last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Tue Sep 07, 2004 11:36 am

Because when I looked the urge in the eye, it kind of wilted. When I actually looked at it, there wasn't really much there. I was just tired, so I distracted myself then caught up on some sleep.

Mystik · Post by **Mystik** » Wed Sep 08, 2004 8:48 am

I didn't because I was in an exam today, but I didn't but I still had my blade though.

kazeldya · Post by **kazeldya** » Wed Sep 08, 2004 2:09 pm

Because I was in class and so surrounded by people. Plus the only "tool" I had was fingernails... I still sort of want to but I'm working on not.

swanfaerie · Post by **swanfaerie** » Fri Sep 10, 2004 4:56 am

cuz someone else was hurting worse than me and i helped her instead.

jaded melody · Post by **jaded melody** » Fri Sep 10, 2004 6:44 pm

Because i was too tired, i just went to sleep.
Hey, it works!

M xxx

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Fri Sep 10, 2004 6:50 pm

I tricked myself out of it. I decided I'd do it in the morning, when I'd have time and space to. But, of course, morning came and I didn't. I got up, got dressed, and then I was all covered up so it'd be more effort to find some inconspicuous skin to cut. So I didn't, and now the urge is as good as gone.

kurdt_kobain · Post by **kurdt_kobain** » Tue Sep 14, 2004 2:56 am

Oh, wait, I did.

kazeldya · Post by **kazeldya** » Tue Sep 14, 2004 3:56 am

kurdt_kobain wrote:Oh, wait, I did.

Oh... I'm sorry.

8586 · Post by **8586** » Tue Sep 14, 2004 4:03 am

I was at work....

Long story, read my place, though I know you don't care.

I was unable to though, thank goodness.

silent screamer · Post by **silent screamer** » Tue Sep 14, 2004 5:01 am

Last time i wanted to, i put my knife in a drawer (out of sight, out of mind) balled my hands into fists, and cried it all out. clenching my fists so tight, i almost cut my palms with my finger nails, just rocking back and forth on the floor. i was crying so hard, i was hyperventalating. but i didn't do it. as soon as i could talk, i called my boyfriend and talked to him until i fell asleep. he was the only reason i didn't do it. i promised him i wouldn't.

limestone · Post by **limestone** » Tue Sep 14, 2004 5:13 pm

cried, listened to loud music, and then phoned the samaritans the next day. also a really big thing was to just let myself be ok with the fact that I felt angry.

ludo · Post by **ludo** » Sat Sep 18, 2004 12:34 am

my five year old daughter came in to see me so we had a cuddle instead, with her looking out the window and chattering about what she could see, while I just enjoyed the uncomplicated contact and was able to start breathing again

BuyMeLife · Post by **BuyMeLife** » Sun Sep 19, 2004 5:04 pm

well i postponed it...still continuing to do so..

Molly5 · Post by **Molly5** » Mon Sep 20, 2004 8:32 pm

last time I kept the door to my room open... you can't really do it with people walking by and saying hi

Bathelina · Post by **Bathelina** » Tue Sep 21, 2004 11:16 am

Uhh... what stopped me last time was the fact that I'd had two bad urges the weekend before and I feel really proud and good after I've got over and urge. Sometimes I am so close to self-harming but I am now able to control myself.
Love, Hannah

:)

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Tue Sep 21, 2004 11:50 am

I distracted myself until I wasn't on my own anymore and knew I'd be safe. I posted on here, and got the support I needed. I kept busy, made sure I did the things I need to. And it passed, eventually.

P!nk · Post by **P!nk** » Wed Sep 22, 2004 4:19 am

...because I can't. I have to work & use my arms & am afraid of what I might do... because I can't mess up yet as I just started work & I don't want to end up in the ER or IP. I don't wan't to dissapoint my mgr, my T, my parents, even me...

stupidest reason of all... the gilmore girls season premiere is on tonight... but still trying to remember the above reasons so I don't do it at all...

Rogue · Post by **Rogue** » Fri Sep 24, 2004 4:56 am

Last time I wanted to but didnt, I started writing poetry, and kept reminding myself over and over of how Michael would be upset if I did.

Post by **sine nomine** » Sat Sep 25, 2004 3:09 am

just wanted to say how much i love reading this thread. it's this whole litany of triumphs and people trying to cope, even if it doesn't always work. thank you.

Sparrow · Post by **Sparrow** » Sat Sep 25, 2004 12:05 pm

I can't honestly say I have managed to 'not' when I 'wanted' to and thus ended up SI'ing in the end. 'But' ,,, what I do that often works for me is to remove myself from the house entirely,,,go out into my yard where I have my gardens filled with flowers. I then pick some of them, make myself a little 'you'll be okay' bouquet and that makes me feel better enough right then to not do it. I then stay outside long enough until the urge subsides. Sounds dumb I guess ,,, but whatever works then I'll take it.

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