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Lyndsie · Post by **Lyndsie** » Mon Jun 27, 2005 8:02 pm

If I cut I'll lose her! If I hide it from her I'll be lying! She's my best friend I've scared her way to much, with my need to self-harm! I could cope in another way but I'll still lose her! AND I CAN'T LOSE HER, SHE'S MY BEST FRIEND!!!!!!!
I lost my one friend when she found out I was raped! I can't affored to lose my best friend, I'm sure losing her would kill me!!

I guess I just gotta make it until 8:00, cause after that I should be fine with coping! I'm going to the movies, and that should be fine!
Any ideas of how I can cope until then???? I've already been drawing, lissening to music, watching t.v., writing here on bus, and cleaning! Now I needa cut, and I need some idea how to avoid cutting, cause I just can't lose my best friend!!!

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Mon Jun 27, 2005 8:17 pm

snapping rubber bands
coloring or scribbling (even on ur arms with washable marker)
exercise (if your into that thing)
taking a walk

Lyndsie · Post by **Lyndsie** » Mon Jun 27, 2005 9:48 pm

OMG I totally forgot about doin that! Darwing pretty art work on my arms, with markers of course!

babyflutterby · Post by **babyflutterby** » Mon Jun 27, 2005 10:55 pm

errr try danceing round your room, duin stupid fings(safe 1s tho) er other stuf too

Lyndsie · Post by **Lyndsie** » Tue Jun 28, 2005 3:51 am

I was actually doing that! I had my head phones on, and was actin gooffy and and dancen around to music! It did help, I didn't even do it on purpose to avoid cutting, i just did it cause i was waiting for my sis to finish getting ready, and cause duh it's fun! lol

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Tue Jun 28, 2005 7:20 am

Hey just checkin up wondering how it went.

Hope your okay.

Vows

Lyndsie · Post by **Lyndsie** » Tue Jun 28, 2005 2:46 pm

Thanx for checking up on me! It went pretty well, I drew on my arms, i danced, then i went to the movies, came home and wrote and read! At least that was just like anxiety or somthin!
Now I have a problem with my family today! And I know It can't be solved with cutting! Cutting won't get me any closer to my goal! Cutting will just help me feel better, it won't solve, or fix my problems! (I guess I'm trying to convince myself of that, still alittle bit!!)

mallie · Post by **mallie** » Tue Jun 28, 2005 5:46 pm

Good on you Lyndsie. For using other coping mechanisms and getting through, but also for your attitude and resolve to keep going to get to your goal. Way to go

Lyndsie · Post by **Lyndsie** » Tue Jun 28, 2005 6:03 pm

Thanx for the support Mallie.

madcow · Post by **madcow** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 2:03 pm

well done for overcoming the urges of SI hun

Lyndsie · Post by **Lyndsie** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 4:33 pm

Thanx Madcow. I'm glad I made it through that, even though it's still hard sometimes.
Thanx for reading, and being supportive of me!

madcow · Post by **madcow** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 4:59 pm

its ok hun no problems

Lyndsie · Post by **Lyndsie** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 5:14 pm

your super!

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