Wynndi Giving up my tools.... *possible trigger*
Giving up my tools.... *possible trigger*
Today I gave Ms. Rupp (my math teacher, who is like a second mom to me) my cutting tools. I told her I had to get rid of them. My presious tools, I am really scared. I gave up the two things that were my broken saftey net. I just want to ask for some support. Last time I even lost my two tools I freaked out and I need some way to cope with this. Any Ideas......?
Wynndi
Wynndi 
No Slips.
what alternatives do you already know work for you? (drawing on yourself? distracting? excercise? ice cubes?)
do you have a friend you can call when you feel triggered?
what will you do if you feel trapped and want to cut?
just questions to think about. i'm glad you were able to take the first step in deciding to give up your tools, that's a huge accomplishment.
good luck with everything, and i'm here to talk if you ever want to pm me.
love, tara.
do you have a friend you can call when you feel triggered?
what will you do if you feel trapped and want to cut?
just questions to think about. i'm glad you were able to take the first step in deciding to give up your tools, that's a huge accomplishment.
good luck with everything, and i'm here to talk if you ever want to pm me.love, tara.
i thought i was a fool for no one, but baby i'm a fool for you.
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I have my rubber bands. Yesterday I was feeling so upset I punched a wall...that did work to well. I messed up my wrist and nuckle. Well I have some people's numbers I can call when I feel triggered and I have people to talk to...I am just scared...I never, since I started cutting, have been without them. Its kinda like on LOTR, my tools take over me like the ring takes over its 'master'. Well my tools dont have that power, but still. I dont know what I am saying....I sound crazy! 
Wynndi
Wynndi 
I did the same thing a few weeks ago, i gave my whole pile of knives to my mother...it didn't do very well as i found some other tools...i really hope this goes well for you. i liked the idea for drawing on yourself? that was a good idea! try that! 
it's a good thing you're trying to stick it out, good for you! i hope you do well, good luck!
it's a good thing you're trying to stick it out, good for you! i hope you do well, good luck!
scream me something beautiful
a bright red scream
scream me something hideous
jagged and piercing
scream me something...
a bright red scream
scream me something hideous
jagged and piercing
scream me something...
wow I am really proud of you... i need to do the same, but I can't find it in me to get rid of them yet, so congragulations!
as for what to do... well, try lots of distractions, or maybe put your reliance that you had for your tools onto something else, like a teddy?
hope that helps, congragulations again!
lots of love
as for what to do... well, try lots of distractions, or maybe put your reliance that you had for your tools onto something else, like a teddy?
hope that helps, congragulations again!
lots of love
I just cant give it up. I was cleaning my room and I found some of my old old tools. And last night was a hard night. I am just not capible of dealing with all this bad stuff that is going on. 3 teachers at my school who have been my support and have helped me through high school have left my school. One very important one I just found out about on Friday. I started crying to hard. And then that night I cleaned my room looking for something to give him, well I found my tools. Bad thing. Then last night I got so drunk because I was home alone and no one would answer their phones, So I gave up and did some drugs and drank. I am not as strong as I try to be sometime. I was just wondering if anyone has gone through some similar inncodents where people really close to you left you and you freaked out. Maybe I can find some way to get through this without causing myself more hard. I really hate Christmas!!!!!! Well sorry for my depressing ranting and raving......if you want to pm me with your stories or whatnot you can!
Wynndi
Wynndi I'm sorry you had a bad night, I hope you're OK now
Maybe, only if you feel ready to, you could throw out your old tools too? Only when you want to.
Christmas can be really stressful, I know, it's one of the worst times of the year for me sometimes, I know how you feel. I'm sorry I can't give you any proper advice or relate but here are some hugs:
I really hope you're OK!
Love and hugs,
Hannah xxxxxxxx
Maybe, only if you feel ready to, you could throw out your old tools too? Only when you want to.
Christmas can be really stressful, I know, it's one of the worst times of the year for me sometimes, I know how you feel. I'm sorry I can't give you any proper advice or relate but here are some hugs:
I really hope you're OK!
Love and hugs,
Hannah xxxxxxxx
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