Finding I've been really strong in resisting SH (it's about 125days free now), but this week has been hard. Been having a recurring thought about SHing on my neck. I know I don't want to and that I won't do it, but the continual thought is distressing.
Considering SHing on my leg or something instead, to get me through this neck thing.
Like I wouldn't be *starting* SH again, but just allowing myself this one time to help with the more dangerous urge.
I guess it sounds kinda stupid, but that's where I'm at and I don't know what to do. I'm moving house tomoro so all my emergency box stuff is packed up!
This is hard.
Tempted to "slip"
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"You loosen my chains and just ask me to trust you. But it's so much easier this way, even though I know that I am bound."
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It does sound hard...
What have you tried so far to get through this urge?
How are you going to feel tomorrow if you slip? How will you feel if you don't?
Have you ever had these intrusive thoughts of SI before, and if so, how did you deal with them? Did you ever get through without SI?
You have made it for so long, I don't really think any advice I could give would be helpful. But I wanted to offer my support. You can get through this...but I know it is hard. How can I help?
What have you tried so far to get through this urge?
How are you going to feel tomorrow if you slip? How will you feel if you don't?
Have you ever had these intrusive thoughts of SI before, and if so, how did you deal with them? Did you ever get through without SI?
You have made it for so long, I don't really think any advice I could give would be helpful. But I wanted to offer my support. You can get through this...but I know it is hard. How can I help?
**trigs, of course**
Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? Keep having recurring thought about cutting my neck open.
Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? Yes. I ignored it. It never went away.
What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me? Posted on BUS, got my friends at church to pray with/for me.
Go make some pasta. Sleep. Pack the rest of my stuff for moving house...
How do I feel right now? Sick. Tired. Restless. Supported. Tempted.
How will I feel when I am hurting myself? Better. Worse. Relieved. Alone.
How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning? Horrible. Guilty. Relieved. Distracted by having SHed, instead of distracted by wanting to SH.
Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future? I don't know how to stop the thoughts that invade my mind.
Do I need to hurt myself? Not yet.
Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? Keep having recurring thought about cutting my neck open.
Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? Yes. I ignored it. It never went away.
What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me? Posted on BUS, got my friends at church to pray with/for me.
Go make some pasta. Sleep. Pack the rest of my stuff for moving house...
How do I feel right now? Sick. Tired. Restless. Supported. Tempted.
How will I feel when I am hurting myself? Better. Worse. Relieved. Alone.
How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning? Horrible. Guilty. Relieved. Distracted by having SHed, instead of distracted by wanting to SH.
Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future? I don't know how to stop the thoughts that invade my mind.
Do I need to hurt myself? Not yet.
"You loosen my chains and just ask me to trust you. But it's so much easier this way, even though I know that I am bound."
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