*ED* taking the place of *SI*....help??

[broken_words]

I've been 13 weeks and 6 days free of *SI* and now taking that spot is *ed*....i don't think it is an *ed* b/c i just don't eat much and if i do, i take diet pills... i'm on 18 a day about...yesterday i only took 9 so yeah...and the day before that i took 5. But i guess things aren't going the way i planned...i need to know if you think i have an *ed* or not. I try to make myself puke..but it doesn't work...i just gag...i'm lucky i guess cuz i would be puking right now...it's not just to be thin...i'm already underwight...it's so that i'm physically in pain you know? so yeah...and the pills are organic...just so yea know! Can anyone offer advice or something?

[dreams]

Congratulations on being 13 weeks free of SI.

Yes this is an eating disorder and more importantly self harming behaviour. Diet pills can be very dangerous.

it's so that i'm physically in pain you know?

Why do you need to be in physical pain?

Is there any other thing you could do other than causing yourself physical pain that would help?

i guess things aren't going the way i planned

What were your plans? What did you hope to acheive?


Have you seen these posts:

151 things to do before you SI
Laura's list of coping strategies

We are here to offer you support. Hugs if wanted.

dreams