Things Left Unsaid *LA*

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Sat May 14, 2005 5:48 pm

I don't want to talk to you ever again. Get that through your thick skull. I have not turned people against you--you did that by being manipulative, possessive, and unhygenic. In fact, I have spent the last four years ceaselessly defending you and begging people not to judge you. But now I see that they were right. You are dense. You are socially inept. You ruined CPW for me. You pressure me into talking about SI/depression. You trigger me. You've given me razors. You like this, don't you? You enjoy being the mother hen, the superhero, the guardian angel. Well, I won't have it. You are a horrid human being, as is your rat of a brother. You have no decency or respect. I DO NOT LIKE YOU. No one does. Why won't you just leave us the fuck alone?

Dungeon_Lilly · Post by **Dungeon_Lilly** » Sat May 14, 2005 6:10 pm

Stop treating me like i'm stupid

bright.eyes · Post by **bright.eyes** » Sat May 14, 2005 11:00 pm

well...
i'm sorry for ignoring you for ages after easter. i was just mad that i hadn't seen you for the whole holidays and i felt you were abandoning your friends, not giving them the attention they deserve. but you proved me completely wrong the other day, when i was crying and you were the only one to talk to me and actualy made me feel better and stop crying. i didn't deserve that, not after the way i treated you when you were upset only a week earlier. i'm sorry.

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Mon May 16, 2005 3:04 am

I AM NOT FUCKING OKAY. NEVER HAVE BEEN. NEVER WILL BE. STOP PRETENDING.

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Mon May 16, 2005 3:04 am

someone please listen. listen to me.

theatregeek · Post by **theatregeek** » Mon May 16, 2005 3:29 am

You ask me if anything is wrong and i say no. It's not a lie. EVERYTHING is wrong. Im terrified of the way you talk. You say you will always love me, WELL ALWAYS IS A LONG FUCKING TIME. You promised you would never lie to me, but by saying you will always love me, you are breaking that promise. We are way too young to be saying things like "I will always love you," and "I want to be with you forever" I cant believe you when you say that. There is no way you would want someone like me forever. I mean all i do is cut myself and cry right? oh and i bring you down and scare you. yeah im a great girlfriend arent i? Jesus christ. I cant never say what i want to you because i am afraid you would be hurt by anything i say. I dont want to tell you why i am up late at night. I dont want you to know what happened to me and then think "Well if he could do it, so can i" I mean i know you wouldnt do that, but still i am scared to trust anyone. especially you because i have already let you in, I really love you, but this is a little much. You say that you would never hurt me. YOU HURT ME ALL THE TIME. Sometimes you make me so worried that i am too fucked up for you that it hurts.

Wall · Post by **Wall** » Mon May 16, 2005 4:03 pm

Hi. There's something I don't understand.

nevermind.

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Mon May 16, 2005 4:34 pm

can someone please take the time to understand me? i'm not a difficult person, although everyone seems to think so... cant someone be there for me? am i desitined to walk the earth alone? why have you given me someone who i love, who i cant be with? WHY?
mum- look at me, your fucking killing me. let me be my own, i need to breath, i need to be understood. i need this shit to STOP

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon May 16, 2005 8:16 pm

You're not the only one thats hurting. Look beyond yourself for once. See the people around you. Please?

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Tue May 17, 2005 1:37 am

I am not your tutor. Get that through your thick skull.

xanemicroyaltyx · Post by **xanemicroyaltyx** » Tue May 17, 2005 10:25 am

it feels like i'm failing.....

first jackie, now my exams.

how much fucking special consideration do i need????????????

Koru · Post by **Koru** » Tue May 17, 2005 5:31 pm

J - I want to talk to you, how are you doing? I know I said I'd get over you but I'm not over you, I want to be with you so much. I want you to care about me, to understand me, to say you can handle me, that you want me too. I promised not to contact you but it is so, so hard. I want to tell you what is going on in my head, to make you understand, to explain the scars you must have seen but never mentioned. But I can't make you care and I want doesn't get so I will sit and write to myself.

xanemicroyaltyx · Post by **xanemicroyaltyx** » Tue May 17, 2005 9:28 pm

lyndsey-

just go FUCK yourself.

i'm so fucking sick of you.

BrokenxAngelx · Post by **BrokenxAngelx** » Tue May 17, 2005 9:31 pm

Leave me alone.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Tue May 17, 2005 11:54 pm

Jenn - i am just not okay at the moment.. and this year has taught me a hell of alot.. but at the moment.. i'm just not ready to jump ahead and do that.. i do have a fear.. okay.. i have a fear of this.. all i want is to just sit down with you for one entire period and just talk to you.. thats all i want at the moment.. please.. just give me that..

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Wed May 18, 2005 12:15 am

help me. please.

BrokenxAngelx · Post by **BrokenxAngelx** » Wed May 18, 2005 8:00 am

Help. It's so hard. Help.

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Wed May 18, 2005 9:29 am

I love you so much it just turns to hate

Koru · Post by **Koru** » Wed May 18, 2005 5:05 pm

I do want help, but I don't want to ask - e-mail and tell me I have to see a counsellor because I can't go and make the appointment, I just can't. I don't want to be attention seeking and bratty. I'm sorry, I don't know if I am depressed or if I am just making a fuss over nothing. I shouldn't have made such a drama over not telling you stuff today - it's nothing major, I haven't been abused, I'm not SU, it's just minor SI, no big deal - loads of people do it and don't make a fuss, it's in every newspaper, magazine and TV program. I'm nothing special. I want your help but I don't need it or deserve it.

Over Here · Post by **Over Here** » Wed May 18, 2005 6:18 pm

up yours
just cos i am who i am doesn't mean you can say that kinda crap to me. u know what i would have done if it was just you and me there? no?? well i would have taken my hand and slapped you into next week, no next month

. so up yours arsehole

and miss, go fuck yourself. i know u asked me not to be offended, but fuck i was badly annoyed

arsehole!!!!! arsehole arsehole arsehole

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