last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

ghoulie13 · Post by **ghoulie13** » Mon Apr 18, 2005 8:03 am

was it my roomate? he needs a new home?

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Everybody_Else's_Girl · Post by **Everybody_Else's_Girl** » Tue Apr 19, 2005 3:27 am

(1) my t told me that i should not hesitate call if i wanted to hurt myself, and i believe her. i don't want to not call, and then have to tell her that i did something next session. i also desperately don't want to call and bother her. for some reason i especially care that she not feel that i couldn't call (never felt that way with any other t- usually i just went ahead and did whatever i wanted anyway).

(2) i just ordered a dress for an upcoming event and it is strapless. it is my motivation to workout (within healthful limits) and to not si.

P!nk · Post by **P!nk** » Wed Apr 20, 2005 11:35 am

i decided to go to practice to get the grrr out instead of staying home and letting the grrr take over & destroy me. tired myself out enough that urge went bye bye for now.

marylou · Post by **marylou** » Wed Apr 20, 2005 8:40 pm

I've started taking Box-fit classes (like aerobics with boxing moves)!!! It's so good for getting out the urges.
1. Aggression is focussed and let out
2. You get so tired, it exhausts you if you work at it
3. Those hormones go crazy with happiness post-workout

It's amazing!!!

ghoulie13 · Post by **ghoulie13** » Wed Apr 20, 2005 9:49 pm

because i am typing this right now.

me..

pomegranate · Post by **pomegranate** » Wed Apr 20, 2005 10:03 pm

because i was too lazy to clean up after.

nika · Post by **nika** » Fri Apr 22, 2005 7:43 pm

because I answered both sets of "before" questions and through that found an idea of something else to try before I SIed. Tried it and was able to fall asleep.

Koru · Post by **Koru** » Sat Apr 23, 2005 1:19 pm

Because people on BUS sat wih me for a bit and then I went to the gym and worked out and one of my housemates was in when I got home.

Because I have to get changed in front of people to dive tommorrow and to swim and becuase I am not going to let stupid guy issues push me into SI.

GLaDOS · Post by **GLaDOS** » Sat Apr 23, 2005 1:41 pm

because I started watching Anime stuff and that made me forgot a bit about the urges.

Everybody_Else's_Girl · Post by **Everybody_Else's_Girl** » Sat Apr 23, 2005 11:55 pm

i like to run. when i si it makes it can be really painful to workout afterward. when i don't run i get really depressed and am more likely to binge and si. i decided to not do it so that i can keep running and stay (more or less) happy.

cb_47 · Post by **cb_47** » Mon Apr 25, 2005 10:11 am

1)Because my trigger was missing my friend who will be gone for another 2 months, and I didn't want to have to tell her, "Hey, 2 days after you left I got really lonely and depressed and I cut myself."

2) Because telling her every time I cut is one of my safety valves--I always know that if I do, I'll have to tell her about--so just doing it and not telling her was not an option.

berendsenea · Post by **berendsenea** » Tue Apr 26, 2005 6:29 am

I was very depressed today about work and my life in general and how i'm not doing a good job of taking care of me. So for a brief minute or two, i thought back to cutting. It didn't last long, it's been so long now since i have, and i usually have a few days like this every year where i dig myself into a hole and i need the jaws of life to yank me out or i spend weeks moping and writing suicidal prose. But getting back to the office, i was glad i didn't. I am not my job, and while i may not have a great support system, sometimes i get the support i need just be happy coincidences or whatever. So, i'm still SI free. Go me.
peace.
beth

marylou · Post by **marylou** » Wed Apr 27, 2005 9:15 am

I didn't because I danced like a maniac round my room to my favourite cd and then I went out to my salsa dance class and it let out all my stress and tension!

cb_47 · Post by **cb_47** » Thu Apr 28, 2005 7:32 am

Because I was already in bed when I started feeling really urgy, and I was too lazy and exhausted to get out of bed and go get my tool... and the aformentioned thing of not wanting to tell my friend. But hey, who knew laziness could be a good thing?

Invisible_tears · Post by **Invisible_tears** » Thu Apr 28, 2005 9:48 pm

I didn't because the last time I did (yesterday) I did it so badly that I terrified myself, and so whenever today I felt urgy, I thought back to how scared I was when I saw what I'd done - and I also looked at the horrible wound, and that stopped me. And now I never want to do it again, because I felt so awful and scared. And I'm determined I won't.

Eric_the_Red · Post by **Eric_the_Red** » Thu Apr 28, 2005 10:00 pm

Tuesday: because I thought, "Do I reall want to throw 8.75 years of recovery away?" And because I started an sewing project I'd been meaning to do . . . and no, I don't count the occassional stab in the thumb with the needle as SI, I call that suffering for my art.

sassy koala · Post by **sassy koala** » Thu Apr 28, 2005 10:01 pm

that's fantastic Eric! yay you!

(btw- welcome to the board

)

FairydustSparkles · Post by **FairydustSparkles** » Fri Apr 29, 2005 5:13 pm

Because I went out and bought a punch bag eysterday (a small one but still) and it's now in my room at uni and i can just kick the s*** out of it!

~Claire~ · Post by **~Claire~** » Sat Apr 30, 2005 8:18 pm

Because I wrote everything down in my diary instead and didnt take it out on myself.

cb_47 · Post by **cb_47** » Mon May 02, 2005 6:39 pm

Because I didn't want to have to explain it to anyone, and keeping it completely secret scares me.

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