last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Its all a blur · Post by **Its all a blur** » Thu Feb 10, 2005 1:52 am

this is hopefully gonna be true of the next few weeks... next time i wanna si i'm gonna try not to cos i have a bal coming up in just under a month and i want to wear a pretty pink spotty dress and scars will clash horribly! i hope that stops me next time i feel the need...

FairydustSparkles · Post by **FairydustSparkles** » Thu Feb 10, 2005 3:20 pm

Because I know there's people who believe in me, and I know when i do it I'm not just hurting me, I'm hurting them too. And as much as I wanna hurt myself I don't wanna put them through it.

And because 6 weeks is the longest I've ever been free, I'm on 3weeks now and I wanna keep going.

GLaDOS · Post by **GLaDOS** » Sun Feb 13, 2005 12:31 am

...I had no time...

balletomane · Post by **balletomane** » Wed Feb 16, 2005 12:40 am

The last time I wanted to SI but didn't, I cut up old pictures of myself. I didn't because I don't want new scars when I go to ballet.

swanfaerie · Post by **swanfaerie** » Wed Feb 16, 2005 8:07 am

i took time to let the urge pass. i psoted in before & after and realized it wasn't worth it. i don't want the lady i'm dating to see fresh wounds. i don't want dhs to see a mom w/si wounds. and i'm just too tired.

Never Again · Post by **Never Again** » Fri Feb 18, 2005 1:11 am

because i have a contract with my tdoc and pdoc that i will call them before si. i didn't really have a choice. it's either this or ip.

BUT IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAAAAAAAAAAARD. I WANT TO CUT SOOOOOOOO BAD!

:bawl:

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Fri Feb 18, 2005 10:52 am

I didn't have access to first aid stuff, so I told myself I had to wait til I got home and could take care of whatever I did. Of course, by the time I got home I felt better and didn't.

marylou · Post by **marylou** » Fri Feb 18, 2005 1:12 pm

I sat on my hands and made myself fall asleep. When I woke up again I didn't want to anymore.

Thunder_chey · Post by **Thunder_chey** » Fri Feb 25, 2005 8:16 am

because im saving my mony for a new camera

Chey

Moi · Post by **Moi** » Fri Feb 25, 2005 12:03 pm

The last time I wanted to si and it was all I could think about I couldn't take it. So I threw away my blades and went for a chat with my teacher about my coursework. It was boring as hell, but it helped.
The time before that tho, I was at home and went to see my grandmother. she's had her arm amputated, and it made me realise how lucky I was to have an arm to cut in the first place. So it stopped me from wanting to do it. Wierd but true.

Thunder_chey · Post by **Thunder_chey** » Sat Feb 26, 2005 1:08 am

Oh and summer is comming and I dont want to have to explain the new batch of scars. Specialy since my little cosin notices everything. Told her lastyear they were burns from work. (not true) I dont like to lie to my little cosin. So im not going to phisicaly harm myself but I do send myself on emotional rollercosters several times a day and some days the urge is strong. But I think I would miss my friend Belinda too much. I would miss my little cosin. I would miss my friend Krys too.

Chey

dark_aura · Post by **dark_aura** » Sat Feb 26, 2005 12:44 pm

Me and my brother had got into a fight...But instead of SI-ing,I thought of a friend (who doesn't know) mind you,and what she would say if she knew...She's really cool so I dunno..And she's leaving school soon so that piece of a reason will be lost soon...I know it's dumb,but when I talk to her I feel a good bit better...And I didn't need to SI to do it....

angel1 · Post by **angel1** » Sat Feb 26, 2005 4:48 pm

I thought about my gf and how much it hurts her when I si. I don't want to hurt her anymore to I didn't si.

dark_aura · Post by **dark_aura** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 2:48 pm

because i refused to give in..21 days without a slip..Maybe I'll get to 1 year...Maybe.

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 3:19 pm

I was with friends something stopped me but I could have but I didnt I want to get those damn stickers.

defensive_spikey · Post by **defensive_spikey** » Mon Feb 28, 2005 11:09 am

when i want to hurt myself i think about my boyfriend who would be upset and disappointed. he helps me to stay strong.

Twitter Mouse · Post by **Twitter Mouse** » Mon Feb 28, 2005 4:48 pm

I thought of my dog, and bought gourmet dog cookies with the money I had with me for tools.

dark_aura · Post by **dark_aura** » Tue Mar 01, 2005 8:59 pm

I didn't because I again thought of this person and the expression on her face...

demidivine · Post by **demidivine** » Tue Mar 01, 2005 10:03 pm

i thought, i'll see what happens in the next ten minutes. if it's still sh*t, i will. and it wasn't. it was better.

soul sista · Post by **soul sista** » Tue Mar 01, 2005 10:35 pm

i thought about my religion and my friends and how i hav come this far why let it slip away again

bus

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