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have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.

yes.

what had happened just before?

I was cooking.

what were you thinking and feeling?

I was trying not to feel anything. Earlier I was upset but didn't feel like I should be so I was just pushing everything down and felt really numb. I wasn't thinking a lot it was fairly spur of the moment.

why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was teh final straw? what was it?

I don't know. I shouldn't have, it was an impulsive thing. I was just feeling really numb.

how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events thatled up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decisiona nd not arrived at the final straw.

I don't know. I was chatting with my stepmom over the computer. And then I was thinking about stuff. And I was feeling kind of upset about some things that I shouldn't be upset about so I just kind of pushed that down and so I was just numb.

were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?

No drugs, no alcohol. I'm not on any meds. I haven't been sleeping well for the last few monthes. I'm kind of stressed out . It's the end of the school year, there are a lot of things going on with the kids. I don't know I would like to get more sleep but I've just been having trouble sleeping.

what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?

I didn't try anything else, it was very spur of the moment. I guess getting numb was my coping mech. That didn't work well. I also cleaned and cleaned and cleaned earlier today. I was trying to cook to distract myself but that was, in hindsight, not a good place for me to be.

in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?

I don't know. I'm still feeling numb.


I'll do the other questions in a minute.

name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.

Those coping methoods.. Hmm didn't come up with any did I. Ok I'll come up with them and figure out how to remember them.

Take a shower

Take a walk. (Not always possible, I'm at home alone with the kiddos so I'd have to get them ready and then take the walk with them which, at night not such a great idea anyway.)

Ok..non walk activity. Embriorder. I could have done that.

To help me remember? I'm not sure. I'm not trying to be stubborn here I'm just still feeling really muddled. maybe I should do this later.

how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?

I feel stupid about the situation. In trying not to get upset. If I had just gotten upset I would have been ok by now because I just got an email which took care of the main thing I was upset about.

are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?

yes I'm likely to be here again. recognize it? I don't know, this didn't seem much different than a hundred other times I've been tempted to si but haven't. Tonight I wasn't even really thinking about SI and I did it anyway. I don't really understand tit myself.

what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.

talking with my mom was a mistake so I won't do that.

1. take a shower (well hell I couldn't have done that tonight either who would watch the kiddos?)

ok.

1. colour or draw with crayons
2. embroirder
3. watch something funny on TV or read something funny in a book