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Hey Mab.

It sounds as though you're doing what you can to make things better - talking to the right people and getting the help you need slowly. It's frustrating that it takes time though, and it leaves you in a bit of a gap while you get up to the right dose of meds and wait for people to sort stuff out for you though.

I think talking about how you feel is a good idea. Recognising anger is hard though, recognising any emotion is hard. Is there a way you can spot when you're getting angry, so that you can take action (like talking to someone - either someone who can help ina practical way or someone to vent to) to stop it before it gets worse? Is there a simple sign or thought pattern you can watch out for?

that does sound like a difficult situation. i can well understand the frustration.

with the anger piece— what sense do you make of it that you're angry at someone else, and so you hurt yourself? not that i don't understand it emotionally, as i've done the same kind of thing; i just think it can be useful to notice that disconnect.

something else that may or may not be helpful in your situation— it's been suggested to me that i don't see anger as an "okay" emotion, so i try to immediately make it go away somehow rather than acknowledging or listening to it. so i've been looking at my assumptions about anger (what do i think will happen if i feel it? do i think it will ever go away? do i think someone will get hurt?) just something to think about, maybe.

take care.

dragonfly