Obsessive

katja · Post by **katja** » Fri Aug 26, 2005 1:26 am

I just wan't to talk about self harm all the time and i'm getting obsessed with it. I'm getting obsessed with this forum. I want to talk to my friends about it but i'm so worried about boring people, or manipulating them. Anyone got any ideas on how to deal with non stop thinking about cutting? please???

Cellardoor · Post by **Cellardoor** » Fri Aug 26, 2005 1:39 am

Hey,
funny i spend most of my time trying not to talk or think about it!

what makes u wanna talk about it so bad?

katja · Post by **katja** » Fri Aug 26, 2005 1:56 am

i dunno. its not like this horrible addiction for me that i dont want to do, i guess if im truthful i enjoy it. i kept it secret for so long because i knew if ppl found out about it they would make me stop. i feel so sick that i like doing it, i just cant stop thinking about it and how much i want to do it. how stupid is that? i thought everyone thought that way.... i guess i'm not as normal as i thought? i feel like a freak now.

Cellardoor · Post by **Cellardoor** » Fri Aug 26, 2005 2:11 am

well everyone enjoys it! er, i think anyway...
but like, if ur so obbsessed with thinking about it then it is an addiction innit?
i was like u are now when i first started, enjoying it i mean...
now i hate it so much.

in a weird kinda way i wish i still loved it, its sicker to love it, but it makes it funner right? i dunno what im on about... sorry!

katja · Post by **katja** » Fri Aug 26, 2005 2:15 am

i guess i am addicted to it. but im not doing it. maybe i should be doing it? maybe not doing it is more unhealthy, perhaps thats making me sick.

Cellardoor · Post by **Cellardoor** » Fri Aug 26, 2005 2:21 am

dont do it ok? i no im REALLY not one to talk here but seriously, ur better off not doing it!
i no this sounds lame advise but u should get a really good hobbie, something u really enjoy and put all ur brain power into that instead! after a while ul start to think less and less about it!

theboldeditalics · Post by **theboldeditalics** » Fri Aug 26, 2005 4:32 am

I'm exactly the same way. I'm obsessed with it, and all that entails it. It's becoming a burden, even with friendships. ah oh well. i wasn't that close to them anyway... i have the same feelings about it, i really don't view it as that bad. except for it requires me to lie to people i love, and that's a bad thing.

hope you get some clarity

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Fri Aug 26, 2005 9:25 am

I've had periods when I obsess over si. I think what helped e was to find an outlet for it, either my place thread or a journal, and just write all the thoughts out.

Si'ing isn't really a good answer to any problem, even if the problem is wanting to si

. If that makes sense.

Kaelyn · Post by **Kaelyn** » Sat Aug 27, 2005 2:44 pm

Yeah, I recognize the problem. Some of my friends know about my si and at some point all I could do was talk about it to them. To go over everything that happened, and how I would cut, stuff like that. Then I felt like I couldn't do that to my friends over and over again, I wouldn't want them to worry all the time. So I changed to writing a journal. And posting in place.

sug160489 · Post by **sug160489** » Sun Aug 28, 2005 6:14 am

yeah i went thru that for awhile and the worst part is it was recently so i hadnt bin SIing for about 6 months at the time so that made it hard

what i had to do was not come to bus for awhile and every time i thought about it i had to have a topic or sentence that i could think about in my head

and when i heard it talked about or saw it in movies or something i had to change the topic or walk out if that wasnt possible

Hope that helps

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