Things Left Unsaid *LA*

GLaDOS · Post by **GLaDOS** » Sun Jun 05, 2005 10:47 pm

hát ez nagyon nem megy. El fogom baszni neked. Ennyi.

Catylyx · Post by **Catylyx** » Tue Jun 07, 2005 2:13 am

Daniel: ......i love you so much....and i'm so sorry i can't tell you the truth, and that i have to keep secrets from you........i'm just so scared of how you'll react....i love you.

Sam: i'm sorry i haven't called you...i'm too scared

i'm happy........and i'm so scared of it......i want to si, and i want to bleed....please come home soon....i'm going to break, and i don't want that to happen....

starrynight26 · Post by **starrynight26** » Tue Jun 07, 2005 3:21 am

n: please be okay...i need you...

magebaby · Post by **magebaby** » Tue Jun 07, 2005 12:58 pm

did you ever love me? i wish i could ask you that. i want to know so badly. i want to believe you did. i miss --. i don't know what i miss, but i feel i've lost something precious and i'm really hurting.

--

i'm sorry i'm such a burden to you. i'm sorry for having caused you pain. i feel like you say things because you should, rather than because you really mean them. i'd leave you alone but i'm too selfish -- i love you and i don't want to lose you.

--
mage

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Wed Jun 08, 2005 12:03 am

you cannot begin to comprehend how much I hate you. Both of you. You with your obnoxious chewing. and you with your "attitude" I want you both to die. Really. I want to hear the you are both dismembering in a ditch somewhere. I will cry. I will scream. and secretly, I will rejoice.

BrokenxAngelx · Post by **BrokenxAngelx** » Wed Jun 08, 2005 6:12 pm

I love you but you can never begin to know how much this is killing me on the inside.

Dungeon_Lilly · Post by **Dungeon_Lilly** » Wed Jun 08, 2005 11:41 pm

I miss you so much

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Thu Jun 09, 2005 3:07 am

Retard: I read your email. Thanks for thinking of me. I wish I were brave enough to respond. Maybe I will be soon.

(note to anyone who reads this--the nickname 'Retard' has a story behind it, so it is not a slur. In fact, it is a contraction of 'flame retardant')

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Thu Jun 09, 2005 3:30 am

sarah- i dont want to talk to you I just want to be angry at you and that is okay. I don't hate you I just hate teh situation I was in. I hate these IDEALS/IDEAS that make me WANT to hate you, but I don't hate you. I just need to be angry with you for a bit until I sort this out.

Ryan- You're funny. You make me laugh. Ryan, I like you..............

Bill- You have always been there and I love you, even when I think I hate you I love you. Hate could never be present without love, and I beilieve I have never hated but I have loved you.

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Thu Jun 09, 2005 5:04 pm

craig: I love you, your one of my best friends, and I can't tell you and it fucking SUCKS. please tell me what you feel for me, it has to be something because of the way you act around me... god if I only knew. I wish i could tell you i am secretly jealous of your gf annie, she's so great and you two deserve eachother. just ignore me i'm just a pathetic idiot.

mum: I'm sorry 'mother' I can't be a perfect daughter. all I can be is ME and OBVIOUSlLY thats not good enough for you so FUCK YOU I am so sick of all this shit, you act like its a fucking phase, its not a fucking phase I am fucked up and its all your fucking fault. Just stop being so fucking narrow minded! WHY is it so impossible to you that I would want to die? WHY!? because I do, and its all your fucking fault. I hate you so much it hurts.

mark: I love you, but trust me when I say we cannot be together... my love for you is eternal but we have to face the fact that its not going to happen, its never going to work out... so please... let me go before you break my heart

saffie: people think I hate you. but, I dont. I'm just jealous you are out there and having fun and I'm just a stupid ugly idiot. your ten times prettier than me, so much greater than me. guys ingore me, guys love you. i know now its always going to be like that. so you have your wonderful life and I'll sit here like the jealous idiot I am. I'm sorry if my stupidity ever caused you any hurt, becuase your not a bad person. I am the evil one, not you.

cathrine: I am really having trouble with this... why cant we be friends? I know EXACTLY why. because you have to hang out with rosie and hermione. but i dont judge you becuase of it, no way, i really think your a great person, i would love to be your friend if you'd just break the ice. you are the popular cool one, I am the pathetic wannabe, but thats ok. I get it now, friendships jsut dont happen between people like us. they just dont.

dad: where are you? I need you. HOW could you leave me I LOVE YOU DAD HOW COULD YOU LEAVE ME LIKE THIS I know i'm not your favorite daughter, helen is, and I know i'm not the smart one, alison is, i know i'm not the popular one, or the pretty one but i'm your fucking daughter and I need you more than ever. I know part of the problem is mum, she doesn't want us to see eachtother, but please please PLEASE just ring and I swear i'll come visit. I need you so much, this is such a difficult time in my life, your different than mum, she is so stern and narrow minded, your open minded and understanding so please, i beg of you, try to contact me.

sarah: DONT FUCKING JUDGE ME i know i'm not perfect but I DONT FUCKING NEED REMINDING

god: FUCK YOU

Dungeon_Lilly · Post by **Dungeon_Lilly** » Thu Jun 09, 2005 8:31 pm

Fucking idiot

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Fri Jun 10, 2005 2:41 am

Still not strong or safe enough (or positive enough) to respond. But I am not ignoring you. I know how awful that feels. I just can't be affable right now. I am sick of complaining and whining to people who have no reason to listen. So I will wait until I can fake it. I noticed though. and I appreciated it.

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Fri Jun 10, 2005 2:46 am

okay this is more of an annoucement:

I ALWAYS POST IN HERE ABOUT TELLING RYAN I LIKE HIM AND YESTERDAY NIGHT I DID. Go me

fire.bird · Post by **fire.bird** » Fri Jun 10, 2005 2:59 am

i am not ok. i do not know what is wrong with me. and i'm tired of pretending i'm ok. i'm tired of trying to muddle through. i want this fixed. i want to be happy, functional, normal. i want to not feel like the world is going to crash down around my head if i check my mail or check my cell phone messages or try to deal with my bills or do anything at all other than wake up and stare at the ceiling. and i want to tell you all this. but i don't want to drive you away. because when people think you're pathetic and unfixable then they stop loving you. and i don't want you to stop loving me. because i want us to work. because i want to marry you. there. i said it. i want to marry you. how can i be adult enough to want to marry you and still feel this same dreadful empty dragging nothing i've felt since i was fifteen years old? how is that possible? please don't leave. please.

what the fuck is wrong with me?

lin · Post by **lin** » Fri Jun 10, 2005 8:37 am

help.
HELP, HELP, HELP, HELP, HELP
there. i'd yell it, i'd scream it, but i won't make a difference because you leave anyway.
i'm sorry.

Millenia · Post by **Millenia** » Fri Jun 10, 2005 9:45 am

H: I blame you for everything because you don't truly seem interested in me. Do you really care? Then DO something!

S: SHUT UP.. I really am tired of hearing how great you are, and how much I suck.

D: Stop calling me. I really don't want to hear about it.

M: Go do something with your life, and live it.. don't hide in the shadows and blame everyone for your faults.

C: You are extremely needy.

M.LM: You are a naive bitch.. really.. WAKE UP.. !

R: Get over yourself. You're not perfect. Really.

Everyone: Give me some room. I need time and space to break down. I cannot handle all of your problems at the moment, because I need to take care of my own... by having a nervous breakdown.

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Fri Jun 10, 2005 1:09 pm

CR: talk to meeeee
S: oh fuck off, I'm so fucking sick of hearing about your great life
M: I FUCKING HATE YOU
CI: go away, please
D: we can talk

Over Here · Post by **Over Here** » Fri Jun 10, 2005 1:37 pm

B - up yours u arse - go mess up someone elses life
E - LOVE YOU!!

Phoenix Delights · Post by **Phoenix Delights** » Fri Jun 10, 2005 4:35 pm

Actually, u are messing up your own life. I don't want anything to do with it. I don't ask questions and I try not to interfere.
I don't care about you and emily; go for it, good luck.
Please stop calling me an arse you two faced, fucked up, lying, coniving cow.

Ant btw ~ Beccy, saw you writing this and told me!!! I am Not following you. I couldn't care less about your life and your business FREAK.

I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO INTEREST IN YOUR LIFE AND YOU ARE DOING A PRETTY GOOD JOB OF MESSING IT UP YOURSELF!!!

~*Star*~ · Post by **~*Star*~** » Fri Jun 10, 2005 5:12 pm

im so glad you know now. i keep wanting to talk to you about it but im not really sure how to re-bring the conversation up. i cant believe you know. i know you already knew, but the fact i've actually told you, thats a big wow. you're the only person in my life who knows. i mean like, knew well as a best friend before they found out i cut myself. amy knew i sh, and i was a stranger, and then we became friends, its always been a small part of our friendship. but you, we were friends for ages before i sat there and told you, and you're cool with it. i want to tell you that i still do sometimes. its 35 days today, i have 15 more to go until i've made my 50 days. that day will be great, i can't wait to get to 50 days, it'll be amazing.

im writing it on here, i cant really tell you. i dont know how to bring it into conversation. im gona wait until we have a deep conversation, an us conversation again. then i can maybe tell you i still do, but i'm quitting. i'm stopping self injury. i'm stopping it. i am so doing this.

~

god... why are you bringing so much pain into peoples lives? i'm kind of agnostic, i have no idea where i stand on the religion scale so i probably don't have any kind of right to ask you questions, but i am doing. if you are up there, which i think there is something up there, please look after his family, please god. please look after his mum, and him. they are hurting, she doesnt deserve to die, it will break him. why him? why now? why?? please, look after him when shes gone. all of the family. they have been do much and now you're placing this onto them as well, i dont understand it. i dont understand death. its times like now which make me so thankful im alive. why are there bad people alive, and good people dying?

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