last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

grrrr · Post by **grrrr** » Tue Jun 29, 2004 2:40 am

it's really hot and humid here right now and i can't bear the long sleeves this week.

Greybon · Post by **Greybon** » Wed Jun 30, 2004 1:48 am

Because a friend checked in on me and asked me not to.

tenar · Post by **tenar** » Wed Jun 30, 2004 2:11 am

because it doesn't work anymore and even if it did it would soon stop working and then i'd be even more stuck

because i looked at some photos from when i decided to quit and was quite shocked...i don't want that again.

badgirl22 · Post by **badgirl22** » Thu Jul 01, 2004 7:31 am

Monday I didn't SI because I decided to cut my hair instead..stupid idea but worked. The urge got a little less after cutting it. And writing on bus and making bracelets. So..that is the first time I didn't cut when I really wanted too.

Yay for me:)
-Badgirl22

spaz · Post by **spaz** » Fri Jul 02, 2004 6:10 am

because my brother said if i did it again he'd punch me in the face. This threat stopped me for a good 3 days......

tenar · Post by **tenar** » Sat Jul 03, 2004 1:52 am

it achieves:

thats right. nothing. nothing nothing nothing. damnit,

greeneyes92 · Post by **greeneyes92** » Sat Jul 03, 2004 2:20 am

sadly enough last time i wanted to i did...bleh im working on it

Surrah · Post by **Surrah** » Thu Jul 08, 2004 12:48 am

last time i wanted to si i didnt..i called my best friend. and then i took a nap.

kazeldya · Post by **kazeldya** » Thu Jul 08, 2004 2:17 am

I promised a friend I'd call him first, and I couldn't bear to actually do that. Plus he is really interested in my scars and likes that they are getting smaller. And it's so hard to explain SI to him.

Also, I'm house-sitting recently, and I didn't want to borrow something from their house or drive to my apt. just to SI.

I got a vaccine yesterday, and the pain in my shoulder later was far worse than SI, esp. the comparable SI (I used to use needles before I started using razors). I wanted to SI just to see that it was different - less painful, but I didn't.

elected_princess · Post by **elected_princess** » Fri Jul 09, 2004 4:19 pm

i go and i sit in the same room as my mum, the guilt stops me.....

8586 · Post by **8586** » Fri Jul 09, 2004 5:37 pm

Because I haven't since... I think April 14th, and I am not going to fuck it up!

swanfaerie · Post by **swanfaerie** » Sun Jul 11, 2004 9:46 am

i ended up talking to someone who was hurting worse than me and it kinda put things back into perspective.

mathcat · Post by **mathcat** » Mon Jul 12, 2004 6:50 am

Because I don't want to risk my relationship with my husband nor do I want my 3 year old son to be effected in any way by my si (he might hear my husband argue with me about si, what if he were to walk in while I si'ed, he doesn't need a mommy in the type of mental state I would be in if I si'ed). I have not si'ed since Dec. 1989 except one barely qualifying time after I was mugged in 1990. Even though there are some times, especially lately, that the urges are almost impossible to deny, starting again would be so major that I shouldn't even let myself begin to go there.

mathcat

F.I.N.E. · Post by **F.I.N.E.** » Mon Jul 12, 2004 5:24 pm

I decided to go to sleep instead. I've stopped wanting to make my pain real, I'd prefer to just ignore it instead.

tenar · Post by **tenar** » Tue Jul 13, 2004 12:14 am

- because i now know that 3 of my friends in my boat club who are several years younger than me are si'ing, and they know both that i did and that i stopped....i want to be able to help them to stop, i want to show them that they can stop...i don't want to mess that up by si'ing. its weird to say but i there is a degree of respect for me as an older and more experienced person...i don't want to wreck that by si'ing

- because i promised my ex that i wouldn't as condition of our break-up (ok, that sounds weird, but it was what we both wanted and he was unwilling to go ahead with it cos of my history of si)

- because my mum would ask prying questions as soon as she found out about the break-up and i don't want to have to lie to her again

- instead i just told myself i wouldn't, seperated myself from tools and went to cry in the shower instead

silentdreaming · Post by **silentdreaming** » Tue Jul 13, 2004 1:03 pm

I was too afraid of being selfish and being caught out but the urge was still there. I am selfish.

Silentdreaming

Boston617 · Post by **Boston617** » Wed Jul 14, 2004 4:30 am

- I really didn't want to hurt my boyfriend.

Boston617 · Post by **Boston617** » Wed Jul 14, 2004 4:31 am

Oops I posted my message twice, sorry!

tellus · Post by **tellus** » Fri Jul 16, 2004 8:19 am

sometimes i stop myself by picturing myself as a little girl, and thinking about how i would never dream of hurting her. and i know that as a child i never wanted to be someone who cuts themself.

flam3 · Post by **flam3** » Sat Jul 17, 2004 5:42 am

thank you thank you thank you to tenar for starting this thread. it helps so much......when i want to si i cant really think clearly enough to come up w/ a reason to stop myself. reading this thread kinda brings me back to reality long enough to really think about what im doing. so, thats one of the things i do when i want to si. thanks again

-flam3

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last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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last time i wanted to.......

stopping

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