last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Fri Dec 24, 2004 4:47 am

Let's see.. last time i wanted to SI but didnt.. I posted on here.. Was talked calm by my best friend.. who threatened an ass kicking on me if i did.. thing is she is too nice and could never do that so i smiled .. kinda wierd but it made me smile.. i didnt cause i promised my friends i wouldnt.. i promised myself i wouldnt.. and because I realized that if I wanted to change so bad...I'd better start there..

SchlafEwig · Post by **SchlafEwig** » Sun Dec 26, 2004 4:29 am

I didn't because my life was threatened. I didn't because my realtionship was threatened. There are a million reasons.. but there were also a million reasons why I had started in the first place.

For anyone who has honestly gone through this, and not started with a little shaving razor because your best friend did it, or because you saw it on the Lifetime channel or in a magazine, you know what I'm speaking of. You have every reason to start that beautiful flow of deep crimson.. but you have every reason to put the blade down. The only flaw is that you only see the reasons that you wish to see, and those are the ones which influence you one way or the other.

This being my first post.. I wish not to get very personal. As with any post I may write, I will not. I would just like to take the time to recognise what some people go through, and what some people want to go through.. If you mutilate.. you are one of two kinds of people.. Either you are just a lost sheep searching for some sympathy.. or you are the wolf who doesn't want it..

Don't fake something for fame. It just annoys people.. and if anyone should be afraid to annoy anyone else.. You shouldn't annoy me...

Sheila.

peanut · Post by **peanut** » Sun Jan 02, 2005 11:13 pm

I try to remember that I am strong enough to feel the emotional pain I feel--and to not let it consume my sanity. I ask my higher power to help me, for me this is using the name allah--repeating it over and over again until I feel "sane" again. It has worked in the past for over a year or two..I have recently relapsed, but am now 2 days SI free and feeling lotts of hope! love, peanut

peanut · Post by **peanut** » Sun Jan 02, 2005 11:13 pm

I try to remember that I am strong enough to feel the emotional pain I feel--and to not let it consume my sanity. I ask my higher power to help me, for me this is using the name allah--repeating it over and over again until I feel "sane" again. It has worked in the past for over a year or two..I have recently relapsed, but am now 2 days SI free and feeling lotts of hope! love, peanut

peanut · Post by **peanut** » Sun Jan 02, 2005 11:14 pm

I try to remember that I am strong enough to feel the emotional pain I feel--and to not let it consume my sanity. I ask my higher power to help me, for me this is using the name allah--repeating it over and over again until I feel "sane" again. It has worked in the past for over a year or two..I have recently relapsed, but am now 2 days SI free and feeling lotts of hope! love, peanut

marylou · Post by **marylou** » Mon Jan 03, 2005 9:47 pm

Because I didn't get out of bed until I didn't want to SH anymore. It was eighteen long, painfully boring hours... but I didn't SH

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Tue Jan 04, 2005 4:30 pm

Because I knew on some level that I didn't need to.

Koru · Post by **Koru** » Wed Jan 05, 2005 4:22 pm

Because I wanted to be able to go to swim training, because I don't want my new boyfriend ever to see me like that.
So I went to the gym instead.

Tainted · Post by **Tainted** » Wed Jan 05, 2005 5:07 pm

My bestest freind in the world bought me a beautiful book to write in......and i vented for an hour last night...I am scared to read it....I prolly wont, but at least I didnt cut..YAY ME!

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Sun Jan 09, 2005 6:49 pm

well done tainted *clap clap*

_dreamwalkin_ · Post by **_dreamwalkin_** » Wed Jan 12, 2005 3:11 am

i called my best friend - just told him i was having hard times and he was there....he asked me if i wanted him to come over but i was doing pretty good - i went shopping the next hour with my friend so, yeah, that's what i did

gc_laura · Post by **gc_laura** » Thu Jan 13, 2005 3:56 am

i didnt because i knew i would feel really bad afterwards and didnt want that, it wasnt worth it.... i listened to music instead!

pinkstar011 · Post by **pinkstar011** » Thu Jan 13, 2005 4:25 am

The only reason I didnt SI last time I had the urge is because I was going somewhere that night and I didnt want ne 1 to know or to see.

delirium_delight · Post by **delirium_delight** » Thu Jan 13, 2005 7:09 am

The last time i wanted to si but didn't was several months ago. I was dealing with a total arse of a boyfriend who had spit on me and called me stupid and i wanted to cut very badly. But then i realized that he was the problem and not me, and if he were not making me so unhappy at that moment then i wouldn't even want to si. so i ditched the razor and him.

empty soul · Post by **empty soul** » Thu Jan 13, 2005 7:17 pm

the last time i wanted to SI, was yesterday, but i spoke to my friend and he helped me deal with why i felt so upset.

kate xXx

Agarwaen · Post by **Agarwaen** » Fri Jan 14, 2005 5:51 am

Actually, last time it was only because I couldn't find the instruments I use. I think I would have, if only I could sneak into my room to get them, but my mom was sleeping in there, and she's a light sleeper.

empty soul · Post by **empty soul** » Sun Jan 16, 2005 9:37 pm

last time was about two hours ago. i just wrote loads of random stuff down about how i was feeling, that stopped me.

kate
xXx

marylou · Post by **marylou** » Mon Jan 17, 2005 12:00 pm

I was on my own, all my friends had gone out to cafe, I was going to SH but then they all arrived back 20mins later someone in the cafe had set the fire alarm off.
Just by being around they stopped me.

Priceless · Post by **Priceless** » Mon Jan 17, 2005 2:20 pm

i wanted to do drugs so bad but i couldn´t because im quitting them so i wanted to si instead, but then i wrote on bus, and then i tried to fall asleep so i didn´t si.

dont speak · Post by **dont speak** » Tue Jan 18, 2005 1:08 am

i told myself first i ahd to read each one of these posts and by the 5th page the urge was almsot completley gone.. plus i dont feel like starting over again, 1 weeks not long but God its seemed like months! plus i want to show myself i can do it, SI doesnt contol me! im stronger than that! im better than that!

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