Making more of an effort to stop. *possible SI trigger*

[esaeler]

Lately I've been really sick, and my biggest fear was going to see a doctor, since that would probably have meant the discovery of my SI. I never want to have to feel that paranoia again, so I've decided to make a bigger effort to stop than I ever have before.

Does anyone have any suggestions that could really help me? I need all the help I can get, and anything is appreciated.

Who knows? Maybe I'll even get the strength to finally get rid of my tools...for good.

[kissthesky46]

i don't have advice, sorry, but i wanted to say that i know how you feel... the paranoia is harder than the actual act. it's harder and harder to hide it from my parents every day. i hope you do decide to go to the doctor, maybe you could see a therapist first for suggestions?

i hope someone else has better advice.

[BlackTara]

I suggest devoting a certain amount of time each day to the healthy coping strategy of your choice. Maybe writing, drawing, meditation, or singing helps you. You could devote an hour or so each day to this sort of activity. I've found that the more you express yourself in healthy ways, the less frequent and intense the urges become.