Write
3) Crafts- painting, drawing, knitting (I'm making a scarf)
4) Calling a friend. I usually don't tell them about the temptation but it's nice to just chat and it keeps me busy.
5) Computer, TV, movies (Especially The Italian Job, Without a Paddle and Family Guy)
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Last night I was literally unable to sleep because I wanted to so much, but I didn't. I didn't because I didn't feel I could trust myself not to do some serious damage and ending up in hospital would be a very bad idea right now.
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