Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

Reisu · Post by **Reisu** » Fri Jul 29, 2005 7:06 pm

*Pm's OK, but I'm not around for the next week*

SU/SI Trigs

I want to tell her to leave me alone, but if I do I think she'll kill herself. I'm the only friend she thinks she has.
Not that that stopped me giving another friend permission to tell her to leave me alone when she asked, though.

As far as my mum knows, I havent cut since before easter.

I lie about the amount of times I've attempted SU because I want someone to care, and tell me not to do it.

I hate being with people. I HATE IT. I have to bring myself to go downstairs to eat in the morning because I know I'll see my family.

I want to be able to care about my friends, but I can't trust them enough to see if theyre lying about their problems.

I wanted to get anorexia, because everything else seems hopeless so I might as well be thin.

I've been denying to everyone, including myself I guess, that I get angry. I dont think I do. I'm saying this because everything else is telling me that I do; so I must be lying.

I hate the word 'depressed'. I hate the words 'self harm'. I hate them to hell, and it kills me whenever anyone says them in reference to me. I cant even bring myself to say them.

*Pm's OK, but I'm not around for the next week*

onlypurples · Post by **onlypurples** » Fri Jul 29, 2005 7:33 pm

- sometimes I wonder what my true sexuality is, because I have never honestly explored it (rather been told what it is) and I'm afraid to find out the truth

candiperfumegirl · Post by **candiperfumegirl** » Sat Jul 30, 2005 8:50 am

pm's okay

*rel trigs*

my boyfriend is a devout christian....... i don't believe in god. I don't think i'll ever tell him

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Sun Jul 31, 2005 2:16 am

I dont want sarah to come to warped tour w/me and bill

even though origionally me and sarah were the only ones going.

Bringing her is like bringing your mother or your litte sister.

*sigh*

I guess I will just have to deal.

Me and bill want to get fucked at the concert. I am just looking for a hot girl to call my own.

Frozen · Post by **Frozen** » Sun Jul 31, 2005 2:15 pm

- i hate people telling me how wonderful my sister is as my mum has been doing that to me for her whole life.

- i hate my mum for not believing me about and for making everything worse.

- i hate this teacher at my school for telling me the bullying would "blow over". It lasted 4 1/2 years.

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- i have 4 packets of sleeping pills, and 2 of paracetamol in my drawer which im "saving"

PMs welcome.

pink_flower · Post by **pink_flower** » Sun Jul 31, 2005 2:25 pm

Comments/pm's welcome

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-I have and inherent distrust of guys beacuase of SA, i think they are going to make me do stuff i dont wanna do. i think this is all in my head untill i'm alone with a guy and i'm fine on the outside, but freaking out inside.

-sometimes i wish i was dead, but sometimes i wish i'd never been born

*end trigs*

pointeless · Post by **pointeless** » Sun Jul 31, 2005 10:31 pm

*comments fine*

- I still think about J everyday, and although I'm no longer in love with him, I just can't let go of the thoughts/memories/ties

-I think I might have a problem with alcohol

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- I don't want my scars to fade, I don't really know why, but I like them... their a reminder of what i've gotten through, if they fade i'll start to cut again... even if I don't want to

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- If I fail to achieve a career in dance to any degree by say age 25, I can't see myself being able to continue with my life any further

Beasty · Post by **Beasty** » Wed Aug 03, 2005 3:57 pm

When I began cutting, it was for attention. But that hasn't been since the first draw of blood. I'm so ashamed of that. Now my cutting is for me. Just for me.

I live in a bubble. Not the real world. And I hate it.

I'm jealous of my boyfriend's ex who's now dead.

I kind of want to be bulimic. But I can't make myself throw up. My gag reflexes are too good, so sticking my finger down my throat does nothing.

Illumina · Post by **Illumina** » Thu Aug 04, 2005 11:14 am

*comments fine - PM*

I know for a fact that all three of the girls that I've been "involved" with have just used me as a sexuality experiment.

I just don't know if they realise it themselves.

And sometimes it hurts me.

BrokenGurl · Post by **BrokenGurl** » Mon Aug 08, 2005 5:59 pm

*when i really need to talk....i stop talking....even if im in need of help...*

Forget Me · Post by **Forget Me** » Tue Aug 09, 2005 10:30 am

everyone thinks i'm such a bitch... but id rather they thought that then if they thought i was weak.

i never wish i would die... but saying that is faster than saying "i wish i could fade out of exsitence painlessly and alone, and have everyone forget me the second i am gone"

Ibanez · Post by **Ibanez** » Tue Aug 09, 2005 11:33 am

[Comments fine - PM]

Everyday I become less of what I used to be. I really don't like it.

I want to get to know a certain person I am seeing all the time. I'm too lazy or shy though. How annoying.

I'm struggling to keep on top with coursework and people don't see the actual state i'm in with this work.

BrokenGurl · Post by **BrokenGurl** » Thu Aug 11, 2005 4:07 pm

* I have something im holding in because im ashamed of it*

shadow of a smile · Post by **shadow of a smile** » Thu Aug 11, 2005 8:27 pm

i dread going to work, i let it stress me out. i'm ashamed of it b/c i have no reason to stress about it, it's easy. i guess it's just b/c it's such a long time to work (for me). but once i'm there, i'm fine (more or less). it's mostly just before i have to go....i freak. but i can't tell anyone. i need peace but i don't know how to get it. and just when i thought i was starting to "get better".....

gin and kerosene · Post by **gin and kerosene** » Thu Aug 11, 2005 10:30 pm

comments are fine pm
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- I stopped eating hoping he'd notice me and help
- I dont trust any of my friends
- Yesterday i cut myself
- Im not really living my life for myself, the only reason i get up in the morning is because i know its expected of me
- The only reason i wanted to go away for school was so i wouldnt have to eat
- Im scared of dating
- I feel pressure by everyone to stay thin and perfect

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 7:25 am

I wonder if you still remember me.

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 4:05 pm

PM comment ok

i'm in love
he only thinks of me as a friend... i think
i'm starving myself because i couldn't get into size X jeans (uk size)
i want to get completely drunk so i can forget this life
i feel like a fake
everyone thinks i am so happy because i'm always laughing but inside i'm dying
i'm scared of death, but i dont want to live anymore

gin and kerosene · Post by **gin and kerosene** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 8:05 pm

e.d pm ok

I like to go to the supermarket and just look at all the food.

gin and kerosene · Post by **gin and kerosene** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 2:52 am

trigs ed si can i put all of the above just in case? pm or comments or whatever are ok

- Sometimes I like to make people around me upset because misery loves company.
- I purge because i cant cry or throw things and i dont ever want to give it up even if it could kill me...i kind of hope it does.
- I cant sleep at night and i feel more depressed about it
- I am scared of going to see a therapist because i know they will judge me
- My cell phone is a reminder of all the friends i dont have
- i start college soon and im scared of failing
- I want someone to take care of me but if they try i am really nasty to them
- im very lonely inside and no one knows it.
- i hope i die soon

Mindpoison · Post by **Mindpoison** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 5:37 am

*PMs fine*

I'm pregnant. I don't know who the father is...

I'm getting an abortion and I'm not going to tell anyone

Every one I know, including my best friend, thinks I'm still a virgin.

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