I cant handle it.*su*

[whatever187]

I'm a failure so whats the point of going on.
I dont feel anything, Its easier....better that way.
I completely shut down in therapy on monday I just couldnt be there, couldn't talk, listen, feel.
I just couldnt...so i went away..to myself. I feel bad because I couldn't, because I wasted time, because I failed.
I stayed in bed most of yesterday and alot of today. I guess I just can't handle anything anymore.
I dont want to be part of this world andymore.
I've given up....I'm already dead.
I feel so alone, so disconnected from people.

I dont want to feel this way...i just do. I cant escape it and i dont know what to do. I feel like nothing is going to change and that i Hate myself. I dont know what im looking for in this post...i just dont know how to handle this anymore.

[SxcJulz4eva]

you poor, poor thing, i hope you accept hugs, coz you need them at the moment! I do the same, with the therapist thing, i turn off and i feel i have wasted time, but you must remember, that you will always have another session, and in that maybe you can say that you have troubles with listening and concentartaing (i cant spell)
hugs if ok (((((((()))))))))))))

[whatever187]

thats a good point except my T said that I should see someone else cause he cant help me with "what i do".

[plantt]

even if you feel like giving up... how can you act otherwise?
no therapist can solve your life for you. it's your life. if you've given up... then how could anyone help?
what are you doing to handle things? to feel more connected with people? to get yourself out of bed & active?
it's hard. yet no one can change your life but you.

[badgirl22]

its hard to hear but I agree with Plantt.
Hope you know you arn't alone though.
-Badgirl22