Need to talk, but no one's there, so this is my alternative

[queen of pain]

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
I'm so scared that I'll lose Amy

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
I've never felt this upset before, everything hurts too much on the inside

What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
So far, I have talked to Amy about what is bothering me. I could call her, but my mum won't let me use the phone

How do I feel right now?
I feel lonely, scared, a little hopeless and me head hurts so much

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
I'll feel something other than this, all of this mental will go away for a little while

How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
I will feel relief for a little while, tomorrow morning, I will feel absolutely awful, in pain and guilty

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
Try not to be so negative and worry less

Do I need to hurt myself?
No I don't need to, no one does, I just want to

Love Dee
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Hugs are very welcome

[littlethings]

Try not to be so negative and worry less

I don't know about you, but I wish I could just flip a switch and change that. Usually it's a little bit harder. Is there something else you can do? Writing down what you feel in a journal or here? Or what about something physical to generate some of those nice endorphines?

If you want to talk to Amy, do you have a plan for when you will be able to see/talk to her? Uncertainty can make feelings of hopelessness and loneliness that much worse. Could you make a plan if you don't have one?

If your head hurts physically (headache?) is there something you can do to relieve that, taking some tylenol or a nap. It's pretty hard to think clearly when you have a headache.

How about writing Amy a letter? You don't have to send it, but you could. That way you can get out your concerns right away.

take care,
JoAnna

[queen of pain]

Thanks JoAnna
I didn't cut
Hmm, I have to thank Noel, I just unloaded on him and ranted and I felt better. Then Amy called me and I felt even better, but I saw her at school today and we had a very long talk, and we're ok.

So I feel loooooooads better.

Dee
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