After (A first after post for me)

[Guest]

have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
Yes

what had happened just before?
I have been having a really hard time with the stress of finals and the even bigger stress of going home for the summer and going back to work

what were you thinking and feeling?
How hard it is to deal with my manager at work and what he does, and the fact that no one will help me. That I need to get working on my biology lab report because I already got an extension, and I really can't ask for another one.

why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was teh final straw? what was it?
I needed the urge to go away so I could concentrate, I did it now so I wouldn't end up getting even more piled on me tomorrow, I am so behind. I waited for a while because I didn't have a tool, and it took me a while to find it. At first just having it was enough, but that didn't last too long.

how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events thatled up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decisiona nd not arrived at the final straw.
Taken a nap to try and give myself a break and get up early to finish my lab report.

were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
I am not on meds, but am going to the pdoc on tuesday to hopefully get some that will help. I haven't been getting much sleep, but that is normal so I am not sure if it was a factor.

what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
Calling a friend, repeated calls and she never picked up, going for a walk, that led me to a new tool, and trying to alternate a little homework with time on BUS, it helped me hold out for a while, but I kept spending more time on BUS and less time with homework so I didn't get anything done

in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
Possibly talking to my roommate

name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
It is not really applicable as she is moving out in a few days, and will be gone this weekend.

how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
I am beter able to do my homework, and feeling slightly less overwhelmed at the moment, so it is resolved for now

are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
Highly likely. I can always feel it coming, it will start getting harder to focus and I will start thinking about SI more, and finally right before I do it I will try to pick out a spot, and get it all organized in my head, make sure I can do wound care and everything

what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
1. Call my friend
2. Go for a walk
3. Write in my journal

[plantt]

what ways of dealing with stress do you use other than si? what kept you from taking a nap?
am glad that you actively had to go out & find a tool rather than instantly picking one up

[Guest]

I nap, go for a walk or write. I had already been on a walk and that didn't help. I couldn't nap because I was to frantic and jumpy, and my brain wouldn't make enough collective thoughts to write, it just made me feel worse.

[plantt]

guess it depends on what you mean by 'didn't help'... assuming that you didn't si while on your walk... i'd say it helped.
if you mean help... in that it didn't make things feel better or easier... imo that's not always possible. sometimes it's a matter of accepting that things feel awful & riding through... holding to the belief(or borrowing other peoples belief for a while) that things will get better eventually...
sometimes it's worth doing what you can... over & over. if you're able to walk... & you didn't si while on the walk... & napping & writing were making urges worse... & you cannot think of anything else to do at the time... then go for another walk. & another. walk backwards. skip. hop. then do it again.