Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Tue Sep 20, 2005 12:28 pm

I drove to the airport in case your flight had been delayed
I thought I could change your mind
I don't know how to be ok without you.

~Claire~ · Post by **~Claire~** » Tue Sep 20, 2005 5:44 pm

I don't know if I really love him as much as I tell everyone I do. If I keep saying it, maybe one day I'll believe it.

Im terrified of not getting the grades everyone expects of me next summer.

I dont trust one of my friends. I know from experience that not one of them is trustworthy.

Claire xx

Green Beauty · Post by **Green Beauty** » Tue Sep 20, 2005 8:40 pm

I lie about having to go as i fear if i stay i will annoy people

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Wed Sep 21, 2005 2:48 am

PMs are okay

Im 16. I always asscoiated that age with cars and sex. Like 16 + car = sex. I always told myself. Well I'm not saying i have to do it and blah blah I might wait until marriage. Then I got close to having sex when I was 13ish 14 and my friends were like

OMG NO you're too young

and I didn't do it cause I was only going to do it to please him.

Now all my friends that told me not to have sex are having sex, people I never would have expected to be out there "doing it", or "Giving it up" are.

And all of a sudden I feel like I may be missing out on something like I should be doing this also.

so I met this 20 year old guy who is very hott. I just might give him my virginity...just because.....

Im so afraid. i have so little impulse control.[/i]

Frozen · Post by **Frozen** » Wed Sep 21, 2005 9:32 pm

so many of my online but now really good friends are edging on the prostituion route. and i completely agree with their reasons. :|

fuzzy ducky · Post by **fuzzy ducky** » Thu Sep 22, 2005 12:08 am

PM's fine

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kurdt_kobain · Post by **kurdt_kobain** » Thu Sep 22, 2005 2:15 am

Pm's Fine.

I don't think I love him anymore. But I can't see myself without him, either. I'm afraid no one will ever find me attractive again.

there_is_hope · Post by **there_is_hope** » Thu Sep 22, 2005 3:32 am

im a lesbian and parts of me wants to come out
i have a eating disorder that my parents and pyschatrist has no clue that its going on but part of me wants to get help with it
i keep having memories of being made fun of and picked on alot in school
su

i still really want to die and want to si really badly

Forget Me · Post by **Forget Me** » Thu Sep 22, 2005 7:37 am

i keep having vivid fantasies of killing myself in very specific places... places i will be visiting for a weekend in one month..... and god i want to do it. not because i want to die... but because the fantasies are so, so beautiful.

what_if · Post by **what_if** » Thu Sep 22, 2005 8:19 am

I hate you.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Thu Sep 22, 2005 9:28 am

getting out of bed is unimaginably hard.
sometimes suicide seems so beautiful, so romanticised, so much fun.
i dont really know who i am.
but i know i hate myself more than i can ever express.

Forget Me · Post by **Forget Me** » Sat Sep 24, 2005 6:45 am

i dont know whether i care or not. its like all i feel these days is pain and anger and the desire to kill myself or cut myself.
i feel like i might kill myself at folk fest. and im not scared. im just intrigued to see if i will actually do it.

Skyeler · Post by **Skyeler** » Sat Sep 24, 2005 2:58 pm

My heart hurts so much that I know I'm real

I want the apathy to come back.

morganbellamy · Post by **morganbellamy** » Sat Sep 24, 2005 9:54 pm

*language* *su*
feel free to comment!

- every day i put on an act,or a face and i pretend to be morgan bellamy and this is how i am able to do things. the real me hides and watches

- d scares me cause he somehow makes me be the person i am without morgan but he stil likes me

- d seems to love me no matter what,and im scared im going to do something awful so he doesnt like me, same as everyone else who ever got close to me in the same way he is.

- e makes me dislike myself but i am trapped by her

- i worry about worrying my mum so,so much, if it wasnt for me she would have so much less to cope with

- i have to see a therapist against my wishes next week but I DONT NEED TO i know how fucked up i am and i know why i am so i dont need some phd charging £300 to tell me again!!!!!!!

- im worried that everything that builds up inside me wil one day become too much and il do something really terrible that will just hurt ppl i love

- i am hurting s, d, probably m and so many other ppl but i dont want to! i wish i could clone myself then everyone could take what they want and the real me could put herself first.

- i passed my driving theory last week

- i have a bit of a saving people thing but i didnt realise til i read harry potter

- i was only with m because i wanted to save him

- m's cousin commited suicide infront of him 3 yrs ago, this scares me

- last night i made out with some random i met at a party, j, and im guilty cause it was so good but i feel bad for d

- a is the most physicaly perfect human i have ever seen and one day i'l tell him

- despite the fact that i am over m, i still think about him, and the real me (not morgan bellamy) cries when i see him, not for what we had but for the fact that i cant save him no matter how much i want to.

-all hate sadness anger in world i hate it, all i want for people i care about, and those i dont, to be happy then maybe i can think about myself maybe

feel free to comment

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 12:43 am

i've used up all of my hope, faith, and strength.

now i can't bring myself to care.

i have seriously considered running away.

i would walk out of math and just keep going. it would take people a long time to notice or care.

when they did, it would be near impossible to find me.

PassingCloud · Post by **PassingCloud** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 12:52 am

whenever i close my eyes lately i see my uncle's face distorted in some kind of evil pleasure. sometimes i feel his hands on me. i can't stop this... comments in pm are fine.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 4:07 am

my dad bought me ciggaretts....i'm 15.

theboldeditalics · Post by **theboldeditalics** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 5:27 am

I think I have a major crush...

on my best friend.

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 7:05 am

PM comment ok

-i'm still painfully lonely
-i really don't know what i want
-i'm terrified i'll leave this life without a memory, that the world won't know me and know i've died, so my whole life would be forgotten.
-everytime i buy something for myself i think it will make me happy and it does but only for a little bit. i wont stop wanting more and more, i know i'm spoilt but i can't help it.
-i'm still a liar
-i feel like i'm never going to be with someone because i'll never give anyone a chance to know me properly, and it scares me because i long to be with someone.
-i had an out of body experience yesterday in the car but i didn't tell anyone because i was afraid. it felt like i'd fallen asleep but i was still wide awake, and suddenly i was outside, but just what i saw not my physical body, and i saw myself looking out of the window dreamily. and suddenly i was back in my body and i felt very distant all night.
-i think my intrest in wicca is an excuse, everyone thinks if i've got my religion and i'm happy i've found myself, but its not real and deep inside i dont believe. i hate faking it.
-i'm constantly comparing myself to other girls my age or older.
-when i'm at a party or a gig or just walking down the street i'm always giving off negative energy. at parties i dont talk to anyone and just sit, at gigs i push people out of the way and yell if they step on my foot or spill my drink, and when walking down the street i cross my arms, ignore everything and concentrate to getting to my desination. its no wonder guys dont talk to me as much as my friends, i'm always pushing them and everything away.
-i dont know anymore, i really just dont know.
-my mum still thinks i'm not cutting
-i know i'm wasting myself by not being happy
-when i used to think 'happy' i'd think 'home' because i always used to be happy and comfortable in my room and my living room. but since aidans moved back home and has started mentally and physically abusing me 'home' isn't associated with 'happy' anymore. he has taken everything from me.
-i've got good, kind, happy friends. but i dont think our friendship is real. why? i dont know. its like everything around me and in me feels so fake i can't stand it. i'm longing for someone to enter my life and ease this pain, or just convince me i'm not living for nothing and i've got potential.
-i fell like i'll never be able to make myself happy enough to be 'ok', like everything i do to try and be happy just isn't enough. everytime i get a new outfit i think it looks great for a day and then i start having doubts. everytime i meet up with friends i'll have a great time and when i get home i'll remember i didn't get to see the film i wanted to, the popcorn was too salty, my friends got chatted up by that guy, i didn't. its a vicious cycle. so if i wont let myself be happy, whats the point in trying?

HiddenByLies · Post by **HiddenByLies** » Sun Sep 25, 2005 7:12 am

*feel free to comment*

i want to overdose so bad... sometimes for absolutely no reason

-feel free to comment-

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