quitting? *si*

[Sarita]

since i've come to this site, i've found all these helpful suggestions on quitting and distraction...when i first started SIing, i was really scared of it and now i'm more comfortable in myself with doing it and i keep feeling like the only reason i keep trying to quit is to satisfy everyone else's comfort levels. I never feel ashamed when i cut, but when i try to hide the cuts i feel more ashamed than i ever have in my life...it hurts to hide them because i almost feel like i'm hiding something that IS me and i don't want that. I used to just walk around after siing with sleeveless shirts on not caring who saw, but my ex made me feel really concious about cutting, like i was a horrible person for it and now that i am concious, i can't just walk around sleeveless anymore, i'm not secure in it and it makes me feel horribly ashamed. anyone else feel this way? please, tell me!

[treasure]

i've only rarely had the confidence to show my scars in public... i usually where long sleeves but every hot day, or even slightly warm day, i feel like everyone can see that i'm wearing long sleeves. i try so hard to let myself be myself but i'm so ashamed if anyone saw what i do/ saw who i am/ saw how i'm not coping....
people's reactions (if we ever tell) can really affect how we see si. by being ashamed etc... and sometimes i feel like i'm disappointing ppl who know cos they all want it to stop and i can't stop...

[Sarita]

that's just it though, i don't care if people see, i'm more ashamed that i hide my scars than that i have them. i love my scars and i don't want to hide them anymore.