last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

jaded melody · Post by **jaded melody** » Wed Aug 25, 2004 12:10 pm

Yesterday when i wanted to but didnt i wrote all over my arms and stomach in black pen and wrote some stuff down to vent some of the feelings, then, FRIDGE POETRY! seriously it rocks. You know those packets of magnets with words on them that you stick on your fridge and make poetry or sentences with? That stuff.

They give you the words, so its not really like writing poetry its like a word game, but you can make sentences and poems that mean something to you too. I highly reccomend it. It distracted me for ages and i felt better afterwards.

Melody xxx

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Wed Aug 25, 2004 1:04 pm

I had no energy left, completely drained, so I went to sleep

I agree, sleep is always good

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Wed Aug 25, 2004 3:05 pm

Talking to someone on msn.

jaded melody · Post by **jaded melody** » Wed Aug 25, 2004 3:07 pm

Listened to The Vines real loud
Melody xxx

crash · Post by **crash** » Wed Aug 25, 2004 3:58 pm

I didn't because I end up hating myself the next day and I am scared it will go too far.
So, I cried for awhile which made me feel better. Then, I did some reading and went to bed and let my bf hold me.

kazeldya · Post by **kazeldya** » Wed Aug 25, 2004 9:21 pm

Because I stayed in bed. I wasn't that tired anymore and really wanted to get up and do it, but today made 3 weeks, and I didn't want to start over. Wanting to SI was like when I'm not tired and feel like I should get up and do homework or something instead of staying in bed... it's hard to explain, but I thought over it a lot, and the resistance was almost like the negative thing. I had to convince myself not to, even though when I'm angry or something and can't sleep, I want to get up and write about it or SI or something. Plus today was the first day of school, and I figured I'd sleep more if I stayed in bed.

Still didn't get to sleep for a while, but I'm glad I didn't do it.

:1_week_si_free:

tenar · Post by **tenar** » Wed Aug 25, 2004 9:22 pm

Jaded_Melody wrote: They give you the words, so its not really like writing poetry its like a word game, but you can make sentences and poems that mean something to you too. I highly reccomend it. It distracted me for ages and i felt better afterwards.

i did that a few times. somehow working out feelings with fridge poetry is way easier, and because words are limited i felt less powerles because i couldnt' find the exact words. though beware - one time i did it was at a party - fine until the morning and someone started asking questions about all the 'weird stuff on the fridge'

xx

soulstory · Post by **soulstory** » Thu Aug 26, 2004 7:01 am

I put it off for a few minutes... and then again... and again... and again. Umm, I'm still doing that.

anna · Post by **anna** » Thu Aug 26, 2004 8:39 am

*ED*

I don't know if it counts, but last night I both came here, and had a drink.

That isn't my usual method of putting it off. Normally I'll (over)eat, catch up on friends online journals, or surf photography sites.

Firinn Annam · Post by **Firinn Annam** » Thu Aug 26, 2004 12:19 pm

i've made a bag (patchhwork so it would take longer), Made two tangtops tonight and am on this board now. Caught up on my uni work becaquse that is part of the reason i wanted to...

limestone · Post by **limestone** » Fri Aug 27, 2004 8:09 am

didn't because I played loud music.

caterpillargirl · Post by **caterpillargirl** » Tue Aug 31, 2004 1:17 am

i didn't because i didn't really have much of a valid reason for the trigger and i didn't much feel like explaining to my boyfriend that i had cut for no good reason

Firinn Annam · Post by **Firinn Annam** » Tue Aug 31, 2004 7:36 am

I'm on my way to the pub now, but i havent SI'd to my urges today because i am scared how far i will go... I have been free for quite a while now and am scared the urges will all build up to one big session and i wont know when to stop... so i tell myself not to start

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Tue Aug 31, 2004 2:31 pm

I held on, and it passed.

Mea Culpa · Post by **Mea Culpa** » Tue Aug 31, 2004 3:53 pm

Last night I didn't si!
I remained dressed from work -- long sleeve sweater, trousers, and stockings! That was the first step. If I don't see my skin, I don't think of scarring it...
I was having a massive anxiety attack and wanted nothing more than to sit alone and "calm my mind" as I like to call it... But I simply could not sit down. I ended up moving every piece of furniture in my house, except for my iron bed (although I probably would have if I could have done it by myself). I moved couches from one room to another, armoires, TVs, radios; you name it, I moved it. I also hung new art. I liked the hammering!!

So, that's my story -- Who knows what I'll do tonight....anyone need a superhuman redhead to move their furniture??
oxox, mac

sam 89 · Post by **sam 89** » Thu Sep 02, 2004 12:16 am

...I'm trying to make it until September 6th (which will be a month) without hurting myself.

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Thu Sep 02, 2004 5:25 pm

Because after a month free, I know I don't need to.

AngelWithTheScabbedWings · Post by **AngelWithTheScabbedWings** » Fri Sep 03, 2004 6:58 am

last time i wanted to cut and didnt was today... i was tempted to... then i listened to the song "hurt" by johnny cash... its an amazing song.. if you havent heard it i highly reccomend it...

mywildrainbow · Post by **mywildrainbow** » Sun Sep 05, 2004 4:51 am

basically, the real reason is that I didn't have anything to cut with. I went to the store though, even picked up the razor blades, but I didn't buy any!

Chessie · Post by **Chessie** » Mon Sep 06, 2004 8:28 am

I didn't because I've quit SI and I don't want to go back to using it as a way to cope. I know I can get by using healthier ways to cope. Plus, I want to stand up the evil pdoc who once told me I'd never quit SIing.

-chessie

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