last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by chloe312 » Tue Mar 29, 2005 12:41 pm

i keep teaspoons in the freezer...i hold them on my rist insted.....u get a slight pain so therefore the relief, without the physical harm or danger. :)
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Post by crazy_k » Tue Mar 29, 2005 11:05 pm

the main reason I didnt the last time I wanted to which was recently ie today was because of the kids being home and I dont want to have to explain to someone why there are new marks.......I'm ashamed of the ones I left over a year ago.....

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Post by marylou » Fri Apr 01, 2005 3:15 pm

I didn't because I hugged my hot water bottle until I fell asleep :D

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Post by RG » Sun Apr 03, 2005 6:52 am

Last time I wanted to Si I went for this stupid long run then came home and crashed on the couch. This didn't make all the urge go away but by then I was to tired to cut

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Post by nika » Mon Apr 04, 2005 3:21 pm

drew on my arm with red lipstick ... went to bed.
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Post by roseblum15 » Tue Apr 05, 2005 4:52 am

because its summer and I really don't want anymore fresh marks

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Post by meg0n » Tue Apr 05, 2005 8:23 pm

The last time i wanted to si and never, was because i knew that i was starting a new life and was 9 weeks si free, so i was strong and beat my own head by following my heart :)
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Post by pink1 » Thu Apr 07, 2005 12:37 am

Because I'm nearly 7 months free and its really late at night here and I WOULD HAVE TO wake my gf up yo take me to a and e for stitches



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Post by Poppies » Fri Apr 08, 2005 2:15 pm

I really want to get on top of this.... I managed it once before, but it's so hard!

I wanted to hurt myself yesterday, but I told myself that I'd try not to..... if it got too hard, then I'd do it later, but I wouldn't do it 'right now'..... I had to 'promise' myself that a couple of times, but somehow it worked..... I think it's because I'm not saying to myself that I can't do it EVER.... but I'm saying I'll try not to do it right now...... Don't know if this makes sense or not....
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Post by limestone » Sat Apr 09, 2005 8:58 pm

phoned samaritans instead, made a cup of tea, ate jam on toast, listened to music, watched tv etc. you get the picture, I didn't si in the end.

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Post by ghoulie13 » Tue Apr 12, 2005 4:39 am

a guest came over and my girly called me to make sure. everyone is checking on me. I've never felt this much love, and felt so lonely at the same time.
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Post by Jilt » Tue Apr 12, 2005 8:29 pm

I folded the blade up in a napkin and put the napkin inside the hand compartment of my stuffed/puppet tiger friend Mel, and Mel kept it away from me like a good friend would. Then I fell asleep holding Mel, as usual ^.^;
Of course Mel is symbolic to me for a good real life friend of mine... so that helped a lot.
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Post by Twitter Mouse » Wed Apr 13, 2005 1:29 pm

I left the class that was trigering me, found a teacher who is very supportive of me who let me stay in her class and run some errads to keep me busy. :D
And it's hey babe, with your guardian eyes so blue,
Hey my baby, don't you know our love is true,
I've been so far from here,
Far from your loving arms,
Now I'm back again, and babe it's gonna work out fine.

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Post by ghoulie13 » Wed Apr 13, 2005 3:23 pm

i stayed out until 2 last night.
tried to keep busy..
fell asleep on the phone..
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Post by excuses » Wed Apr 13, 2005 3:24 pm

I locked myself out of my dorm room and waited for my girlfriend to get back and let me in. My blades were locked inside, so I wasnt able to do anything.. and then I wasnt alone anymore, so I didnt want to.

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Post by marylou » Wed Apr 13, 2005 9:44 pm

I gave away my knife and I recently got it back (accidentally, kind of, long story...) and now my knife is back in my knife block and my set is complete again. I don't why, but seeing it complete makes me happy and I know if I SHed I'd have to get rid of it and screw up the set again. It makes me happy with it complete, so it stops me SHing.

Weird, I know...
"You loosen my chains and just ask me to trust you. But it's so much easier this way, even though I know that I am bound."

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Post by ghoulie13 » Wed Apr 13, 2005 9:47 pm

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ate some past without any silverware
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Post by P!nk » Sat Apr 16, 2005 3:33 pm

lately when i have come close... i haven't because i just started playing soccer again & though i wear long sleeves sometimes we have to switch colours and i don't want any new scars to draw more attention & there are no bathrooms to change in... frustrating but it's working atm... :roll:

so guess i am trying to concentrate on exercising the grrrr outta me...

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Post by Forget Me » Sun Apr 17, 2005 9:37 am

last time i wanted to si, i didnt because i convinced myself it wouldnt help. instead i relaxed my body and tried to get to sleep. and then i couldn't so i just bawled for a bit then curled up and slept.
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Post by polmath » Sun Apr 17, 2005 10:19 pm

roommate unexpectedly was back in the room early.... that definetly saved from an already bad night...

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