Gave my cutbox away panicing

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Fri Apr 22, 2005 10:27 pm

My friend Bridg she inspires me and after a long talk, well I talked she just listened, about SI I felt almost inspired. I'm going camping this weekend. I cut really bad and I scared myself, I'm still a bit scared. I gave her my cut box and told her to hold onto it, I don't want to quit but I wanted her to hold on to it. I'm so lost I don't know what I'm doing. WHy did I give her my cut box, I've never been w/o it. I'm scared. I'm freaking out--will this pass? Is life really better w/o si?

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Fri Apr 22, 2005 10:39 pm

don't have many words, but wanted to let you know that i read. i hope you are okay.

Wandering · Post by **Wandering** » Sat Apr 23, 2005 8:13 pm

I'm going camping this weekend. I cut really bad and I scared myself, I'm still a bit scared. I gave her my cut box and told her to hold onto it, I don't want to quit but I wanted her to hold on to it

Well you probably gave it to her because you trust her, and you'd scared yourself. Maybe it is a good thing, as it makes it a little harder for you to SI, as it takes more effort.

I'm freaking out--will this pass? Is life really better w/o si?

I would suspect that when you've got through a few days without it successfully, you may feel less scared

And my personal opinion on whether life is better without SI - yes. You learn to deal with your emotions more effectively, and if you're anything like me, you get a bit of control back - my SI had got to the point where I didn't really have any choice whether I did it or not, and how bad I cut. Now I have that choice.

Take care of you - and always remember you can ask her for it back!
Andi

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Mon Apr 25, 2005 2:33 am

Thankx guys I do feel better it was good to read and hear from you. I am doing much better as of now--seems my head is more clear. I am glad taht I did what I did. 2 days SI free

ComfortablyNumb · Post by **ComfortablyNumb** » Tue Apr 26, 2005 4:39 pm

Congrats on your two d ays and I'm glad to hear that you are feeling better today. Hopefully it stays like that.

mallie · Post by **mallie** » Wed Apr 27, 2005 10:54 am

I'm glad that giving your tools to someone to hold worked out for you. Taking the initiative to remove that temptation is a really good step. Good on you

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