Bitch Fest / Things Left Unsaid II *LA*

[~bluehaze~]

I'm sorry for the way I disappointed you and broke your trust. The only reason that I did end it was so that I could break the promise I made. You never took the time to understand how it was for me. You always just assumed that I would be ok the next day. Its not something that I can just get over. I understand that you never really cared. Im sorry for bringing you down with me. I never meant for it to happen like that.

[morganbellamy]

i do want to be with you, and i know i said no regrets but i didnt mean it i was just trying to protect myself but now i know that you want to be with me and wont hurt with me, we can work it out it can work if we want it to we can do anything just because things happend in the past doesnt mean that they are going to happen now and i have decided that we can be together you are not worthless anymore, you are so precious to me.

[{{ silent scream }}]

things i owuld like to say:

sarah: whats going on in your head? why cant you get better and be the lovely girl you usedto be?

perents: u dont know the circumstances and i know you dont understand me but let me just explain......

my new freinds at college: please dont be shocked.......

[ChaseThisLight]

Things I'd like to say:

To AH: You mean so much to me, you are the closest friend I have, and if you don't live here next year I will be crushed. You have been the greatest friend to me up here, and you'll never realize how much your friendship means to me.

To JR: You need serious help. Your drinking is out of control, and it scares me and pretty much everyone else in the House. You're my big, and I'd do anything to help you, but you NEED to make the first move.

To my House: I Self Injure. It doesn't mean I'm weak, and I'm competent enough to hold an office. I feel like I've been cheating you all by not telling you all, but I just didn't think you'd understand. I'm not like most of you, and all I want is to be accepted the way I am. I cut, and that's how I cope, but please don't think less of me.

Things I'd like to hear:

LH: Mardy, I'm sorry. I understand your letter and we need to talk.

JL: I'm sorry I dated you while I still had a girlfriend. I want things to work again, and we both know they can, regardless of the fact that I'm going to Iraq.

[RainyDays]

Sister: I'm going to change. (And it actually happens.)

Mother: I'm going to change. (Yet again, it actually happens.)

J&P: Let's talk about it. The SI, everything you want to tell us but have been holding back. Let's get it all out in the open & you can take as much time as you need. There's no hurry, right now it's about you. Say anything you want. And even if we don't like it, we'll still love you.

[{{ silent scream }}]

things i want to add.

sarah. where did you go? we used to have so much fun. we used to do things like collect snails. i stood by u when people tok the piss for you being different.
why did you have to become this horrible thing. why? i know its not ur fault?

when u told me u SI'd for the firt time he other day i was so shocked?!
ur a model, u show your body. i guess not aymore.


why cant you look at yourself ad se what we see? A wasted life. ur such a fantastic person.


laura i really really want to tell you everything. i want you to understan. but i respect you too much to tell u just incase u dont care or laugh at me. that would be the last straw.

[green chameleon]

brother--I want to talk to you, to get to know you again. I want to compare our childhoods. I'm sorry I was cruel to you when we were younger. I want to be family again. I wish we didn't live so far apart, I understand why you can't leave the ocean. I want to know you, I want to help you. I know you are hurting and I am hurting. I don't know how to reach out, it's so hard. Tears.

[ru290]

Mum: "sorry that i have done all this horrible HORRIBLE stuff to you ru, i know i have changed you forever and i can never take back what's happened, but i want you to know that within all my heart i am so terribly sorry and i wish i could pick up all the shattered millions of pieces and make it up to you darling."
Jamie: "im sorry that i left you this way. sorry i left without saying good bye, i am aware of all the pain i have put u through and i wish i could take that back but i cant.i do really care about this, and i love you with everything i have. i promise to let you watch kitty and thea grow up and stop excluding you from my life when i know that all of this has been my doing, and not yours."
Dad: "sorry i have been such a COCK recently. i am going through a difficult phase at the minute."
Jack: "Sorry i never helped you out more at your hardest times in life, i know i left everything up to you and that was wrong of me. i want to take that back and make it right. sorry for everything, i love you."
tom: "i'm in love with you."
****: "i love you"
random i know, but these are things that have hurt me most.
ru x

[Twinky]

Mike:
I care about you and I love you too. I want to stay friends with you

[kissthesky46]

"I'm sorry I never noticed when you were in 6th grade and wanted to die, or when you'd come home snappy and I assumed it wasn't anything big. I'm sorry I didn't realise you hurt."

I want my mom to say that to me. Recently she brought up how she doesn't understand how young people are depressed (one of my best friends is and SI's too) (although mom doesn't know about her SI) and then when I tried to explain the pressure and things she said "Well, you're not like that." and I wanted to scream.

I'm sorry if that's a trigger, but it just seemed right for this thread. It's a good topic.

[nirvana]

anyone: you are not a slut.

[azure]

Doc- i need you too much.that terrifies me.

el-i forgive.cannot forget.such is self preservation.

'mother'-all i want is for you to admit it.

Ess- i sort of dont care what you and her are having for xmas dinner?
your email was cold.emote already.so help me i still do love you tho.

Ess 2:please dont seek me out and disappear ok.i feel like a fool now.

blee:our last coversation was so stilted and uncomfortable i am deeply saddened by it.

the boy with those eyes-will you let me know you.i will not be frantic.

My Best Friend-you really are.im shy to say so.
will you please love yourself as much as i love you?

[lin]

what i'd like to say:
you've hurt me so much. so so much. you know whats happening and youignore me. you haven't spoken to me in a month. you dont do anything even when i practically ask. you mean so much to me, but i can't deal with this. its my fault i know but i don't know what to do. i need someone to catch me. i'm in a downward spiral and i can't get out. help me. please.

[Multifoliate]

Mom: Doing your best is all I ever wanted. You don't have to be perfect. Even if you make a mistake, I will still care about you.

Mom: I am sorry for not coming to any of your competitions, missing most of your school functions because I didn't *feel* like coming, and not attending your baptism.

R, B, and everyone else: I would like to make up for all of the times that I was an a** and made you feel horrible inside.

[VowsOfSadness]

Amanda, I want you to know I'm not always going to be able to talk to you, but I do know youre there to talk to when I need it.--John

I know how you are, but you can't save the world--Mrs. Lee Guidence counsler

I finally realize that we are not going to become friends agai--Liz

Amanda, it's okay to be upset, but you need to sit down for a moment and think, just try to relax, it's going to be okay.

There is such a thing as tomarrow, but just try to live in today.

I'm upset with you...-Bill

[Mayalaen]

Mom: I'm sorry I forced you to be around people that hurt you.

Dad: I'm sorry I wasn't there for you and was scared to be with you.

[~*Star*~]

why do you have to throw it back in my face when i do good stuff for you, im trying to make you happy, ive planned all this out and god it had better work, i feel so shit about it now. all im trying to do is make you happy and smile, like you make me.

[Elena]

mom: I'm sorry I always called you a bitch and all. I'm sorry I said "I still love you, because I have to, since you're my daugher." I just didn't understand you, and I realize that now. You were right all along. To make up for it, here's $50, go buy yourself something nice...and here's some cheesecake too. And just so you know I'm serious, some coupons for pizza... etc.. etc...

T: I'm sorry I always make you worry. It's not because I don't care about you. I just don't want you to get hurt over me. From now on, let's be together, always. I promise, I'll wait forever.

K: Hey, are you alright? If you need something, you can talk to me, I'm here for you. etc.

everyone: Sorry for treating you like a retard or a freak. We were really just jealous.

dad: I'm sorry for being an alcoholic, and for being abusive. I'm sorry I wasn't a part of your life. I'm sorry my father's poor behaviour carried over into the next generation. I'm sorry for bad-mouthing your mom in front of you. ("It's ok Dad, she deserved it, haha!") (...my dad doesn't talk like this...)

C: I always thought you were hotter than Anna.

[queen of pain]

M: I'm sorry I married that fucking piece of shit, I never should've let him touch you.

P: I'm sorry I'm a knob end, I shouldn't have lied to you and your family, I need to be shot, here have a pistol.

T: I've been unfair to you, my daughters problems are my fault, not yours, you've stopped her from suicide, I've driven her to it.

J: I'm sorry I'm insensitive, I just don't know how to deal with SI than to joke about it, I'm sorry for calling you fucked up.



Dee
xxx

[magebaby]

[moved to the other Things left unsaid thread]