bad night *SI graphic*

heartonmysleave · Post by **heartonmysleave** » Sun Aug 28, 2005 10:26 pm

sorry, I just want to talk about this, its not like I can talk about it anywhere else.
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I hit an artery, I'd had a bad night...you know the kind of night, depressed, suicidle, wanting to destroy me and everything about me.

my razor was blunt, {edit for graphic method description}, I didn't even manage to get that deep. but in the end it spurted blood. I've never done that before. it sprayed across my throat. it was terrifying, and gratifying, and horrible..

it's all insane. I'm insane.

bah, sorry, you don't need to rely to this post, nothing much any one can say. just needed to tell someone.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 28, 2005 10:51 pm

I read and i care...

heartonmysleave · Post by **heartonmysleave** » Sun Aug 28, 2005 10:56 pm

thankyou. why are things so scary?

what_if · Post by **what_if** » Mon Aug 29, 2005 8:37 am

I read too. It sounds like a very scary experience

Hope things are a bit better now

Take care of yourself.

Kaelyn · Post by **Kaelyn** » Mon Aug 29, 2005 9:46 pm

has it stopped bleeding/did you get it stitched?
sorry things are bad. yeah it is scary to hit a major bloodvessel..
<hugs> if okay
take care.

LizBethAnn · Post by **LizBethAnn** » Tue Aug 30, 2005 11:34 am

I hope you are feeling better now, that sounds so scarey!!! I remember being terrifed in the hospital when they kept trying to put a central line in and kept messing it up, needless to say there was blood all over the bed, my sely and the back of the wall mostly. But I think the reason it was so scarey was because I had no control over it at all, they did and I surely felt no relief if you know what I'm saying. Just please, please be careful!When you cut an arterie it can be very serious. I am a SI but not a cutter so maybe I can't give you as good advise as someone who has the same SI that you do. But do know that I care!!! Take care of yourself.

LizBethAnn

heartonmysleave · Post by **heartonmysleave** » Tue Aug 30, 2005 7:10 pm

no stiching done, but is ok now.
*shame faced* I got edited.
it was a very scary experience. thankyou for your support everyone.

katja · Post by **katja** » Wed Aug 31, 2005 11:26 pm

experiences like these can help us stop self harming as much, once you realise that your not really in controll of your self harm it makes you want to do it a lot less.....

chloe312 · Post by **chloe312** » Tue Sep 06, 2005 9:14 pm

sounds like a horrible experience, wen it bleeds more than normal its terrifying, but hopefully can help u to realise uv gotten serious n need to get better, thats th positives that came out of it for me

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